> > >CHILD ABUSE!!!!!!!!!! > > > > > >My name is Sarah > > > > > > > I am but three, > > > My eyes are swollen > > > I cannot see, > > > I must be stupid > > > > I must be bad, > > > What else could have made > > > My daddy so mad? > > > I wish I were better > > > > I wish I weren't ugly, > > > Then maybe my mommy > > > Would still want to hug me. > > > I can't speak at all > > > > I can't do a wrong > > > Or else I'm locked up > > > All the day long. > > > When I awake I'm all alone > > > > The house is dark > > > My folks aren't home > > > When my mommy does come > > > I'll try and be nice, > > > > So maybe I'll get just > > > One whipping tonight. > > > Don't make a sound! > > > I just heard a car > > > > My daddy is back > > > From Charlie's Bar. > > > I hear him curse > > > My name he calls > > > > I press myself > > > Against the wall > > > I try and hide > > > From his evil eyes > > > > I'm so afraid now > > > I'm starting to cry > > > He finds me weeping > > > He shouts ugly words, > > > > He says its my fault > > > That he suffers at work. > > > He slaps me and hits me > > > And yells at me more, > > > > I finally get free > > > And I run for the door. > > > He's already locked it > > > And I start to bawl, > > > > He takes me and throws me > > > Against the hard wall. > > > I fall to the floor > > > With my bones nearly broken, > > > And my daddy continues > > > With more bad words spoken. > > > "I'm sorry!", I scream > > > But its now much too late > > > His face has been twisted > > > > Into unimaginable hate > > > The hurt and the pain > > > Again and again > > > Oh please God, have mercy! > > > > Oh please let it end! > > > And he finally stops > > > And heads for the door, > > > While I lay there motionless > > > > Sprawled on the floor > > > > > > My name is Sarah > > > And I am but three, > > > Tonight my daddy > > > > Murdered me. > > > > > > There are thousands of kids out there just like Sarah. > > > And you can help. > > > > > > Sickens me to my soul, and if you just read this and > > > don't pass it on I pray for your forgiveness, cause you > > > > would have to be one heartless person to not be > > > effected by this story. And because you are effected, do > > > something about it!! So all I am asking you to do, is take > > > some time to send this on and acknowledge that this > > >stuff does happen, and that people like her dad do live in our > > >society, > > > and I pray for child abuse to wither out and die, > > > but also pray for the safety of our youth. > > > > > > Please pass this poem on because as crazy as it might > > >sound, it might just indirectly change a life. Hey, you NEVER know. > > >Please put this on your site if you are *~*~*AGAINST CHILD > > >ABUSE *~*~* > > >

ya know what... i miss Jessa.. idk what made me think of her more then i usually do.. but i really love her.. hmmmmmmmmmm..

i feel like writing more poems and songs.. but i dont have any good ideas er anything.. oh well.. im so friggen bored.. if i dont find anything to do im gunna cry not really but i can pretend=P

This life is my lie And I only get to live it once And before it ends I need to tell you That I'm sorry for all the shit I put you through And in this life there was only me and you Untill you fell lose, and now your gone But your here in my heart But physically you belong to someone else And it seems we'll end the way we begang And we're good friends But that's it and I dont want that to be Once my heart is open, thats the way it'll always be So I love you and I always will But I mean this even in death And I'll always love you And I'll always take every breathe because of you And if I die now.. it's because my heart has broke for you And I will live my life in love with you In this life there was only me and you Untill you fell lose, and now your gone But your here in my heart But physically you belong to someone else And it seems we'll end the way we begang And we're good friends But that's it and I dont want that to be Once my heart is open, thats the way it'll always be So I love you and I always will But I mean this even in death And there was something I need to tell you when I wrote this down But even now I couldnt get it out DEDICATED TO:>Kimberly Ann

im like really boed.. there is nothing going on.. but oh well.. thats been going on fer a while

just got back from Kerstians.. im pretty sleepy but oh well i had fun.. i mena we went to bed at like 5 am and its only 9:16 now so i ddnt gert much sleep

well Kerstian Cody and Brittany were just here and then they left but ther all coming back and i hope im leaving with them and hsit so well see what happens

well im bored but i mite get to go to Kerstians tomarrow and hang out up there i havnt been there in so long wich sucks so bad.. oh well

