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Listening to: Spokane(Thankless Marriage)
Feeling: calm

5:12 Late Sunday Afternoon (12 October 2008)

  Pets are Good for the Soul

Minnaloushe is curled up on my lap. Awww.

I actually started reading the journal article that I picked out to lead the discussion for in our Soil Microbiology Special Topics group. It's amazing because it's well over 30 minutes before class starts, almost 24 hours before class starts. wow.

Party at Jeff's last night was a blast, we started watching Requiem for a Dream but got too depressed so popped in the original Batman from 1966 with Adam West as Batman. It was hilarious! 60s special effects rock. What a classic. There was a lot of sampling of international beer (but I only had like 8 sips total through the whole night), and delicious black cherry soda and nice black coffee.

It's not necessarily that I don't enjoy drinking alcoholic beverages, I just dislike being inebriated! I am perfectly capable of dancing and acting ridiculous and giggling obnoxiously in sobriety. Also driving afterwords is always like, how long is long enough after the last drink? even with food and water and what have you. It's a shame that wine is so delicious, really. No wonder Jesus was into it.

ahhh, still with the kitty on the lap. such a comfort, really.

today I learned what actinomycetes are! I can't believe I never knew before.

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7:41 p.m.

I read my first entry in this diary just now (after the entries that I liked the best from my old diary). Then the 10th. then the 20th. then the 30th. I was going to see if I could read every 10th entry I've written in this diary.

the first was about this new diary and why I got it.

the tenth was sort of about breaking up with scott, and also involved losing a cd scott made me, and building things on the beach. It occurred to me while I was reading my 10th entry of advertisement that I am not a water person. I love water, I appreciate water, but I am not water. I am grounded, I am interested in soil and the fertility of the land on which I live. Perhaps I am destined to be a soil scientist. Haha.

the 20th entry was about the first time I asked Caleb out. It wasn't about our first "date" but just the conversation that ensued. It is interesting, knowing the whole story instead of just my half, to read my half again. it seemed random and nonsymbolic at the time, but i know now that he was trying to ask ME out at the same time. He's just a lot more shy than me.

The 30th entry was on september 13th 2004 and involved the birthday party I'd gone to that weekend, and a few other happenings, I think also a date that I went on with a kid from my accounting class (I do recall this date very clearly, and I told Caleb about it trying to get him to tell me he didn't want me to go. but he didn't. so I went). Then it was about the fateful date we had, Caleb and me, where he tried to be subtle about wanting to hold my hand and where I didn't try to be subtle about kissing him.

then i stopped because I wanted to reflect on these entries in this diary.

i guess it's impossible to see how life will turn out.

I'm so glad that my diary(ies) has(have) been here through all this.

most of high school, all of college. perhaps for the rest of my life.

you know, i sort of randomly really miss hanging out with Amy. I miss Amy a lot.

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October 13th, 2008 @ 1:44am
I really dislike my diary. It has too many bitter memories. But, every time I try to start a new one, it dies, and I end up back at the beginning again.

We actually have three fishtanks. My brother's obsessed. We've got a 4", 3" and a 2". Plus a 1" that isn't in use. Considering we only live in a small townhouse, it's a lot of space.

The biggest tank is home to a few American cichlids, which are cute and awesome, and an Oscar fish. The Oscar is evil and scares the other fish under the rocks. I really want to give it away, so we can get more colourful pretty fish for the big tank.. *sigh*. Oh well. Fish are the best - as long as you don't buy the aggressive ones!
October 13th, 2008 @ 3:28pm
yea he is and thanks.
October 16th, 2008 @ 7:37am
1960s batman is quite possibly the best thing ever. Oh how depressed I got the day they took it off air when I was like 8 and I never found out what happened to that episode where robin was about to get turned into a comic book.

I bought the movie of it the other day. I'm so watching it first thing when all this essay stuff blows over.
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