Still emo after all these months
Listening to: Travis - Twenty
Feeling: depressed

DJ - I assume that's his real name, or at least initials, as it was his first diary here, and after it came bloodnight and darkjewel.

I miss him. I honestly think he killed himself. Or else did the wise thing and committed internet suicide, something I've always wished I had the willpower to do.

Or maybe he just stopped being a computer nerd altogether.

In any case, he made all his diaries private and stopped writing entries.

I only talked to him once or twice, but to me he was a close friend, a kindred spirit. Sometimes you just feel that connection, you know?

Here's our first IM conversation (July 14, 2004):

arkanestar (9:08:35 PM): 'allo

streetmusician23 (9:08:39 PM): hi

streetmusician23 (9:08:52 PM): who you?

arkanestar (9:09:09 PM): bloodnight sound familiar?

streetmusician23 (9:09:20 PM): ah, yes

arkanestar (9:09:26 PM): good :-P

streetmusician23 (9:09:30 PM): Yay, I remember now!

arkanestar (9:09:36 PM): hehehe

arkanestar (9:10:27 PM): so how are you?

streetmusician23 (9:10:38 PM): wonderful

streetmusician23 (9:10:42 PM): And sleepy as usual

arkanestar (9:11:26 PM): lol

streetmusician23 (9:11:51 PM): you?

arkanestar (9:12:06 PM): good, though sleepy too

streetmusician23 (9:12:34 PM): cool

arkanestar (9:13:22 PM): by the way...i have another diary....darkjewel

streetmusician23 (9:13:33 PM): yeah

streetmusician23 (9:13:48 PM): I like it. Reminds me of your other one :-)

arkanestar (9:14:00 PM): cool :-)

streetmusician23 (9:14:38 PM): Music is awesome

arkanestar (9:14:47 PM): yes it is

streetmusician23 (9:16:27 PM): ... erm ...

streetmusician23 (9:16:34 PM): What's your current obsession?

arkanestar (9:16:42 PM): wow....

arkanestar (9:16:52 PM): there are a lot of ongoing obsessions...

streetmusician23 (9:17:07 PM): ?

arkanestar (9:17:38 PM): music, computers, knives and other sharp and pointy objects, girls :-P, and whatever else catches my fancy

streetmusician23 (9:17:46 PM): cool

arkanestar (9:17:51 PM): yours?

streetmusician23 (9:17:53 PM): saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame

streetmusician23 (9:17:57 PM): but more specifically

streetmusician23 (9:18:01 PM): The Postal Service.

streetmusician23 (9:18:10 PM): Their music is mesmerizing

arkanestar (9:18:21 PM): i have not heard of them actually

streetmusician23 (9:19:05 PM): "They will see us waving from such great heights come down now they'll say but everything looks perfect from far away come down now, but we'll stay"

arkanestar (9:19:37 PM): i like

streetmusician23 (9:19:45 PM): yeah

streetmusician23 (9:19:50 PM): It's a love song, but still good.

arkanestar (9:20:08 PM): are you implying that love songs are bad? :-P

streetmusician23 (9:20:11 PM): most.

streetmusician23 (9:20:20 PM): *crosses fingers and hisses at love*&

arkanestar (9:20:24 PM): i have to agree somewhat

arkanestar (9:20:26 PM): lol

streetmusician23 (9:23:32 PM): Yeargh.

streetmusician23 (9:23:36 PM): I like that word

arkanestar (9:23:43 PM): hmmm, new word

streetmusician23 (9:24:01 PM): *cracks neck* OOH, SEVEN! niiiiiiiiiiiice...

arkanestar (9:24:16 PM): very good *applause*

streetmusician23 (9:24:27 PM): I love doing that...

arkanestar (9:24:35 PM): lol

arkanestar (9:24:39 PM): it feels good

streetmusician23 (9:27:27 PM): hell yeah

streetmusician23 (9:27:37 PM): another club member! yaaaaaaaaaaay

arkanestar (9:27:56 PM): hmmm?

streetmusician23 (9:28:15 PM): You, too, like to crack your neck/other joints

arkanestar (9:28:23 PM): ahh

arkanestar (9:28:25 PM): yes

streetmusician23 (9:35:41 PM): Gar... Conversation keeps dying.

arkanestar (9:36:05 PM): hmmm

arkanestar (9:37:42 PM): so what do you do for fun?

streetmusician23 (9:38:09 PM): Listen to music, write poetry and music, hang out with crazy friends, say random shit.

streetmusician23 (9:38:12 PM): You?

arkanestar (9:39:02 PM): listen to music, play on the comp, write poetry (if you dare call it such), and read

streetmusician23 (9:39:48 PM): I like your poetry

streetmusician23 (9:40:00 PM): I'm a computer addict

streetmusician23 (9:40:14 PM): Hurray, common ground.

streetmusician23 (9:40:22 PM): Or Hooray, however you spell it...

arkanestar (9:40:51 PM): yay!

arkanestar (9:40:53 PM): another freak

streetmusician23 (9:41:01 PM): yay

arkanestar (9:41:32 PM): there's a third diary (scary) that has a lot of my older poems: http://diaries.suchisthis.com/dj

arkanestar (10:01:50 PM): i'm heading out, tis late here

streetmusician23 (10:02:29 PM): out where?

arkanestar (10:02:45 PM): out to bed :-P

streetmusician23 (10:02:52 PM): fun

streetmusician23 (10:02:56 PM): Talk later?

arkanestar (10:03:02 PM): of course

streetmusician23 (10:03:04 PM): yaaaaaaaaaay

streetmusician23 (10:03:06 PM): bye bye

arkanestar (10:03:09 PM): hehehe

arkanestar (10:03:13 PM): night beth

streetmusician23 (10:03:25 PM): *yay*

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a few days later

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arkanestar (1:27:17 AM): hi

arkanestar (1:32:36 AM): ok, nevermind, juust wanted to say "hi" before i headed out since you're the only other person on

arkanestar (1:32:42 AM): later

streetmusician23 (1:37:45 AM): hi

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I never heard from him again.

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