This is most deff getting to the point where its just a waste of my precious time.. so i think im gunna stop writing in this gayass thing and stick to myspace.. and jus keep this for safe keepings and emergency bordom breakers.
Ok so i went sumwhere yesterday and hung out with like ALOT of ppl from elk lake and all and was all happy and hyper and jus bein me when all of a sudden i see.. him .. and i kno i was all in love with terry and shit but im not gunna like hang on that all my life.. if he's gunna be the way he chooses fuck em ya kno. So basically im proud of myself.. im letting go of him slowly.. and u kno when u like sumone else u hafta be improving right! =D ..right.
There's another side to this thou..im also trying to not like him just because ever sense terry i kno how it feels to get broken hearted not only broken hearted my shaddered.. so like im scared to like sumone again..i mean liking sumone usually goes farther..and im scared of that now.. even thou this kid doesnt seem liek the type..but thats wat i thought about asshole too ya kno.. so its kinda complicated..so yeh i guess im just gunna hafta figure everything out.. and i'll update laterrr
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P.s- He's also at my old school.. so yeh diff skools also sucks..
P.s.s.- If any1 has any wats it called.. id liketa see watcha have to say kthnx
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Yeh
To My Dog TASHA::She's very sick
I dont kno what id do if i lost you
id prolly fall apart without u here
your my best friend and i cant deny it
no matter wat u are i cant hide it
id truly truly be so scared
Id die inside without u here
all this is, is one big scare
if u are gone id be so hurt
id cry each night i cant deny it
ur usually right on my side at night
my dreams will quickly turn to fright
all you are is my best friend,my sister,my other half,
I dont care wat u are or what theyd say
I'll love you forever and that wont change
so expect me there when most needed
I'll be right here no matter what.
Yeh so im REALLY sad right now and its just been a sucky day found 2 really bad things out, and cant stand life this way, but hey im not the only one, and i guess this is what friends are for, to cheerme up when im feeling down, i dont expect no less anymore.
Wow that sounds like a poem to.. well yeh ttyl
♥ =(
Wat up every1.. i kno i kno i havent updated let alone been on here fer quite sumtime.. well anyways im liven in montrose now wit mii dad and goin to Montrose skool.. doin good there=] liken the ppls im hangen out wit `nd all.. hmm yeh alot happpened jus dont feel like typen so holla atcha all lata..
Piece=] ♥♥
Alright so i told ya i would update yas on mii doc. info right.. right. Ok so i foudn out i haaavvee "Mitral valve prolapse".. and then they repeated them selves telling me i also havvee "Inttermitent explosive tempermant disorder" so all in all good day =] haha.. other than tha.. Umm i have mii things packed to move to PA wit mii daddy.. and i have already talked 2 sumone from montrose tha i can chill wiit.. so itsz lal good =] plus mii dad has a plan for me to get kicked out so i can go to mii oold school so thas good haha.Hmm wat else is there.. well im thinken thas about it.. ok so idk when i will be updating again soo talk to ya wheneva
♥Pce♥
Watup every1?! .. natta too lot here.. still babysitten heh..Guess What!!!! .. 4 more days till Mii birthday!Sweet 16 Bitchesz u kno it!haha.. well yeh i have a new background `nd all.im pretty happy with it i hafta say. Yeh so im REALLY pissed at mii mom right about now .. she got a tattoo of her Bfs name in a heart on herchest `nd didnt even tell me.. she liek whispered to mii "sis" sis `nd told er then when she left Nicole told me. I was fucken piised.. even after she told me she wont then went all secretly `nd did it.. so yeh i was pretty mad i hafta say.. she prolly wasnt gunna tell me till i moved back to PA too.. oh yeh fergot to tell u guys that too .. im moving back to Pennsylvaniawit mii dad .. maybe i did tell u.. idk w.e but um yeh i guess he said I'll be goin to Elk Lake `nd all so we will see wast happens.. i dont exactly get mii spirits all up anymore.. kinda used to them bein changed `nd Crushedcrushed so i kinda jus pretend like its a maybe kinda ordeal so i dont ya kno. Yeh well wat gets me most mad is the simple fact she got a tattoo of his name when she has 3 fucken kids tha she couldnt give 2 shits about. I mean wat kinda person says tha her Bf is her life.Seriously.. i dont kno.. but yet i still love her.. so w.e i will hafta deal huh.But yeh im gunan try it out at mii dads fer a few mths `nd see how i liek it there.. `nd if i dont wanna stay then mii mom said she will come get me. I think im most happy to see mii bros again thou cuz im missen them like fucken crazii!!.. `nd of course allll mii friendsz there.. but hey i get to see sum Fri `nd then them allll on Saturday !! Woooott..!! ok ay well i best be goin.. seak atcha all lata♥
