193. summer oh seven

Feeling: broke
so my first year of highschool is now over (: so what did i do this summer? well... work work work six days a week. and when i can i hang out with my friends. also i was in a pagent yippie i won miss personality. i also made plenty of new friends. but only some count :P oh oh oh i also went to WARPED TOUR and hershy park(: yeah it was funn. kay on seven seven oh seven i started going out with josh, you no that kid im always talkign about it. about. and i dont no if it is even a good thing right now cause were fighting :/ but we are going to see each other on saturday so we will see how things go. anyway thats it for now. all i have plans is going to the fair some more and soem parties (: kayyyy well i do love josh.(: what am i do right this second. well its fuckin almost 4 in teh morning and im still up and wide awake hangign out with jenna. fun fun. I'll show you how to make a heart-beat.
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192. 4 months later♥

Feeling: alone
well people it is now 4 months later of my last entry. ahh highschool has started and there is not as much drama as i thought. oh dont get me wrong there is drama just not like alot alot alot. i did have a boyfriend for like 4 days his name was jimmy barton but ehh i dotn even no it didnt work out because i am so totally in love with JOSHHHUA KLINKIEWICZ haha yes people it is now like 3 years that i have been totally in love with this kid. well things have been goign pretty good with me and him . well we did have a lil fight but i think its better now. ill find out tonight if we talk on the phone :) that kid is so hottt i love him.. ahh when i mean hot i mean straight up bangable. well moving on faith has a awesome boyfriend Cory Blowers . yeah me and faith are still best friends in teh beginning of highschool i wasnt so sure but now im positive were deifntly still best friends. i was at her house last night :) well i through an awesomlyy big party yeah it involoved a strech limo, hot tubs, dancing on the pool table, chain saws, and other stuff ;) well hmm ill prolly right in this again liek in a million years or like a few months or something. cause now all everyone cares about is myspace. aww poor sitdiaryy. well peopel om still aorund and dont delete me quite yet.. i love you more then anything joshuaa ♥
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191.3months later

well i said i would right 3 months later and i am. well stats. i still lovee joshua klinkiewicz♥ & also faith is still one of my bestest friends but she s over anthony [ithink] and is now with ethan. go her. well i have not totally forgot about sitdaiy but. i do love myspace.. im really confused and need someone to help me.. ahh im still here. you know you love me Jackiee ♥
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190.hmm long time no talk

Listening to: jareds annyoing voice
Feeling: abnormal
hmm i havent written in this in so long.. well first of all im 14 mhhmm go me.. second i still like josh =] well ive been spending most of my time at faiths house and she is so cool.. but she has a leasbian stalker which is so cool .. not really but yeah.. well anyway she was so horny over anthony.. and she is gunna flip when she see's this.. good thing no one reads this anymore.. hmmm.. myspace. deffintly kicks this right in the ass.. hmm.. well i dotn no what else to say besides i love faith and i kind of miss writing in this =[ well if anyone even cares im still alive and i didnt cut myself to death.. hmm im gunna go now. i love you sitdiary people.. faith is being a dumb whore ( im at her house) and she was writing mean stuff about me .. I WANT MY MOMMYY good bye and fair well i migth rigth again in 3 months. & what would you do if i said i love you ♥
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Listening to: since you been gonee
Feeling: amused
yesterdayy night--well me&&connyy went to the hauntedd walkk and we like were destroyingg the placee cuzz were bad to the effin bonnee...well i broke to tabless and pulled down a sheet and kicked a guy right in his facee.. and well we went on the trail liek twicee and we saw ppl we no and ppl that no us but we dont no them and the ring girl was like whoa she freaked me dah f out.. and well then these ppl kept followingg us.. and i alomost beet the shit out of austin =D and we saww wonderful benny&&ivan yess ivann just makeess me smilee cuzz i punched him.. but he punched me to =O well we saw cordd and he almost took conny from me into teh woods.. you no what that means.. he was hornyyy overr my dearest connyy.. well thenn we went homee and just chilledd and ate more food.. and well that was that. todayy--well me && connyy are u just to effin cool were goiingg to a partyy but first were picking upp lovely lisa and then we are gettin summ har diee and dyingg our hair liek red or purplee or sum shitt andd thenn i guess we leav eto go to the partyy ah ah laterr x0 L o v eis giving someone the power to B r e a kyourh e a r tBut trusting them not to ♥
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187.life.love.friends&&misery

