Hey gos guys it has been so darn long a lot of stuff has happened. Well hmm my 21st b-day was a blast i drunk so much and didnt even get sick...shit my folkz decided i needed to go out right after i got off work that sat night but we had to wait till 12 but they took me to shots its was great. I had like 3 long islands and a tha guy in tha band bought me one too cuz we clicked and startin makin fun of people. Next my friend corrie showed up then we split from my folkz and went to tha infamous alley cat in broad ripple OMG bar is so small and crowded but great i had 2 beers there then we went to plumps and boy there is started drinkin screw drivers like 5 then 2 shots of crown so i had dark and light liquer and had a blast and i only spent 8 dollars. alright that is all done wit. well sept. 8 omg my uncle was killed it made television and everything. WE R CURRENTLY GOING TO COURT FOR THA GUY that murdered him. i am going to respect my uncle and not get detailled in how he was shot and where. In loving Memory of Uncle Tim Mothy. Hmm now we r in feb. well i have been hanging wit a guy from my past but nothing serious trust me just someone to talk to hehe. well i finally wrote back.

Hey everyone i am finally 21 years old of today. Alright my sat night was great i came home from work bout 10 last night my folkz was already drinkin so i had to catch up. Well ne wayz at 12 we went to shots and had a few drink yummy long islands. My friend corrie showed up so we headed to broad ripple in my city broad ripple is tha biggest bar hopping place besides downtown. Well ne wayz we went to tha alley cat and had a drink then we went to plumps. Hear is wat i order there 2 shots of crown,2 screwdrivers,and jack and coke.Well my friend corrie goes there all tha time so she knew tha bartender JESUS his is name well its joey but looks like tha pictures of jesus ne wayz he charged me for all that 3 dollars fuckin 3 dollars yo. Great night well i didnt get in till bout 6 in tha mornin it was so nice cuz away from my lil girl i needed it and no stress just booze and me being happy. Then today it was alright we had cake for me and my neice and shit but i do not like how my brothers gf acted omg pissed me off. BUt ne who i am off to get me something to keep my hydrated.

Ok people i am very sorry to who reads my diary and have seen tha same entry for like 2 months i am so so sorry. But ne wayz i left on in my entry bout how we was going to a Concert it was fuckin awesome loved it and drank and enjoyed myself and the many fights round. Well i still have my job i have been workin my ass off so much but i have made it so far for workin there for only 4 months i have trained someone been taught 2 diff. thing then most of tha people that have been there way longer then me so i am kinda like hell yea. I have been talkin to my love of my life lately but we r just remainin friends he is in tha army in germany right now but goes to iraq in january which will be tha sadest day ever. I know i have all these run on sentences if u dont like it fuck u hehe. talk to u guy slater got work tomorrow yay for me late.

Hey everyone. I used to write on here like everyday but now it is like monthly but i have been busy i guess that is what happeneds when i have a job. Well Thur. I went into work at 4 in tha afternoon and didnt get off till 6 tha mornin voluntarily took on my shift and tha all night shift to since some one called i know tha run on sentence but fuck it. Man shit i got helly overtime 7 hrs to be exact so i got time and half and night premuim my check should be fat. They started takin out my union dues and shit its leavin me broke but it will pay for its self in tha future i guess.Well i went into to day and saw i got my sat. off i am so happy i am going to MAYDAY which is runned by one of r music stations r alternative radio station i should say. Crossfade,Shinedown,3 Doors Down,and No Address is going to be there but i am there for my 3 bands fuck no address i just dont like there music. Ok i heard one song by them didnt draw my attention so i dont think i will enjoy them. HMMM..what else my neck is killin me and it is runnin through my back...killer pain. I debating on what i should do wit my nice lil hunk of cash this thursday keep 60 for tha concert or spend tha rest and get my tat. but i really need to get a car but u know shit i just want so much. My daughter has been actin really bad seems she forgot terrible 2's its terrible 4's. So i told her no more toys and stuff for awhile intil she can behavin i mean she is acting out bad. I guess she will grow out of it i hope but thats why i am teaching her she cant get everything she wants she can only get what she needs like clothes. Well i am off here i will update to tell u bout my concert. LOVE YEA PUNKS AND BIATCHES ShAnNoN ReNeE