Wat up every1?.. nutten 2 much here.. still babysitten.. which is fine i love this place.. specially sense its so perrttyy hehe.. i love haven a sis wit lots of $$$ its great haha. Plus mii neice & nefew are too cute for their own health haha i love em! =] Im suppose to find out tonight im guessen if i am moven baq to P.a er not.. cuz like alot hasz been goin down.. such as,
I told mii mom i wanna go back to PA and see if its there that i want to be.. figure it out ya kno.. `nd i talked to mii dad `nd he said tha he wants me therre.. mii dad said he's gunan figure every thhing out `nd see if i can go to mi old school (elk Lake0.. cu zi dotn wanna go to Montrose.. im kinda tired of changing schools.. so he said he's gunna see wat he can do. if i am stayen then im gunna try it out fer bout 3 mths er so `nd see if thas wat i want sense i got all As n Bs herre akno .. and im thinken bout college n shii so yeh.. well anhywaysz if i AM goin back then id be stayen in PA after mii Sweet 16 partii=]
Which ALSO means i will be able to get on the cheerleading squad.. which im madd happy about =].. but besides all that not much has gone down.. i'll be updaten 2morrow so p*ce fer now♥
P.S "Shimmer" .. i cant lv u a comment cuz it says u arnt mii friend when i added u so i dunno was sup wit it .. but um u need a code to get the trail .. ur gunna hafta ask sumone else sry,i tried
Hey Every1 Watchu up 2..? Im babysitten mii Neice& Nefew.. they're the Cutest kids i think I've ever seen .. Mii Nefew is Skyler Jay(middle Name) and mii neice is Alisia Bree(middle name).. im relly bonding wit em too =] theyre too efen cute. My (sis)..Nicole jus b rought me to the mall yesterday and i got a couple jeans nd sum stuff fer mii partii.. she's kiq ass i hafta say .. she's not EACTLY mii sis but she's mii moms Bf/feonces daughter .. so yeh she basically is .. anyways we got sum sweetass stuff fer the party .. 7 days till mii party!!! 6 days till miii Actuall birthday !! .. ahh 16 already i cant belive it .. well im gunna go to the park wit the kids nuthin better ta do .. speaq atcha lata ♥
P.S "Shimmer" .. i cant lv u a comment cuz it says u arnt mii friend when i added u so i dunno was sup wit it .. but um u need a code to get the trail .. ur gunna hafta ask sumone else sry, tried
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.. So yeh i still have a few days until i tell u exactly whatsz happenin at the docs ..member i said im not sayin anythin till im 100% sure .. yeh so basically no real update .. BUTTT .. heh i watched Home Alone 4 =O ..oh yes be jealous i kno haha.. i personally like the others better .. besides the chiqa smart house but hey w.e ..anyways ima gunan bounce fer now ..halla at muh lovers lata
♥♥Peace♥♥
Hmm so yeh nuthin too new goin on..im in skool as u saw up top..Beckys next to me bein a dork as usual..an thas why i love her lol ..anyways..i CANT WAIT UNTIL LUNCH...simply because im starvin =)..anywaysz there isnt much to talk about that i want to tell...so im gunna bounce..
I ♥ SoS
Ok so basically...Im in Love wit mii tattoo..its SO effen pretty..im Very happy i went throu wit it..it actauully wasnt too bad..like sum parts i coulda ripped mii moms arm outta her socket =] N others it was alright..but i also have a high pain tolerance so i win either way =]..so yeh cc u figured mii secret out..mii mom said i dont hafta come back to PA after mii kick ass party...I'll be moven in wit mii dad..and we have our ways wit Mr.Bush so they will be talkin to him about me stayen int he Elk Lake district..i mean its not liek it hasnt been done er anythin..so yeh its been a pertty kiq ass week..well enuf bout tha..i LOVE mii tattooooo ahhhhhhhhhhh..alri haha im gunna bounce now lol now tha i got tha all outta mii system!
