[1790] Forgotten
Listening to: Jefri eating hay and Tim playing Borderlands

I always forget to write in this now. Not because I am busy or have so much going on.. probably the opposite. And although as anyone has had the unfortunate displeasure of randomly stumbling into this meaningless word pit i call my diary knows... i could write forever and there would hardly ever be a point. But whatever man... its my diary.

 

Well lets start with the bad and get to the good...

I think one reason I don't write in here as much is because my mother once mentioned she found this diary and read it  She said she read it when we werent talking a long time ago. And on the off chance she still does... I just dont want her "feeling" close to me or like she "knows" me just because can read. i don't care if complete strangers feel this way... go ahead strangers... but if she wants to know me or feel close she can stop reading and DO something about it. But she wont. She is a coward. and i don't care if she knows i feel that way. Its all too easy for her to take a back seat and excuse herself from my life. She thinks I am the one who leaves and then puts words in my mouth like "I know you don't want to hear from me". And before we stopped talking she would be like "well you will just never talk to me anymore". I don't care what any of them think anymore. Everyone wants to think Jason is this person he isn't. Put him on a pedastool and worship him.. believe everything he says.. do everything he wants... its a phenomenon in our family that even blinded Tim and I for a while. She thinks he is perfect. its not just that he lied about having sex with all his girlfriends. he's over 30... of course he has... but she wouldn't even consider it until he finally told her. its not even all that.. and i wont get into that because i've written about it several times before and it'll just be extremely long and i don't feel like spending too much time on this subject... she thinks thats all it is.. its not just 1 lie. its that he is a liar. THAT is who he is. she compares him to Daniel in the bible. Daniel didn't lie and change who he is just to get into some random chicks pants. Daniel probably didn't sell drugs either. Oh yeah that's right MOM.. your precious son.. drug dealer when he lived in San Diego. Have fun with that one. Seriously I should have never forgiven either of them for accusing me of stealing... they still dont see how horrible that was. And by the way mother... your son and his friend ryan touched me when i was a kid at the copras house. bet he never told you that either. but who cares? She didn't care when he hit me or left a bruise the size of a softball on my arm.. why care about these bits of information? Thats all they are to her. He once called her a fucking retard to her face and she didn't say anything. She heard it because he said it loud and she shook her head. Tim and I heard it. When we asked her about it... she not only got mad at us for suggesting he would say that but then turned it on me saying i MAKE her feel like a fucking retard... what? i just said someone called you something and you get mad at me like i said it??... and we werent talking about me.. if she wants to talk about how i make her feel fine but do it on her own time... we were in the middle of a conversation about jason not me. but this is what she does she deflects all jasons issues or flaws or anything negative at all and puts it on me. Jason is to plastic ball as I am to sponge.... when Tim tried speaking up and saying he heard it and I said see Tim heard it too... she freaked out and said Tim is my God and I beleieve everything he says. what? That night tim and i decided that there is no talking to her. her responses do not make sense to what we are saying. we cant get straight answers and we never will. they are poison. i knew that years ago and kept going back. because what i thought things were supposed to be like or what i thoughtit meant to be a good person. or because ignorant jerk people would judge me for cutting them out. so over that. i get sad sometimes... but I have to write things like this over and over (and i know its annoying) so i remember why i cannot trust them or believe that they can change. they cant and they dont want to. its not them as people i miss or am sad to have lost. It is the idea of ever having a family like the one i think is "right" in my head.

 

Anyways. went to the doctor. first doctor sent me to 2 other doctors. 1 was ok. other was just like the rest. seeing the ok doctor for follow up soon. tim is calling the bad doctor to complain but its probably pointless. i decided todo things differently than the last times and before i left i asked to see the doctor again. i asked him to consider that he is not right for a second and that i am.. and asked who i would go to. he said the same type of doctor as himself but with experience with this stuff.. he said he would make some calls but i never heard from him and its been over a week. i bet he was just trying to get rid of me. its just annoying because he asked what theother doctors thought and i said the term and then he did his exam and he says to me "ok so the term for this is (insert term i previously told him here)..." um... dude. I told YOU that. Why did he act like I hadn't heard the word before?? The was stupid. I have hope for the ok doctor though. he seemed like he knew what he was tlaking about. this bad doctor was old and probably set in his ways and like a lot of old doctors (in my experience) want to push every situation they cant figure out into the "its all in your head" pile. Lazy