Hello my friends. I am so glad i am workin i have got so much shit since i have been workin and i have also ran into a lot of old friends and shit. I ran into a friend i used to call FoodStamp and shit all of sudden i heard super shannon then i turned and i saw before my eyes foodstamp. Hmmm..oh me and my lil girl went on mother & daughter date and saw the Robots movie..well first we have mcdonalds then went to best buy got some movies dazed and confused,forest gump,and the goonies.Great Classics man. Ok back to the robots movie it was bad ass much Props to Robin Williams he did a hell of a job and the best in the movie. Sorry bout tha capitizaltion when not needed and not doing when needed hehe. I should have my car soon my hrs. r gettin longer and fun.Well i am bout to take a walk in the neighborhood. Later Folkz Shannon Renee Haha No Last Name Sorry bout that got carried away i havent typed for awhile now besides punching in produce codes and stuff at work. Ok TATA FO NOW PUNKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-k- Ladies and Gentlemen I have been so darn bizzy wit work and everything else I dont have time to do nothing it seems ne more. Well I have my paycheck still cashed of course but havent spent none saving for my car. I got some damn self-control yo. Damn I have been there only 2 weeks today and shit and i have learned so much stuff plus the bosses keep saying i am doing hell of job. I got overtime already the first week i was there crazy huh. I get paid every Thursday too helly Yeaz. I miss my daughter so much I call her on every break i get to talk to her. This is the longest we have ever spend time apart since she was born. She is adjusting well to me going to work though i sometimes bring her home suprises haha. Well i am off here to go to bed gotta work tomorrow. Today was my day off.*smooches*

hey i just got like a break before i go to work. I go in late today for easter gotta be there at 5:30 tonight...which it is like 4:20 here....Hmm..lets c its going pretty good i caught on quick what to do...yea my job is a mystery to who reads this i just dont feel like know one knowin in less i know who u r. well i gotta go and get finished doing my hair. Later *smooches*

Hello everyone. Sorry for not wrting sooner. Well i got a job today which is so damn awesome...well i got the job and i waitin for my swab test(drug test) to come back monday.. of course i will pass i quit smokin weed awhile ago....and he said that comes out then i have the job. Can i get a Hell Yeaz. Hehe I did though cancel my dentist appt. to get my feelings but i rescheduled so i am fine. My daughters b-day party is Sat. on her b-day its going to be a blast. Well i off i shall write more later who knows.

Hey everyone!! I have been quite busy lately. I got my nails done and man its so weird i havent been this girly forever i mean i wear make-up but i have had my nails done twice. I am going to keep them though and just get them filled and shit. Hmm...Today my daughter and neice went and saw the easter bunny,my daughter sat on his lap which is way cool. I bought a 5 gifts so far for my daughter nothin but cali girl barbie stuff like tha pool,surf shop,jeep,and dolls. I gotta buy more and send out her invitations soon. She 2 weeks left till her b-day and she will be big 4. Its weird she has grown up so quick.

Adult life has been treating me very well. Tuesday i went and spent 160 bucks in groceries got me some helly food. I am very proud of myself cause i did that and i did it by myself. I gotta go get my g.e.d book tomorrow so i can study it and late march or 1st of april i am taking the test and then signing up for my classes in fall at ivy tech. See the adult is coming out. I have to go to the dentist tomorrow i have been going for a month every friday to get my teeth finally all perfect which is so good. I am just so proud of myself I have finally kicked my self in the ass and got shit done. I guess it was tha 14 hrs. of sleep i did from 5 p.m yesterday till 7:50 a.m today. My daughter was really tired so she went to bed really earlier the earliest she has ever gone to be bed and slept through the whole night so i went to bed to. When your a parent you do that stuff gotta take a advantage of sleep. Well i am off here i have done enough writing lately. I wrote my friend a 5 page letter and still writing her so i am going go finish it up.Later *smooches*

