I'm losing substance...
Listening to: RHCP - Under the Bridge, but it all started with U2 - New York
Feeling: offended

So, it appears I have nothing of substance to say, so I'll just post another quiz (you have no idea how many of these I have stored up and just waiting to be put in here... I'm such a geek XP)

*DESCRIBE*

-- The shoes you wore today: I didn't wear any shoes today.

-- Your eyes: Small, but with a world of their own inside.

-- Your weakness(es): Lack of observance, over-obsession about wanting to know what I can't figure out for myself, laziness, internet addiction.

-- One thing you'd like to achieve: Truly help someone.

*WHAT IS*

-- Your thoughts first waking up: Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep...

--The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: Hair, expression, disposition, clothing styles.

-- Your best physical feature: Eyes, hair, lips. I don't really pay much attention to myself but that's what my parents say.

--Your bedtime: Supposed to be 10, I get sent to bed anytime from 7 on, I never sleep before 12 and rarely stay up past 4.

--Your greatest accomplishment: Managing to save up $250 over this summer.

*YOU PREFER*

-- McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King, better french fries.

-- Single or group dates: I don't know, I suppose I'd have to experience both to find out.

-- Chocolate or vanilla: Depends on my mood.

-- Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino is a type of coffee... I like coffee...

--Bras or Panties: Both, thank-you-very-much.

*DO YOU*

-- Smoke: Since birth, secondhand.

-- Cuss: My parents don't approve, but yeah.

--Take a shower everyday: not during the summer...

-- Have a crush(es): I don't know. I still have a crush on my ex... He's still cute, dammit XP

-- Who are they: ^

-- Do you think you've been in love?: Nope. I almost convinced myself that I was though.

-- Want to go to college: Yeah, and be a psychologist/musician.

-- Want to get married: I'm thinking... Probably not.

-- Type w/ your fingers on the right keys?: Unless I'm on the phone/eating, yeah.

-- Get motion sickness: Rarely.

-- Think you're attractive: It changes from moment to moment, regardless of my mood or environment.

-- Think you're a health freak: Hell no. If I was I wouldn't be such a fucking greasy fatass.

-- Get along with your parents: Usually with my mom, unless she's in a psychotic episode - yeah, she's schizophrenic, what of it? I get along with my aunt (second-mom) pretty well unless she brings up government, fashion, or her ever present "yay flowers goths should burn in hell" attitude. And then there's the grandma I live with... who I try to avoid...

-- Like thunderstorms: They are one of the most beautiful joys. If I can't see the stars at night, I pray for thunder.

-- Play an instrument: An? I play guitar, keyboards, harmonica, recorder, flute, and used to play bassoon for school band...

*IN THE PAST MONTH DID/HAVE YOU*

-- Drank alcohol: No. Wait, yeah... with my mom the other day. I did NOT get drunk or tipsy or any of that! We were just having some casual alcoholic dysfunctional family time.

-- Smoke(d): pot, I think that was still in the last month at least...

-- Done a drug: ^

-- Gone to the mall: Yeah

-- Eaten sushi: I'm not sure...

-- Been on stage: Nope

-- Been dumped: Yeah

-- Gone skating: *hisses at skaters* no...

-- Made homemade cookies: No.

-- Dyed your hair: No but I will soon (yay, first time ever)

-- Stolen anything: Yeah, I'm pretty sure it was less than a month ago... I stole an exacto knife from kinko's and a few gothic looking things from the mall. I'm going to stop this though, because I strongly disbelieve in it, and I don't want my friends to either...

*HAVE YOU EVER*

-- Flown on a plane: Yeah. Went to Disneyland once for 2 frigging days and Hawaii twice.

-- Missed school because it was raining?: Um... this is Seattle... they don't cancel school for that... I have however missed the bus and had to walk to school in the rain, being counted absent and missing first period in the process...

-- Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: A couple times. The last one didn't work out so well...

