My new diary...
Listening to: Radio Commercials.
Feeling: abnormal

I'm happy. (That's what's so abnormal)

A couple nights ago, Joey randomly IMed asking a favor (at the time I was away from the computer doing something) and also randomly sent me a screen name, saying that it belonged to Casey. Casey is someone I've had a crush on since the beginning of 8th grade (whereas now is the end of 9th... So I IMed him. We ended up talking until 1 am on IM.

Next morning I woke up early and (against my better judgement -- homework overload, remember) got on the internet. Casey was on and we talked a bit, which ended up with me giving him directions to my house and him spending about 6 hours over here. After a little while, my grandma came home with my cousin, and I asked if we could go in the back bedroom to watch a movie (to escape from the seven-year-old terror).

We went in, he found my sharpies and started drawing on himself. It was so pretty. I can't draw, so I thought of something and did it without thinking much more... Anyway, I did the whole middle-school "ZAP" thing to myself, with his name... He saw this, so as I built up my confidence, he kept drawing on himself and we talked. He said, "So, are you going to ask me or what?" So I did. He pulled up his sleeve (with which he had just cleverly concealed his arm), revealing a blue-sharpie written "yes." It was so cute. Also, I don't believe I've ever been happier. Well, maybe since then...

He had to go home around 9:30, so my grandma drove him. I walked him up to his house, as my grandma and annoying little cousin sat in the car and watched, giving me looks (the cousin's look was as if to say "You have a boyfriend, and he has cooties" in a neener-neener sort of voice, and the grandma's look as if to say "you fucking dumbass, he's supposed to walk you to your door, not the other way! I mean, where the fuck are you learning this bullshit from! Get your ass back in this car, I'm freezing my ass off!").

Anyway, he said what we were both thinking... Something along the lines of "Feels like there should be a kiss." (Actually his exact words were "...I feel like I should kiss you.") I agreed, but I would be forever mocked by my entire family, plus it would be embarrassing and un-romantic, etc, so we said we'd have to wait.

When I got home, I got on the internet and we IMed/chat roomed until about midnight, then we got on the phone and talked until 4 am, when we were both falling asleep. He was so f---ing romantic... I was completely blown away. We laughed too. It was great. Best conversation of both our lives. We shared deepest darkest secrets, etc, and although we both thought it was a bit geeky, said "I love you"... shitloads. I swear to God, it was wonderful.

About 4 hours after we got to sleep, he called again, because he (conveniently) left his backpack at my house. So he came over and got it, but not before I put a mushy and freakish love note in it. Which was also wonderful.

Now he's at his mom's house, and she's being mean and grounding him :'( So we can't talk until Friday, when we plan on seeing Shrek 2 ('cause I haven't yet). Until then, I'll just have to go back to being lonely sad little old me :)

Anyway, I think this might be my longest entry... ever. There was a lot to be said. It was a big day (and a half)... And I have a boyfriend now. Like everyone else.

Now I'm just another person following the crowd. But I don't care. I need the attention.

Hehe, he called me beautiful. I'm really not good enough for this guy.

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love the bloody rose !!
[esther]
Thanks.. your diary is also very nice.
its like a fairy tale

but it actually happened
[silentears]
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