Eggshellopener v.1.2
Listening to: Van Morrison - Dancing In The Moonlight
Feeling: shifty

Well today i have worked out some stuff in my garden like chopping some trees and diggin out the bean-sticks. Gardenwork is the kewlest thing you can wake up early for except sex or a bag full of money. So i did my farmer thingy today to get some diverson. Fresh Air, some green plants, got a chop in the arm and the blood rans out pulsating. Simply and powerful Entertainment. had no beer, but a fine chainsaw and some rolls with sausage. Gee no music, only some Cars which are driving along like waves on the beach. Feeling angry and lound inner and being the silent outer. Sweating like a pig while lifting some wooden blocks. Thinking nothin special except of her and the wound hurts now, not bleeding any more but the thoughts are pressing out the pain. Got some seat, smoking a cigarette, listening to the river and pull up some water for the pumpkins. Feeling sick and low, going down. I dont like this shit anymore. I hate the lonelyness and i hate being crying like this here but i really hate it all. Damn, i wished not to be a hater anymore but this time it may come harder then before. Was looking for some annoyance yesterday but thanks anyway nothing found. Goin drunk this night at a friend and i will trash her with my dark feelings, she is nice and im happy that she helps me. Dunno, go open and you can be hit in the deepest, be closed and you got nothing. But nothing hurts and the other shit hurts, too. cant stand that i meet some kind person, that i dont have met since 5 years or so and then its not working. If she is playing me for a fool i would take it. If she beats me i would take it. But she wants the hardest thing, she wants to be with me without answering my love. Grrrls: you are the hardest asses i have ever known. Beats and Words cant break you such as a grrrl can do. Esspacially a Girls like Mel. Shitsickfeeling i hate it.

here comes the sun :P

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girls are evil.
well, most are,
sorry youre being treated horribly, though she'll get hers eventually
karmas a bitch
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Frank's Good Bye
Everythings done so far.
Frank is dead
Heritage
Launch
Summer's almost gone
Swing it like Tiger woods
Repetative whore
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The Old One
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für Kristina
Probezeit
Sick
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Your eyes are momentary
Verfickte Scheisse.
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i feel fine
Leer
What if?
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Special K
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Got the Blues
Dead Elvis & his one man grave
Beatman rocks
Jgermeister
Christmas
Autumn
i'll fly away
Happy NY
blank
Them Good Ol Boys
still alive
jedediah bells
Sssssssmokin'
July
April
still here
December already
Travellin'
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48hours
Blockade
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Wotan
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50 Days
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the fool
maturity
sharp honey
Satellite path
Blue Sunday
chinese homebrew
breath
coal clerk's
new boots
dear diary II
dear diary
some serious fun
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rusty throats
snailwarrior
saturday in december
home of an evil spirit
Hmyes
Frohe Weihnachten!
Thin Ice
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The Sardonic Success
Afterglow
Waterhotspur
The Wings Of Mourning
Sunday Morning
Departure tendency (Cold...
Silk Views
Burning Moments (Angst)
Brand New
Big City Collapse
Wintersleep
Ceremony
Raven' s Claws (autumn...
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Cruel Sky
Rusted
Jim Morrison was wrong
Herzfresser
26 scorpio is my...
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Dust (Lizardskin Retina)
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Broken Light
Car Seat (God's...
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Rücksturz
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Crimson Rivers
Deflections
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Mountaineer
Undreamt of
Opportunity spirits
The Smile of the Satyr, I,...
The Smile of the Satyr, II,...
The Smile of the Satyr, III,...
The Smile of the Satyr, IV,...
Snow Flake, Elf and Blooddrop
Hällöwien
Grizzly jagt Elf
The Papercup
the acres of love
Hunted by the Mob
Iron Horses
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Three Seconds, end of view.
Two Seconds
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The Moloch
Driving Around
Feeling 'Caughed'
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Soulfly
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Combed
Screwed up Head
Gör Kömmändö Zork De...
Fairy Tale
Oh Bella!
VoodooDoll
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Pieces of Broken Glass
Knife Sharpened
Some Fishes to Sell
Salad to Sacrifice
Earsplittenloudenboomer
Fear
Verlust
Autumn
Transmetropolitan
Slugs on a Razor
Sharpness
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One Hour Madness
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