-- Cried during a Movie?: Every time someone cries in a movie, I do too. And I cried at Titanic, because I was FUCKING SEVEN. So deal with it.

-- Ever thought an animated character was hot?: Heh, probably. I think everyone is hot...

-- Had an imaginary friend: Again I say: An? I used to have an infinite number of them, air-people called bobbits, the leader of whom was a perpetual 6-year-old named Kuku.

-- Been on stage?: Yeah, I'm in choir so... yeah.

-- Cut your hair: Of course I've had it cut, and I cut my bangs myself from time to time...

-- Had crush on a teacher?: I have a crush on my next-year's social studies teacher *sigh* I better still get to be in his class after I switch out of HONORS FUCKING BIOLOGY...

-- Played a game that required removal of clothing?: You know, they keep promising me we'll play strip poker, but it never ends up happening. I don't particularly desire to be unclothed in front of people either...

-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Nope.

-- Been caught "doing something": Not really...

-- Been called a tease: No.

-- Gotten beaten up: No.

-- Been in a fight: I get in "who can be louder and scare the 80 year old neighbors" fights with my grandma a lot...

-- Shoplifted: Yeah, as shown by the "stolen in last month" question... (whoa, I just realized this is the first one of these I've ever done from beginning to end - fun :))

*THE FUTURE*

-- Age you hope to be married: I don't know. It depends on if and when I fall in love and with whom.

-- Numbers and Names of Children: As many as possible... Nikolai, James, Joshua, Mikael, Beth, Serena, Shawn, Taylor, Kate...

-- How do you want to die?: Of predetermined suicide, after organizing everything...

-- What do you want to be when you grow up?: Psychologist, rock star...

-- What country would you most like to visit?: Great Britain. Australia. Anywhere with that general archetype of accents...

*OPPOSITE (heh) SEX*

-- Best eye color: dark. brown.

-- Best hair color: any can be beautiful. I like darker colors better.

-- Short or long hair: Longish.

-- Best height: Just a bit taller than me.

-- Best weight: 150-160

-- Best first date location: In my house, on the floor, listening to music.

-- Best first kiss location: Out in a secluded place in the woods, with the sunlight coming visibly through openings in the trees above...

*NUMBER OF*

-- Number of boyfriends/girlfriends you've had: Just the one.

-- Number of kisses you've given: I don't know...

-- Number of drugs taken illegally: pot (once), I took one of my grandma's arthritis pills for a headache (that technically counts - but in my defense SHE MADE ME)... so, um, 2. The alcohol doesn't count since I had my mom's permission and it was at home.

-- Number of people I could trust with my life: I trust everyone with my life.

-- Number of CDs that I own: Around 50-60

-- Number of piercings: None anymore. I'm going to get my ears redone, eventually...

-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: None.

-- Number of scars on my body: Ten, currently, though I'm really hoping 6 of them will fade.

-- Number of things in my past that I regret: 1 - including every insult I've ever unintentionally made. Which would be a lot.

*FAVORITES*

-- Shampoo: Anything but the sanitary sick smelling salon crap my grandma brings home.

-- Fav Color: Black, or any dark shade, really...

-- Day/Night: Night

-- Summer/Winter: Summer, unless it's a pretty winter... Like last year... God, I wish I had a camera...

-- Lace or Satin: Satin, definitely.

-- Fav Food: Italian food.

-- Fav Movies: Lord of the Rings series... Matrix series... Random internet flash movies... THE DEMENTED CARTOON MOVIE! WHOO!

-- Fav Sport: POKER!

*RIGHT NOW*

-- Wearing: my favorite jeans and an ugly shirt turned inside out that is now all black and pretty.

-- Drinking: nothing. We're out of milk, so I can't have anything with my graham crackers :'(

-- Thinking about: This quiz.

-- Listening to: Infected Mushroom (Windows Media Player is set on random, and I have a lot of stuff...)