Feeling: alone
Life--well its pretty good ive been goin to a feww parties lately and this weekend i have a carnival& a party & a dance wow im booked and then the next weeked i have another party and then the next another onee. o boy im on a effin roll best call me butter well.. yeah i went to shanes partyy at connys house it was greati slept overr.. and met very cool people like BILLY benny ivan and shawn they all kick ass.. omgg i got shot in teh boob haha shanee.. well dont feel like going into detail.. love--ugh well people like me i just dont like them and they dont get it... and liek anthonyy he is my best friend bt liek josh wants me to liek him btu i love josh.. and im liek ughh cuzz i want josh so badd.. but i cant have him. friends--there great well me and faith have been in a few figths but nothing will make me not b her friend.. me and anthonyy are great. and sum people who i thought i would never b friends with well now i am.. so yeah. and josh he is still my bst friend and we havent even got in to a fight =D yess and well yeah misery--i havent had alot of that lately life has been pretty good except when i was talkin to anthonyy i was in tears for like ever.. but then i spoke to JOSH and he made me feel better and so did trav. My heart doesnt lie you make It b e a t faster then ever. i cant Beileve it. its just not possible. My love for you is just.. u n s t o p a b l e ♥
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186.church leads to funn

Listening to: jesus of suburbia
Feeling: amazed
todayy-- i went to church with faithh && i saw MIKE && RILEYYYY they kick majorr asss.. and well we chilled but rileyss mom made me & julie workk out our problems so we did.. and were friends again i thinkk.. and well we played football and stuff and set up food. which i snuck a bunch and shared garlic bread with rileyy=D and yeaa then later onn--omgg i look out my window and i see mike so i scream on top of my lunbgss and runn towards him and i gave him likee 3 millionn hugss haha then we couldnt find faith haha so we went into the screaming faith faithh we love you haha and thenn yeahh o n i gave rileyy hugss to cuzz he is just to kool.. and well he is my hot best friend and mike is my budd haha.. and haha mike ((cats)) and well then we played pool sort ofish and me & mike wonn .. and then we were gunna go on teh fourwheelers when mike had to leave ughh i was sadd =( and then rileyy stayed and we hung out teh rest of the night.. and i brought darcyy on teh four wheeler wow .. taht was funny as hell..and then well rileyy left after dinnerr and faith is leaving in liek a 40 mins or so.. and well i lovee her .. she is my lezbian.. yupp and riley loves them lezboss haha.. well im done with writing thiss.. later hunnie we have a love thing. ((we just have that sort of love thing))♥
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185.i love faithh

Listening to: let me love you
Feeling: amazing
well im writing in this damn thing again cuzz fiath wants me to.. so yeah the football gammee-- it was a blast but i was so upset cuzz of mike and ryan tehy both like me but likee ugh big problems there.. we best workk that workk..well i saw anthonyyy&&trav&& JOSHH i love josh.. but he was actin ya no wierdish.. i went with my bicth faithh.. and i saw all my honesdale buddiess.. and cameron sed i looked differnt what ever that means =/ and then like i got millions of hugs and hand shakess..haha mike b is awsomer then awsomee..and i saw aaron and lisa and liek everyonee..and i brought nicholass reeder..john g&&Jared c..homee..cuzz like we saw john && jared at leik a gas station then brought them home and i listened to his ipod. but liek i think john still hates me but whatever ill get over it.. i just cant take all these C+ friends anymoree.. o and omgg i saww my whoreesss alli&&megan i love them 2.. and well yeah thats it. Hunnie i still love you. that isnt a lie. i want you*i need u. but instead. i have to sit here. crying my eyes out. knowing you will never love me back.hunnie i cant forget. i just cant stop liking you. i just wish i could forget about everythign taht ever happened between us.. i wish we could be just f r i e n d s ♥
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184. The bet =D

Listening to: midget
Feeling: amazed
i took this bet and i cant date ANYONE i repeat ANYONE all year.. and tehn people are gunna pay me $400 dollass yess..well bunches of people asked me out but i said no cuzz i did .. and well my friend =x not naming was liek brake the fuckin bet for me i was like nopee.. so like thats that.. && well i got myspace now so like im not gunna right in this alot unless i got timee. or lots of comments. so like bye my screen names are FadinGg Smile Xo && Brokenx3dloozer hit them up Your just to cool for me to forget you. but the real crime is i still L o v e you ♥
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183.the latest