JDMidget504: im picking the day of my death.. im gunna kill my self pretecting the one who i am most in love with at that time punkrockpoetjade: howwould u be protecting them at 18 and y punkrockpoetjade: i cant u promised JDMidget504: im not sure yet buit itll be a life and death punkrockpoetjade: u promised no suicide JDMidget504: but that doesnt mean youll kill yourself JDMidget504: it wont be suicide and itll be sacrifice punkrockpoetjade: i cant lose u chris JDMidget504: you wont.. we'll meet again after that i promise we cant choose what happens when we die but we can choose how we die I love you

looking ahead to forget the past trying to remember what made it last but in the end it never works so get back up and get to work we need to try again and fergive and ferget life is to short to hold this grudge but if thats what you want then keep it to yourself and even after all we've been threw i always come back to you and all i know is that i love you and all that i do is just for you

well im bored my ankle still hurts and ummmmmm i think thats it but oh well.. i have nuthin to do all day so im just gunna be sitten around and umm thats it.. right now my lifes pretty boring...

just got back.. i think i sprained my ankle.. but it was great

im going on vaca tomarrow.. thatll be great!!=) im going to New Jersy

well she didnt get sent away im so glad.. im like idk but its great

well im not sure if she got sent away or not i really hope not though...

i pretty much just got back from Collistas and i stayed up all night but only on the second night.. but i kind of planned on doing that.. and i smoked catnip with Kerstian Courtney and Lexi too see if you could get high off it like cats do.. lol.. and it was my idea!! er body goes along with my dumb assed ideas lol im going on vaca in like 2 days ~tear~ ill miss my ppl

I Wish I wish I could've been there the first time you cut I could have help you're wrist and took the blade away And told you I'm here so everything will be alright I blame myself for not stopping you Even though its not my fault But its because I know there was something I could've done But I still havent forgiven myself And probly never will And I only do because I love you

omfg omfg im like scared outta my mind and im like crying i feel like im gunna puke.. they were only suposed to be gone for like an hour.. oh shit.. omfg im like i dont even know.. but im like really scared and i shouldnt be it doesnt hardly effect me.. i dont even know why im like this i have no reason to be its not even that bad.. i just wont get to talk to'em for 60 days or so.. but omg omg omg omg.. i really shouldnt be this scared... ill tell if the news is good or bad later

well lets see im going ot my autn Colistas all weekend.. but it should be good... but Erika cant o so that sucks but i still got 2 of the cds i ordered and they are Hawthorne heights and Senses fail

well lets see i jsut got home from my grandmas and its 8:45am... wich sucks because i woke up at 8:30 and i went to bed at 3am but i have no clue when i actually fell asleep not for like another hour i think..thats only 4 1/2 hours of sleep... oh well i wonder if i can go hang with Kerstian today/night since we hardly ever sleep there.. or hang with Jessa.. either one works.. but id rather hang with Jessa because shes only gunna be here for like a week then shes going to texas and im gunna be so pissed if i dont get to see her while shes up here.. i really wanna do one or the other though because i have to go to the beach in like a week and i dont wanna go at all.. i like it there but i cant talk to all my friends.. and truthfully i dont really like to spend time with the family i live with.. but i really wanna go to the movies with Kerstian and if i go her house then ill proly get ot go with a bunch of her friends and her bf.. but i know all of them besides Tracy but oh well.. and Erika is going so if i do get to go it should be really really fun.. i dont even know what movie were going ot see but i dont really care.. i just wanna go to see Erika and to hang with Kerstina Jessica and Tracy.. but ohn well we'll see how this day works out..