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Well, I'm going to try and say this the best possible way I can.

I'm sorry. I don't think you even come on here anymore, maybe you do, I'm not sure.

It's all I really can say, I wish I could say something else, and truly express how bad I feel for the way things went.

I want to be your friend again.

I don't think you want that though.

I realized something. It's probably too late, and I feel so stupid for realizing it now, when I could have realized it before and everything would have been okay.

It's the reason why I stay up at night, not able to sleep.

I never got the chance to really apologize, and to understand you.

Now I must live with this forever.

I must say, this has been one strange week.

A race on foot to KMart, which I won. (Though I did not get anything out of it, except the sheer enjoyment of owning my friends)

Some random people telling me I suck at COD, right before I get three headshots in a row.

One of my friends is also trying to sex me up. Not gonna happen, sorry.

Someone showing me kindness (WTF?!?)

Me flipping out over nothing.

I say, it's all rather unusual!

It's late, I can't sleep.

At least I don't have school in the morning.

In the past week I've come to realize something that has probably changed my life. Maybe even for the better. I don't want to talk about it though, so don't even ask. I hurts to think about that.

I'm going to be turning 18 soon. Maybe I will buy some porn for the hell of it. Probably not though. What would I do with porn? XD

Don't answer that...

I hate not being able to sleep. I happens a lot. It's probably 'cos I think so much right before I go to bed, and I often upset myself with my thoughts. I really have to stop doing that...

What? Guys can be emotional too. =]

I feel sick alot. I don't know why. I've kinda stopped eating too.

I've also felt kinda depressed lately as well.

I don't know why that is either. =/

All these papers for school are killing me, but I suppose in the end it will all be worth it seeing as I will have a nice GPA in the end.

Things still linger on like always

I wonder to myself where it will take me in the end...

I hope it's somewhere nice.

Does anyone even still come and look at what I have to write?

Probably very few.

I don't think that you understand

The things we say are not always the things we feel

You need to think before you make mistakes

That someday may end up to link the reasons

Why we do the things we had to to

One day maybe you'll

Prove me wrong and do what we do.

I wonder sometimes why,

And then I answer my own question..

..So I can succeed.

I hate William

Those of you involved, will feel my wrath. You know who you are. You know who I am. We know each other. And I promise you:

You're actions against me and my kin will not go unpunished.

Maybe pubic lice would be the most appropriate form of punishment here.

So my mom is in the hospital. She had her operation and that went fine.

But now she has an infection and they won't let her out.

I'm really worried

And very stressed because of school.

This week is going to be bad.

Things are going nicely with Rachel.

I'm going to meet her mother on Thursday. Oh boy.

School is boring and easy. I have to put forth some effort, but otherwise it's a breeze.