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Feeling: regretful

3:56 Mid Friday Afternoon (10 September 2010)

     Sorry.

I'm worried that everything in my life I'll eventually neglect as much as this diary....though I hope my worrying is useless.

Nick and Krzptak are gone.  I've seen each of them once since they moved.  I want them to come back. my social life has pretty much died without them.  So...my life has been pretty boring for a while.

Oh, but a few weekends ago, I ran into Wand again.  I don't remember how much I mentioned, the way I kicked him out of my house when he showed up wasted (again) and was being obnoxious (again), and making some of my friends feel uncomfortable (again).  So...it was the (again) bit that really made me mad.  I asked him to come outside with me and then told him that he wasn't welcome to my house drunk and/or high.  And then he started crying and bawling about how hard it is for him to make friends.  So I told him that he was a pretty neat guy when he was sober but we just aren't into drunk assholes around here.

Anyway I hadn't seen him since then until towards the end of August.  Caleb and I were watching a tv-show together that we recorded - we like to have inside dates where we cuddle on the couch, watch our fave tv show(s), and then talk about stuff.  it's nice. it's relaxing.  Then we heard knocking on our door - not the front but the back door.  For once, it was actually locked...we don't often lock the back door because that's how my sister gets in, or Krzptak when she was living here.  And it's Ltown for goodness sake, who the hell is gonna burgle us?  So first of all we're confused as to why anyone was at the back door because everyone goes to the front door first to see if we're home before going around to the back.  And also it's quite late at night...so it was weird.

Now, I wasn't wearing pants at the time - I know, that sounds awkward, but it was almost bedtime so I just had a pj shirt on and undies.  So..the knocking really freaked me out because i was only half dressed.  I ran into the bedroom while caleb went to get the door and scrambled around for clothes, settling on caleb's shorts which are way too big for me, but it was a start.

Caleb called to me "Uh.....it's for you...?" and so I walk down to the back and open it a smidge and there was Wand....crouching in the doorway.... his hands all bloody and scraped up and he's...wearing weird silver bracelets..and he's  corn-rowed his hair and put weird things like nuts and bolts and washers and stuff in it?  I'm like "....Hey, Wand...what's up..." and he said "um, do you have a metal file?" and then I did a double take - those weird metal bracelets look an awful lot like handcuffs all of a sudden.  "Wand?  Why are you wearing handcuffs?""Some dick put me in 'em.""A...policeman dick?""A DICK.""o..kay....  Why did a dick put you in handcuffs?""Do you have a metal file? or like, a saw? or whatever?"

"Uh, just a sec."  I turned back to caleb and tried to mouth "police" at him.  Caleb ran away to find a phone.

"So...what's the deal here, Wand?  What happened?""I'm not sure you want to know.  It's a long story."

"Right..well let's start with what you can tell me."

Then Caleb came back and told me the phone was for me.

"Are you calling the authorities?" asked Wand."Oh, no...It's probably Krzptak." I lied.  I stood up and Caleb quietly told me that he couldn't find my phone.  I quietly told him to keep Wand occupied while I attempted to find a phone and call the police.

I couldn't find my phone so I used Caleb's, which has a broken screen so you can't see anything, it's just blank whiteness to show you that it's on.  So I dialed 911 and it beeped weirdly at me so I hung up.. because I wasn't sure if I actually dialed the right number?  and I've never called 911 before.  But anyway I tried again and got the same weird beep so I stayed on the line this time and a dispatcher asked me the address of the emergency, which I gave, and the nature of the emergency.  "Well, my friend is in handcuffs at my back door." "What's your friend's name?" "Wand.  I don't actually know his last name." "Ok try to keep him there."  and then the line goes dead.  I thought it was abrupt of the dispatcher to hang up on me like that but I've never called 911 and so maybe they are just as brief as possible.  Later I realized that Caleb's phone had died, which is probably why the line went dead.

So as soon as I finished the call, I went back down where Caleb was talking talking to Wand, telling him that "oh you know, we haven't lived here that long so we haven't really amassed the proper tools for cutting metals..."  and upon hearing that Wand was still there, I grabbed a cup of water for Wand and went down to hand it to him and try to get him to tell me wtf happened in the meantime before the cops arrive (shortly i hoped).

He still wouldn't really tell me what happened.  He just told me "You're one of the few people in Ltown that I know."  I thought he was going to carry on "one of my few friends" or "one of the few people I know and trust" or anything really, but just left it at "know." in general.

"Uh..." I said.

"It's hard for me to make friends."

"Yeah..Why do you think that is, Wand?  Seriously.  When I met you I thought you were a pretty cool guy, like, you can build bikes!  Who does that?  It's awesome that you have that skill, and it's a useful skill! You can do things with that skill!  So we enjoyed hanging out with you, even if you were quiet, when you talked it was funny or interesting so that's why we kept inviting you to stuff.  Your personality when you're drunk or high or stoned? Not as cool."

We carried on a bit like that for a few more minutes.  He was just holding his cup of water.  I realized he couldn't really move his hands very well to drink it.  Just as I was going to help him have a sip of water, someone burst through the gate and yelled "WAND! We've been lookin for ya!" And picked him up under the arms and dragged him away.  I think I told him I was sorry, and I didn't know what to do.  Then I closed the door and locked it.

Then Caleb helped me up the stairs, and shut all the windows and reassured himself that the front door was locked and sat next to me on the couch, just sitting there, wondering what had just happened, listening to the commotion outside where the police were apparently enjoying the challenge of trying to shove Wand into the squad car.  When it quited down, someone knocked at our front door.  Caleb answered it.  It was a really tall policeman. I don't remember his name, but I remember him telling us. and asking us "so, Wand is your friend?" and me explaining how I knew Wand and how I hadn't seen him since I asked him to leave when he showed up inebriated to my house for the second time.  The officer told me that Wand had been inebriated tonight as well, and got mad at his bike when his computer cord got tangled in the wheels and threw his bike around, almost hitting a car.  So he was going to get a ticket for disorderly conduct, but he gave the officer a fake name which he couldn't find in the computer.  So I guess Wand gave him a fake name but his real address?  Because the officer told us that he took Wand back to his apartment and found his passport on the table. and as he was looking at the passport, Wand ran away. apparently to my place.

All I was thinking was "This is the stupidest crime ever. stupid stupid stupid. Why the hell is Wand so fucking stupid?"

and then we thanked the cop for being so timely and he left.

it was an adventure, and I was quite shaken up about it for the next few hours.  Thankfully, I haven't seen him since.  And I've always locked the door since.

next time i'll try to remind myself to write about my lesser adventures, my funnier moments.

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