Feeling: agitated
before the dance-i went and hung out wit casey&&ryan&&ricky cuzz i saw casey n mike o n ricky n scott early and sed i wud hang wit them later then i ened up seein ryan =D and casey n ricky and we climbed trees and went for a bike ride and saw the waterfall then i picked them lovely boys up later and we went to teh dance =D yeah biotches the dance-- ok well the dance was great yess i had a great time it was just like whoa i saw all my lovely friends and it was mostly me n lisa & ryan & casey & ricky it was greta.. btu me and lisa got in trouble but whatever.. then lisa came to my housee yess.. and we were up all night.. sundayy- well we went to church and saw omgg MIKE BRITTIN & rileyy wow .. and then they ened up comin to my house and so did ryan & casey and we all hung and road fourwheelers and lots of stuff.. and julei got mad but i dotn liek mike and i wud never do that to her.. then the wholee week-- well i spoke to like mike everyday on the phonee and i spoke to ryan the other nigth and aaron asked me to go to teh movies but i sed as liek a group .. so yeah.. then yeahh fridayy--well we went and picked up lisa and ate at elgantes and it was yummyyy and then she came back to my house and chilledd and that was like reallyy it.. she is so awsomee.. todayy--we are going to teh moviess wit aaron&ryan&casey and at like 6ish were eating at pizza huttttt and then were goin to see exeorsist of emily rosee and im gunna b scaredd shitless.. so well later bitchess. so bitches breath in - breath out - breath in - breath out - now drop - now drop DONT STOP DONT STOP- hunnie just keep going ♥
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182.football game

Listening to: none
Feeling: alone
the foot ball gamee-- it was awsomee i went with julie cuzz she came off my hosue on teh buss she is just to cool.. i saw lovely alli and megan and they like almost attacked me they were like omgg jackiee and well that was that and well also i saw ANTHONYY yes i love him haha he is my bestest friend for like everzz and i hung wit him like i was cool.. and travis and kimm but no faith =( i was so sad i just love that whoree to deathh..and then i saw all my old honsedalee buddiess and i chilled wit felsman and i told everyoen he was the sexiest man on earth haha and like i was wearing his hatt like i was teh bestest person around even though im nott butt still..and i also was chillin wit aaron he is awsomee we just hungg like alott and dann he is a pretty sweet guy him selff o n mike brittin i hungg wit him to they were really funnyy.. and well yeah i got aaronss number yess i shall give hima ring tommaroww and maybb i can get himt o sneak into the dance haha..and well that was mainly it.. o n omgg im tlakin to my loverrr nicholas coyleeeee he is just to cool.. i was soppsed to see him this weekend btu ugh i miss him so much.. It s c a r e s me how i LOVE every lil detail about him ♥
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181. confenessions

