Listening to: here in your arms
Embracing new life
It's been a while since I've updated. woo! Last semester went wonderfully. I keep growing. And As I go through these new experiences my capacity of happiness and ability to love increases! I do believe trials and tribulations really stretch out my heart so more good and fill in the space. And it's been such a wonderful ride!
I remember his last words
I shouldn't be spiteful.
But they go through my head over and over again
And I pity
But those words are what motivated me.
I called mom shortly after
"Mom, wil anyone ever want me? Will anyone ever see me for me and love what they see?"
I pitied myself for just a moment. I was near the taylor quad when I heard those last words
By the time I reached Carriage House I was a new woman.
so thank you, dear friend, for that feeble attempt that completley changed my life.
So last semester recap.
I made new wonderful friends who completely turned my life around. I met people who actually believe in that movie at the end of our lives...and believes and strives for those certain moments. One would turn to me and say, "that was a total moment! The camera was angled like this!"... Or "I really am excited to see that moment again!"
I became close to people I never thought I could.
I starved and watched the food network channel.
I screamed when I saw that doll head pop up in my window... I am on the 2nd floor.
I experiened two of my friends getting engages...and never got steak for it.
I found my major and my minor and I believe I'll stick to it. Sociology and marriage and family studies.
I regained my love for love
and I have a totally different self esteem.
my swirl is going up.
I bought this new laptop for 500 dollars and it works like a dream.
I cried a LOT
I became and ambassidor and IREP leader...
I broke the rules. And through rocks at doors...
I transformed and I'm happy. I'm motivated. I'm moving forward.
Oh, and I fell in love
which love saved my life and I'm eternally grateful. It was almost forbidden. But we let it live.
Such a crazy ride!
I love that boy even now.
Here in your arms-hellogoodbye
driving in his truck
his hand on my knee
he listening to every word I said (or giving the appearence of listening)
Long walks overcoming every little thing
pushing the button on the climbing wall
finding the large water bug and later disposing of it because it turned the container black
crazy neighbors who begged for starburst
throwing rocks at his door and spraying him with the water gun...he was so proud
crossing the railroad tracks and that simple question-"where"
weekend trips to rigby and IF
almost drowning and proving that body heat really is the only way to get warm.
those crazy blacklight dances and the loveyoulongtime concert. I really do hope you choke and die.
stadium singing and the smell of pickles
moments of silence with outbursts of laughter
15 minute naps and studying for hours in that lounge that smelt like moldy clothes
birthday wishes and priesthood blessings
That trip to G's and tears overflowing
Whispered those before taboo words
Oh, what a ride we're on.
Now pressing on not knowing whats ahead.
Florida and RExburg.
Bring it on