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These last days of summer really get me into an even more nostalgic mood then i was used to.I was fishing trouts in the creek with my little son last week, just with bare hands and a net.Im so grateful that i can offer him a life with these things, walks in the woods, building huts, playing in the creek and making fire to bbq. I remember when my dad used to do this with me and i thought this is what every child does in the free time besides kindergarden.Later when i was older, i conquered the mud with my best friends and our new BMX Bikes.We payed with toy soldiers, dug holes to have a secret stash. Made fire and we came home alive after these summer days. I never felt home in a city or sorrounded by many people, this didnt change in a lifetime and i was afraid my son would be as introverted as i am. But he is my sunshine, i like to be his pal sometimes, there is so much time i have to tell him whats right and whats wrong. Sometimes we can just be friends, something my dad never could with me. I really hope my son will remember these days of canoing on the lake and making smoky fire. I hope this will be his treasure in heart later, when he needs to find his way in this world.

It is not important nowadays to be able and start a fire. But only because there are so many people who cant do it, but have a voice loud enough to just pretend being right.

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September 30th, 2016 @ 12:41am
hey, thanks for stopping by.. I don't think I thought Europe would solve any problems I had when I wrote that. I know problems follow you wherever you are. I went there last year and it was a great experience but ultimately just added to my problems. I just need a change of pace when things don't work out.
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