Hey!! I just got a flash back from the past. Man Weezer came on and i remember listen to them in 7th grade ne one remember prodigy Smack my bitch up haha.Well on yahoo messenger they have launch music or watever and i alwayz put it on tha channel big hits of tha 90's gotta love tha 90's. Best times of my life haha...But Ne wayz my title is called stand by me well ne body no that movie the best stephen king movie well its based off this book i guess not big fan wit producers and shit like that but it has corey feldman and jerry o'connelly. Well that movie reminds me so much of that old crew i used to have we was alwayz together and we all had r part in tha gang u know. I miss that shit. I wish we all was still tight were we could all hang out together again but all of us have changed and diff stages in life...Like i had a baby by one of em he was like my fav. obsession when i was in 7th to 9th grade. I loved him so much like a brother me and him talked to so much on my balcony in my old place i loved it but u know we went r separate ways i grew up and he just doesnt admit and well for like tha other 3 i talk to them still actually best friends wit all but still we cant hang out like we used to cuz shit just changed. Oh man sinead o'connor i love this song nothing compares great ass song but i skipped off beat. I wish i could go back to tha past and shit for like a couple more months when i was 15 and party harder then i did and just enjoy life but i still wouldnt change my pregnancy i just would have waited a lil longer u know but hey my daugther saved my life. Hmm.. what else did i want to write about..Yes thats right i have been down and out for tha last couple days just feel like no one wants me round especially my parents and like they regret me and shit cuz i am not a boy nor there youngest u know so i am like trash. I dont get much comments on here but i love writin it releases some of this damn tension i have. I have started planning my daughters b-day party i hope she enjoys it..She is gettin 2 big presents a power wheel jeep and a tv. I am thinkin bout completing her collection of adam sandler dvds. I wish i could write him my daughter is like his biggest fan and only 3 haha. He got her hooked when he came out with 8 crazy nights and since then every movie he has starred in she has to have and watch over and over again. She also loves the movies he has produced like dickie roberts. I have never met a lil kid that can tell u play by play in tha movie and word for word its neat. I know she has a great memory like me. Man thats another thing she is startin to look like her father i just wish he would just u know trust me and know that i would never lie bout who her father is. I know when my daughter was concieved,what style,and time shit that tells u something...and u know my doctor was shocked too cuz my daughter was induced and i had her 12 days early from her due date and they was like well she is almost 2 weeks early that tells yea something u know that i wasnt lyin bout concieving date. I know i am blabbering on like nothing i just cant stop writing this might be tha long entry ever. Well i am off here gotta save some for later. *smooches*

k everyone i did a new setup i kinda like it but i dont u know. so i might make more changes i am know missin my i love lucy set-up boo hoo..its alright though its 5:30 in tha mornin and i have nothing else to do that wat got me to do this but i will fix it but not right now later.

Hey everyone i made a judgement i am goin str8 nunish haha......i becoming a nun....JOIN WIT MY FRIENDS. I could never get married at such a young a age i was watchin shit on tv and kids was gettin married at 15,16,17 and 18 is too young. I would like to know ok parents lets just give up on r kids and let some male or female ruin there lives. oK SMART. I like my parents approach they was together for like 10 or some odd years and then they got married ok they might have had kids but they still love each other and not divorced. Awesome huh i look up to them.They had rocky times like bottom to bottom pit of times but hey they made it damnit leave em alone haha. Now my sister yea might be engaged or watever tha hell u would say but she said she is gettin married till she is settled and got her shit together and she knows they can accomplish ne thing together. HELL YEA SISTER. And for muah fuck gettin married i start college in aug. Ivy tech studing human services for 2 years then IUPUI for another 2 years to become substance abuse counselor for kid or social worker debating but i got time damnit i can do both cuz i will have a degree in that feild ne wayz. Hmmmm...what else my daughter will be going to school when i does she starts preschool in aug. too..She will be 4 in march omgosh where has time gone...Thats right wasting away. Oh Str8 edge is going great. Squares Suck. HMmmm...I need more to say i am going suceed to make this a long ass entry everyone else does so i am going to i believe i can. Oh hmm what else....I am anti-social these days. Just dont wanna talk to no body. Oh Wanted lookin for a man with a baby haha. I decided next man i get with has to have a kid that he takes care of and understands all the responsiblity that is layed upon a parent yet along a single parent. Um yea. WEll i am off here lets hope this is a big one haha. *Smooches* oh hey just remembered something did u guys know some mcdonalds r 24/7 now tha one by my house is i think thats fuckin cools as hell

I was going to write yesterday on tha most loving day ever. Yesterday was my 2 year anniversary of tha first and only time i ever made love wit tha one i loved well still do but u know not together boo hoo. Well ne wayz my friend Tony got me tha most fuckin beautiful gift ever first he got me a big box of turtles yummy and then a cute ass card and well then this teddy bear right well tha teddy bear had a box attached to it well inside tha box it was a ring from zales it is freakin gorgeuos.That was tha first for me every to get a piece of jewerly not even my first love got me something like that what the hell actually all he did was make love to me but man it was good. Ok my mind is slippin....Well i hope everyone had as good one like i did i will try to write more often then like once a week. Later *smooches*