Listening to: nicks voice♥
♥ your confessions [♥] I've run away from home [eww fuck no ] I listen to political music. [if i were a looser ] I collect comic books. [♥] I shut others out when I'm sad [♥] I open up to others easily [♥] I am keeping a secret from the world [ ] I watch the news [ugh yeah ;/ ♥] I own over 5 rap CDs [♥ ] I own something from Hot Topic [shurr] I love Disney movies [♥] I am a sucker for hair/eyes [♥] I curse regularly. [♥ ] I have "x"s in my screen name. [♥ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation. [ ] I love Spam [ ] I bake well [ ♥] I would wear pajamas to school. [♥ ] I own something from Abercrombie [o who doesnt lol ] I love Martha Stewart. [♥ yup ] I am in love/like with someone. [♥ sometimes ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS [♥] I am self conscious. [♥] I like to laugh. [nahh ] I smoke a pack a day. [ ] I loved Go Ask Alice. [ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick. [i can now yess ] I can't swallow pills. [♥] I have many scars [i wish ] I've been out of this country [♥] I believe in ghosts. [a little bit] [ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. [ocd what?] [♥ in certain spots] I am really ticklish. [♥] I love chocolate. [ ] I bite my nails. [?] I am comfortable with being me. [ ] I play computer games/video games when I'm bored [ ] Gotten lost in the city. [♥ for teh first time with nick c yess] Saw a shooting star. [♥ ] had a serious Surgery. [fuck yeah ♥ the movies] Gone out in public in your pajamas [ ] have kissed a stranger. [♥ ] Hugged a stranger. [♥ ] been in a fist fight with the same sex. [ ] Been arrested. [♥] Laughed and had milk/soda come out of your nose. [♥ ] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator [ ] Made out in an elevator. [guilty♥ ] Swore at your parents. [♥] Kicked a guy where it hurts. [i wish ] Been skydiving. [nopee it would b cool though ] Been bungee jumping. [♥ ] Broken a bone. [who hasnt ♥] Played spin the bottle. [eww i hate milk ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. [♥ im a vampire haha.. and on there necks too haha] Bitten someone. [ ] Been to Niagara Falls. [nope ugh =/] Gotten the chicken pox. [ ] Crashed into a car. [ ] Been to Japan [♥] Ridden in a taxi. [my friends did =x ] Shoplifted. [ ] Been fired. [♥ yes josh ugh] had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. [ ] Stole something from your job. [ ] Gone on a blind date. [ ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach... [ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. [i will when im older with nick c yess ] Been to Europe. [ ] Slept with a co-worker. [ ] Been married. [ ] Gotten divorced. [maybe?] Saw someone/something dying. [♥ i was the passenger] Driven over 400 miles in one day. [ ] Been to Canada. [♥] Been on a plane. [ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. [ ] Thrown up in a bar. [♥] Eaten Sushi. [love it!!!] [yess i fuckin snowboard bitches ♥ ] Been skiing or snowboarding. [♥ ] Been ice skating. [♥ nick my cuzins bets friend he is so sexii i love that kid ] Met someone in person from the internet. [ ] Been to a motocross show. [♥ ]Going to or have gone to college. [ ] Done hard drugs [x] Taken painkillers. [? sort of they cheated on my first and i found out big mistake ] ever cheat on someone? those are my confessions bitches.. leave it
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180.nick♥

Feeling: amazing
todayy--school is pretty sweet i have my good buddie anthonyyy yess he is the bestest.. and cord he is pretty sweet guy himself.. and faith she is my bestest friend then there is everyone else which who really cares.. but thens theres nick joyal me n him wrote a note todayy he is cool.. yeah.. it was a pretty good note..it was about ahh like nothingg..and me and anthony always right notes cuzz were to cool for words.. well josh is ahh.. like i thought i liked him but like i DONT really there is just no feelingg... but i really miss nick coyle..ughh..i like him so much♥ Even thought i no you w a n t to like me you'll never admit it im okayy with that cuzz i like you to just behind your back ♥
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179.ugh?

Listening to: luda
Feeling: alone
the weekend-- i was at faiths the wholee weekend i love her so much and well we chilled and brian he is awsomeee and well we saw boot omgg i missed him i havent seen him in liek 6monthssss he loves me haha.. and well i dotn like him like that and i saw his new home =D and well umm john still hatess me but whateverr.. alli n john are done so brian had to call me up and tell me and i was liek okk and alli was liek i was jumpin for joyy and i was like haha wow.. she is just to funnyy.. and she is liek im pretty shurr megan was to haha.. them too.. im not mad at them at all anymoree.. well josh he is beingg ugh we will leave it at that.. i spoke to nick c ♥ i lovee him he is so great and well we spoke for like 8 hours all togetherrr and like our dreams haha ;D ...llamasss and hobos and homos and lots of otehr thingss bedss haha anddd well .. laterr && i cant bielve i want you so badd but i no i cant have you.. even though you want me to ♥
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178. boyys ??

Listening to: secrets
Feeling: alone
wensdayy--nick reeder came over and we hung out and it was pretty damn funn omggg there was a bat in my house and i was liek screamingg it was so freakyyy and well tehn we like played pool and i forgot who one haha. thursdayy--well nick came over again =D and well we chilled and stuff and bunches of stuff happened and well i spoek to josh and he is upsett and i feel extremely bad for him but idk.. i spokee to megan and alli and well yeah and then that night nick reeder ASKED ME OUT omgg omgg we have been best friends for so long so i didnt give an answer and i think he was upset cuzz he put sad faces and i felt so bad but like i dotn no i told him we were in differnt schools and also like we been good friends and i dont wnat to ruin our firndshipp but im so shokedd he asked me out.. fridayy--well todayy was pretty okk yeah i spoke nick c for liek 3 hours wow he is friggin awsome haha.. yess School--well me an anthonyy been writing our notes every dayy haha 3rd peirodd haha and liek other stuff and faith she is just my whoreee haha lol and im herss so boo you and i call josh my man whoreee haha and we just go back n forth callin each other namess but damn he was wierd today and like i hopee he feels better..well thats about really it laterrr && hunnie everything about you just drives me crazyy.♥ ♥
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177.confustion