*IN THE LAST 24 HRS*

-- Cried: I haven't been able to cry in 6 years, you expect me to have in the last 24 hours?

-- Worn jeans: I am right now... And I wore them all day yesterday too...

-- Met someone new online: No.

-- Done laundry: I don't do my own laundry. My grandma insists upon doing it for me so she can bitch at me about how lazy I am.

-- Drove a car: No, though I really should practice...

-- Talked on the phone: I've talked on the phone in about the last 1 hour... It's all there is to do anymore...

*DO YOU BELIEVE IN*

-- Yourself: Depends on what you mean by it. Yeah though, usually...

-- Your friends: No... sometimes I think they must be a delusion... Too nice to me... Can't be real people... *mumbles incoherently*

-- Santa Claus: I did, then I didn't, then I did, now I do in a different sense...

-- Tooth Fairy: Never did... Never got any money but for my first tooth or two.

-- Destiny/Fate: I believe that everything that could ever happen is already a possibility of something that could happen. Which is an absolute fact if you really think about it. Thusly I believe that everything that happens, no matter what path led to it, will lead to the outcome it would have led to in the same situation in a parallel universe that is arbitrarily parallel and where everything is utterly the same. Now that I've thoroughly confused you, yeah, kinda.

-- Angels: I believe that after a soul has gotten enough experience and has the yearning, it can become an angel or a guardian to those who are living.

-- Ghosts: These are essentially the same as angels, those who look on from outside the confines of a tangible body.

-- UFO's: All that means is "unidentified flying object..." Most flying objects are at some point unidentified, no? So of course they exist. On the other hand, spaceships coming from other planets... also are likely to exist. Why the hell would Earth be the only planet in ALL THE VASTNESS OF THE UNIVERSE to have life on it?

-- God: I believe that there is an enormous creative energy/spirit that has influence over things that go on in this plane of reality. I believe that this force is generally benevolent and allows our weak minds to refer to it and manifest it in a form that we call "God."

*FRIENDS AND LIFE*

-- Do you ever wish you had another name?: Yes. I've always hated my name.

-- Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: Not anymore

-- Do you like anyone?: I like everyone, as for romantic relationships... I don't like relationships themselves, but I might go out with Aaron or Carl if either of them actually become possibilities (though at the moment, flirting/dreaming is Oh So Much More Fun)

-- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: Morgan... She's crazy like me... Really though there's no one like me on the planet... I am WAY too out there...

-- Who have you known the longest of your friends?: Umm... Caitlin, I think. Unless you count Acquaintences, in which case it's probably Sam, though I've never really gotten close to him...

-- Are you close to any family member?: Yeah, my mommy and my aunty, and my other aunty too sometimes. My little cousin is cute and I heart him.

-- Who do you hang around the most?: Morgan. After all, there's the whole best friend thing going on here...

-- When have you cried the most?: When being yelled at and physically threatened by my large, loud, scary and overbearing grandmother.

-- What's the best feeling in the world?: That feeling you get when you have an epiphany... I can't describe it except that it feels like a giant bubble, expanding everything about you, not just your mind but your body... It's like transcending into a higher realm of thought... I get the shivers just thinking about it...

-- Worst Feeling?: Confusion, pain, and self-hatred surrounding a breakup, feeling like no one loves you, and the feeling of having a large rusty metal spike jammed into your gut, twisted 1/4 turn and left there for three hours, twisted 1/4 turn and left there for three hours, etc... until you die. That was 3 different feelings, btw...

-- What time is it now?: 12:17 am

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So, erm, yeah. Fun! :) Have a lovely night, people. I'm gonna go sleep on the floor.

Night Night

~ Beth

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DUDE

No one commented on that.

I thought it was awesome, I <3 my attitude in that quiz.

*shivers* it's cold.

I'M GOING TO GO LOOK AT OTHER PEOPLE'S DIARIES! WHOO!

Love and much kissingness (Bumbershoot highness kicking in)

~ Beth
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