Hey folkz!! Guess what u guys r going to wanna give me a pat on tha back. I QUIT SMOKING SQUARES. HALO LOO YAH! My friend Tony quit smokin too like 2 days after me Congrats for him. Shit hmm what else.. I got a bad ass KLH Receiver and Tha rest that goes wit it bad ass system. Make everything in my room shake like my pictures and shit. Hmmm what else i dont know what else to say really but i will talk to u guys later gotta go get ready and shit to go bye bye these past weeks i have been on tha run like non stop oh man i got shark tale yesterday for my daughter ahh such a good movie i like it.

Looking back at me I see That I never really got it right I never stopped to think of you I'm always wrapped up in Things I cannnot win You are the antidote that gets me by Something strong Like a drug that gets me high What I really meant to say Is I'm sorry for the way I am I never meant to be so cold to you And I'm sorry about all the lies Maybe in a different light You could see me stand on my own again Cause now i can see You were the antidote that got me by Something strong like a drug that got me high I never meant to be so cold I never really wanted you to see The screwed up side of me that I keep Locked inside of me so deep It always seems to get to me I never really wanted you to go So many things you should have known I guess for me theres just no hope I never meant to be so cold I love this song it makes me think so much on my past relationships. Nothin has really happened i finally rented some movies...I rented farenheit 9/11 that documentary is good...then i got a 1963 movie called birds black and white film by alfred hancock i believe....and got tha white castle movie i cant remmeber tha title. I bought me some movies too man i got boy in a bubble tha original serious one wit john travolta i am on my old movie kicks i got like a couple new ones like tha outsiders,bad boys(wit sean penn)and stand by me i love my old movies memories hehe. Got my daughter some more adam sandler movies she loves him i am tryin to complete her collection wit him. Well i am off here go to bed its way past my bed time. *Smooches* **Love Alwayz** *****Shannon*****

Man my friend Tony burnt tha crossfade cd for me and man its really GOOd. BUt tha song cold makes me think of my past relationships. And the next song so far away reminds me of my friend jennifer awww my past. I miss that i wish i was 15 years old again wit tha lil bit of responsiblity i had like going to work and coming home and partyin. I had fun back and tha day but know i am a str8 edge besides my sqaures. MY time is asorbed my lil girl but i like that part i just wish i could go out everynow and them and drink some beer and relax but it never seems like i can no babysitter nothin but oh well life is like that. Oh have 7 months till i turn 21 guys. Well i wrote so i am off here to attend to my duties.hehe love yall

hey i hate fuckin livin at my house cuz i am stuck being round and breathing tha same fuckin air my sisters bf does...errr i hate him wit a passion i have never hated ne body this much in my life. yea my sister might read this but everyone thinks i hate him cuz of r difference and him thinkin he can be a smartass to me and raise his hand to me cuz i can handle my own but a lil respect for for my parents to be like fukin dude thats my daughter i dont know who tha hell u r but fuckin get out...but my main reason lays way beyond that its all bout my sister. i am her big sister u know so i am tryin to protect her but there is more to this but i cant really get to it on here u know. ne wayz enough bout tha penis wad. I miss being 15,i miss not havin responsibilites,i miss my ex(1st love). its weird i saw him on facethejury.com and i am on there too its weird cuz they changed tha format and add tha new indpls people men or females depends on ur sex...well it shows that before u get on ur profile so i saw him i was like omg and he has a yahoo messenger...and it is so tempting to write him but i cant i dont wanna start ne drama u know cuz we left off on really bad notes i wish we wouldnt have but we did. So i guess tha tempting thing will just stay there but oh well u know something u got to deal wit but it would be cool if he hit me up haha .....1st loves suck. i hate being 20 tooo....errrrrr so miserable....later

I changed my set up i needed a new change then tha whole lets look all dark and scary thing. I like what some people did with tha whole marilyn monroe thing i saw alot of people wit marilyn but i dont like her i know everyone hate me. I love Lucille Ball my fav. I have loved her since i was a lil girl when i first started watchin I love Lucy. well hell i just wanted to say hi and since i havent wrote for awhile i wanted too..Later

Hey everyone here is a pic of me and then my daughter 2 she is showin off her new haircut.