 

Still no job. Although I am about to apply to 3 right now. I haven't been for a while because I just get annoyed. I'm going to apply to a QA job even though those jobs are fullof young 20 something guys and I'm an old 20 something woman.. but it beats working at starbucks. plus i think i wont be effected by the office politics and drama this time. i dont want to make friends i just want to make money. i mean ok friends would be nice but i need friends my own age for once. and gender.. would be nice. i miss amanda. i keep wanting to apologize for being a jerk to her but i dont know what to say. i was trying to be a good friend to casey... im dumb. he was a terrible friend.. amanda was cool. he only didn't like her because she wasn't "hot" or "cute" or whatever he thought she should look like. I thought she was awesome. i think i might send her a message on fb. or not. idk. The other jobs are web developer type jobs. And then Tim also found a job for me. I will post about it if I hear from them. i'm worried my lack of a job for so long will count against me.

 

Tims dad is coming out this Thursday. He's bringing his (girl)friend and Tim's grandpa. They're coming early on Thursday while Tim is at work so I will be with them alone... :/ I suck at being with Tims family alone. I never know what to say. It was so awkward when me and his dad were working on the condo. I had NO idea what to talk about. I said all the wrong things. and then i inadvertently stole from home depot.

 

Just got a text from a producer friend. she is working on a web series and wants me to be PA. I have PA'ed for her before.. i want to apply for this one job and her as a reference would be really good... so i might so i can ask her. but its not even paid... well a gift certificate to the restaurant they are using. idk im on the fence about it.. i guess i have nothing better to do. i wonder if she would still be a reference if i dont? uhg I have to dont i? i want to act not PA... I guess you have to start somewhere. and she's always really nice. I should do it. Or at least 1 of the 2 days. --- left for a bit and just came back--- i realized we ccant do it since tim's dad and gpa will be out. idk how i forgot that since i just wrote about it before this... I'm weird.

 

On friday i have a meeting with one of my moms friends to help her.. well i'm not exactly sure. i think she wants me to teach her how to use facebook and other social media things. and I think she is going to pay me.. idk i just feel weird taking money for that sort of thing. and i feel weird doing a favor for one of my moms friends because thats pretty much doing a favor for my mom.  and that sir is the last thing i want to do. on the other hand... i think she mentioned that after she does teh social media stuff she needs a website and i need more freelance work so it might not be all that bad. sucks that its on friday while tims family is here.. i was going to cancel but i alreadycancelled one to take jefri to the vet.

 

Yeah so Jefri is old... he's going to be 10 at the end of the year :( He's been getting weaker. His hind legs mostly. he started faling over and not being able to get back up and instead of hopping he would drag his left leg or do this stepping thing. took him to the vet and he's been taking metacam and doing a lot better. he's hopping.. a little wobbly still but not too bad and if he falls over he is able to lift himself back up. the vet wanted to start him on panacur for e cuniculi but based on his current symptoms she decided to treat him with baytril for a middle ear infection. its more expensive but an ear infection for rabbits is a lot worse than some other stuff he could have so i would rather treat for that first just in case.

 

There should really be an alert system on here. I almost missed those comments on my previous entry because i just dont expect comments on this thing anymore. And if you click "all comments" you get a content encoding error. But yeah I'm glad I didn't miss them because i like comments and one was from "shoe" an old sit d friend i havent talked to in a million years :) I remember driving up to bakersfield to meet him and drawing our faces on the wall of his moms house (she was selling it) much to her dismayyyy. don't worry she got me back (painted my shirt lol)... and I still have the duck purse he made me! lol. And when him and his gf went with us to the beach good times!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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March 13th, 2014 @ 6:57pm
ahahahaha!!!! we should of took pictures of the drawings on the walls. my mom was piss that we did that, i almost forgot you helped her paint... time just flys bye