P.S.CC..still mad at u?...i wasnt mad at u i was disguisted..but w.e i kno ur sorry and i accept the appology.
♥Peace♥
AHHhhhhHHHHhhhhHHHHhhhhHHHHhhhHHHH
IM GETTING MY TATTOO IN n hr N a half N counting!!!...WOOT....!!!!♥
Dunno wha tha means BUT I DO KNO THERE'S SNOW COMING =O ..Yessssssss..FootBall in the SNow now! Woot i cant wait..thas gunna be the shit!!..AND i got the final word bout my Party..so Todays a kick ass day..so far everythings gone juuust right! EVERYTHING!!..Well basically I love MY Jessica and Jordan..today in the Cp Lab..Whoa..lmao yes yes we DO hafta do tha again..we have this assignment fer sexual transmitted diseases..and omg..jus the fucken moments wrere byy effen far the BEST..Im in Love with Jessica! Lol.. j/m..this skool isnt so damn bad after all..ever though...i have good news ..but STILL Secret..=]..i only todl cassie and now she's all AHH YESS..which got me all AHH YESS..lol..anyways i NEED sum Ice Cream..so im Gunna bounce.. I'll be updaten lata♥Peace
Well there isnt much to really talk about..nothing really worth telling anyways..even though i have nothing better ta do then this....so i might as well right..ok well there's 2 things but my good news is secret therefore tha wont be told..the whole gay cc thing ..sure why not..well basically cc u fucked up one too many times, i jus felt like a BEST FRIEND shouldnt have said what u did..a friend w.e ok..but as tite as we were..nah tha wasnt even close to cool..yeh ppl make mistakes but it wasnt ur first and simply i got tired of it and u..i moved on so u should too..but no u continue to make more drama..u say im doing to u what u did to me..hMm think about tha one..YOU messed up..i moved on..therefore WE are no longer friends..u cant accept it well thats ur problem..you can say all that u want i honestly dont give a shit..u can call me a "pussy?"..yeh ok cc..its called ..jus not carign wat u say because simply i dont care what u think, do, or say..so i dont kno why u even waste ur time telling me what u think really..u say i got mad fer u being a bitch..correct..and now we are no longer friends..and then u say im doing to u what u did to me...correct..its called cheyanne..we arent friends therefore im not all nioce to u..u give me no reason to be..and that convo last ite was gay..u really shoulda re read wha were were talkin about..i mean YOU called ME ignorant first..when all i did was not fix a typo error..OMG THIS IS AN EMERGENCY!!..w.e..i attempted to be decent towards u and YOU started wit trying to act..all big?..and u say in ur entry we will straiten it out..no i have tryed to straighten this out.as so did u..but THIS doesnt need to be straightened out bc i..do..not..care..im not wasting my time..so when i DO come backk..no we willnot be talking/yelling/ w.e the hell u put it out we will be silent towards each other bc i DO NOT want to hear the immature shit..this is me tryen to end the gay ass drama...so basically u dont talk to me i dont talk to u drama..=over..duh..its really that simple..alright..ok...so basically ...THE END.
THIS WEEKEND ROCKED!!
*Ok well..Ahh so muhc to say N dunno how to say it..!!Well..Friday we had a half day!!..um after Skool i went to muh Cuzes..and MIke my Cuz had his Friend Joey ova..umm we played sum kick ass football..and then they hadda go to their dance..while me and my other cuz Kayla..kept playen wit the neighbors..THEN..my Kayla Slept over tha nite..N then Saturday we went baq over and basically chilled fer a bit..Joey was there so we went to his house fer sum shit so he could sleep over their house..when we came baq we decided to watch the longest yard..which didnt work out really cuz we jus wrestled fer HoUrs..it was the BEST..i took those bitches down!=D..hmm then we Watched a lil of the movie..decided to go to muh house and have MilkShaKes..came back..wrestled more lol..the we all fell asleep..hehe...Next day....nuthin iinteresting happened during the Morning..but then Muh Cuzes got baq from thur game N we of course played FootBall=D...ahh it was the best yo we went ALL OUT..it was fucken rough as Shit..but i loved each N every moment of it too!!I was maken interceptions left N right..n then i was runnen fer a touch down and 5 fricken ppl like jumped me ..BUT i still amde the touch down while they were on me=D..it was the best..yeh im all bruised up and muh knees fucked up but it was damn well worth it...