Listening to: none
Feeling: aggravated
ok well school was okk i asked the teacher what pms stands for and she was liek really old haha...next subject im so confused well i like one of my good friends nick reeder =/ but it is like wierd cuzz of like thingss and i also liek this kid nick c but i will never see hima nd he said i shud go out wit nick r but liek i dont no cuzz i dotn think nick r likes me but i dont no ahhh CONFUSED ?
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176. him♥

Listening to: tv
Feeling: adored
yesterdayy and today--omg it was so great i went to bobbys 16th bday party up in new york and it was so great i met his wonderful friends and wow this one kid was hot lol (mark) but he was funny to omg and my mom was swingin on the hamock and it flipped over and she fell on her ass and all teh guys were laughin there asses off it was great haha and i finnally met ♥NICK omgg he was so great omg ive been tlakin to him on line for like 3 years now omgg i think i like him omgg he is so nice and we hungg all night we were hamockitizing lol and bobby called us slut buddies lol and well we all palyed man hunt and capture teh flag and hide n go seek in teh dark and football and baseball and umm other stuff.. i had a wicked good catchin foot ball but tehn i fell haha i got tackled by two people and well umm ben nicks bro is so funny we were lookin at ufo's haha he is just great my hat boy hehe and well eric is just funny but he was mad at me cuzz me n nick werent as like hyper and we were like laying down alot and i dotn no it was wierd.. and we all started as sleepin on teh trampoline but it was so cold and bobbys friends like didnt go to bed it was like whoa but like nick and me were together and he kept me warm :D im gunna miss him so much =/ and well then at like5 or 6 we went into erics room to sleep and then i had to leave at liek 9ish and now im back and i feel sort of sickishh.. ahh i miss nick already ♥
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175.<333

Listening to: crickets =D
Feeling: amazed
todayy--well me && lisa went home back to PA and picked up faith yay i love her hehe..and well we went on teh fourwheelers and went to nicks house but he wasnt there =( and tehn we saw this kid and he was fat lol and we beat him in a race BITCH lol and i totally dusted him me and faith are just the bestest damn drivers around lol..then lisa had to go home a lil bit later =( boo i missed her lol then nick reeder =D && zack came over yess theyy are just the bestest guys around and we all chilled lol oo and i had to dress liek a hooker and so did fiatha nd lisa earlier it was funny lisa was walking around out side and so was i it was grand .. lol well then we palyed sum pool and well zack&&fiath almost beat me&&nick but fiath hit the ball in teh wrong pocket what a loozer but u got to love her lol..then i took nicks moneyy haha but we wont talk abou that ;) and then the boys had to go home around 10:30ish or 11 =( i was so sad and then i took nicks money in teh car again lol and we couldnt find any good music haha.. then well taht was really it and yeahh HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAITH!!!!!
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174.♥

Feeling: alright
yesterday afternoon--me and lisa well we rented hide and seek and it wasnt as scary as i thought but whatever. yesterdayy---omfg me n lisa went and got ERIC i was so happy i missed him so much ♥♥he is so great.. i like him .. he is wonderful..umm so we had a spectacular day and we chilled at the club and road the bike and in teh beginng we ditched lisa as a joke it was funny but then she found us and that was that and then well we all went to my house and chilled for awhile ;D .. then we chilled around the area summore and we sat on a rock right at the main gate thinger lol and then we went to his house and hung for a long while then around 11ish we came back and i spoke to faith&&anthony i fuckin love them to and it was like crazzyy for like umm 3 or 4 hours like whoa.. and then me n lisa wnet to bed well lisa fellasleep on me lol.. but still.. now were up and in like an hour or sumthin were goin back to good ole PA.. then sunday im goin up to new york again wit my moma nd im goin to my cuzins house and omfg i get to meet nick ive been waiting like 2 years to meet this kid he is liek so awsoem he is my pimp♥ and well then were gooin campin and i get to meet all bobbys wonderful friends. and well thats about it. i think that even though i no so little .. i cat explain how much i love ever bit i no of you ♥
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