On another note:
i just made Plans wit the ppl about my party..the bitch is gunna be 6 hrs long..hehe!!From 5 to 11=D...i asked a buncha ppl how long N they said well we havent seen u So basically the longer the better..so i made it loong..AH im so damn Xcited fer it ..its by far gunna be the shit..i have alotta ideas =D!!..ahh enough about this..Im talken to muh lovers on aol so i gotta bounce...updates lata♥
P.S Cheyanne i delete ur comments cuz their jus immature..and im doen wit immaturity..so dont waste ur time writen em..cuz i jus ignore them N e ways.......DumbAss
♥Ok well I decided im gunna write a quik entry b4 i Lv 4 muh Docs appt..i will write prollt 2morrow telling u how it went cuz i have a cheerleaden comp to go to 4 muh cuz lata today..hMm not much has changed really sense muh last entry..Omg..my moms still payen fer muh tattoo AND the party..so lets see i have 3 ppl payen fer muh party and then i get a tattoo =O..yesssss i CAN NOT WAIT!..i have a theme goin already N all..it was suppose to be my theme for my room but never got to it so its gunna be the party one=D..its gunna be like all black lights nd glow in the dark nd neon lights kinda thing..picture the baq of spencers..like tha..ahh..this is so Xciten i tell ya haha..well i gotta bounce so I'll update every1 lata..peace♥♥
AhHhh..I cant waiiiittt.we already maken da planz fer muhSweet 16 Party!!Itsz gunna be off the chain!!..so far i have round 62 ppl nvited..and um im gunna have 2 guys outside the entrance N if u aint on da list..U will NOT be comen in..Daz the rules..we gunna have a BLAST!! I miss every1 SO bad..and pplz tellen me how much they miss me makes me miss dem even more! haha ..hMm..what else isz new..?hMm..well i cant update cha all on my doc. thing yet..cuz the testing aint done yet..uMm..thasz bout it really!..BUT..im SOOOOOOOO Xcited!!..cuz this was promised to muh ya kno so i know itsz gunna go down =D..ANYWAYS..I MISS ALL MUH LOVERS..N i'll be seein ya'll soon!!!!much love ya'll!!
♥AmaNda Faith♥
Random Mood i know but hey ima random kinda gerl =D..nswaysz nutten worth tellen really hmm cept mayB im spose to be goin down 2 P.A this weekdend.. but i dunna fer sure yet..umm My moms been droppen hints 2 muh that i'll be goin back to P.A to live wit Sami..liek she's been sayen.."If ur still here ina mth do u wanna buy my cell frum me"..and "Ya do kno tha u cant bring Kiara wit u when u move in wit Sami" Kiara would be mu german sheperd..which i love to death..so thas gunna kill me..loosen both of muh dogs =(..but i dunno I'll prolly be vistin every once in awhile so it's not like I'll never see them again..even though my aunt is prolly gunan B taken myne wit her to Florida..but w.e..anyways..thas bout it..Nutten exciten comen my way..I'll keep ya'll updated..
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I miss my elk lakians damn it all♥
CoLd..brr
Aiite nothin toooo big and exciting goin on hmm i cant make it to the Bonfire cuz i didnt have a ride from anyone but eh atleast im prolly goin next weekend to Cassies then meet ppls from there..like Marks and Adam really want to see me so they will one of the firsts besides my beautiful Samantha woot woot..and me and my mom kinda talked this morning about me moving to samis and she's like is that th eonly way i can prove to u that i love ya nd i said yea and she just kinda did a *ugh*..i was like hells yeah..so hopefully this does do a 360 for the best idk i guess we will hafta see..and i still havent gotten back to the doctors to find out about the thing i was gunna tell you all once i found out so we still gotta wait for that..which im scared a lil bit but just a lil lil lil bit...unless i do move back to Elk Lake..then if i do have what the doctors think then i WILL be scared..cuz well u'll understand once i tell you all...but besides all that notta damn thing more has happened so im
[.oUt.] ♥Elk Lakians♥