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[1758] Oh Hello
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[1380] But We Will Never Fold
[1378] The Cure
[1377] Too Little Too Late
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[1320] Thanks But No Thanks
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[1304] To Be Loved
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[1363]
[1361] Easter Eggs and Karma...
[1359] Michelle My Belle
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[1356] BAH!
[1355] Some People
[1354] Hmm
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[1350] BEYOND
[1349]
[1348]
[1347] Imagine All The People
[1346]
[1345]
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[1343]
[1342] A Job Well Done?
[1341] Daily News
[1338] My Foot Is Asleep
[1337]
[1336]
[1333]
[1332] Simple and Plane?
[1331]
[1330] Bendy Straws
[1329] Is Narnia in the...
[1328] I'm A New Soul
[1327] Hermit Crabs Are Gross
[1326] Last Last Time
[1325]
[1324] Juxtaposed
[1322]
[1321] zours
[1320] It's You
[1318] Setting the New...
[1317] He likes how I shake...
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[1313]
[1312] MVP
[1311]
[1310] superimposed
[1309] very funny
[1307]
[1306] The Definition Of A...
[1305] Homemade Cards And Die...
[1304]
[1303] I Can't Deny
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[1300] Oh
[1298] Pointlessness
[1296] Not To Brag..
[1294] The White Stuff..
[1293] A Matter of Time
[1291]
[1289] Just Get Over It
[1288] Well
[1286] Makin Babies
[1285] Ginger Bread Houses
[1284] Jam and Pim
[1283] Oh Man
[1282] Thankful
[1281] Half Alive
[1280] Hundreds of Pages,...
[1278] Phantom of the Opera
[1277] The MEat Of LOve
[1276] So, So I Don't Know
[1274] For Little You Or...
[1271] Happy Feet
[1270] Epic
[1269] Liife is Wonderful
[1267] This Isn't Hollywood
[1265] That's What HE said
[1263] I was so
[1262] Boys Like Girls
[1261] I Am Over It
[1259] I Feel Good All Over
[1258] Running Right Behind...
[1257] Officially Unofficial
[1255] Naked Lunch Is Natural...
[1256] Blue Jean Baby
[1254] I Know Everything...
[1253] Footprints On My...
[1252] harlequin girl
[1251] uhm
[1250] Graphic Design
[1248] That's
[1247] Well..
[1246] Sunday Morning
[1244] i might disappear
[1243]It's too...
[1242] Like A Drug
[1240] hear me out
[1238]
[1237] Aww and AHHH!
[1235] Santa Cruz
[1234] Painting
[1233]
[1227]
[1225] Pencil Sharpeners &...
[1223] Why not..
[1222] Nothing without you
[1220] just another survey
[1217]
[1216 1/2]
[1214] i need a poptart
[1212] Kelly Anne
[1211] running away
[1210] yellow and lime
[1205] Let it be
[1206]
[1203] It's Official
[1202] BLAHHHHG
[1099] Across The Universe
[1201]
[1098]
[1095] title and registration
[1094] Are You Ready To...
[1092] I shot you in the face...
[1091]
[1090] whatever what?
[1089] breathing
[1087] finish this later
[1086]
[1084] like a raindrop
[1082 1/2]
[1082]
[1081]survey thingy
[1079] this is a reminder
[1078]
[1076]
[1075]
[1074]
[1072]
[1071] funny face
[1070] p50
[1068]
[1069] and eat it too
[167] renee is gay
[166]skoozy
[1065] Couch
[1063] I dont care
[1060]
[1058] The Rest
[1057] finding neverland
[1054]
[1050] no title.
[1048] radio on
[1047] in other words..
[1045] If you ever had a...
[1043] I hold sunlight &...
[1042]
[1040]
[1039] going nowhere
[1038]
[1036] The way I am
[1033] bridal shops and zuma...
[1032] my only one
[1031]
[1029] hunger
[1027] POP goes my heart
[1026] tooools
[1025] bodily functions
[1024] Gravity
[1022] photoshop 101
[1020]
[1019] diligently doubtful
[1018] TSS
[1017] not worth mentioning,...
[1014]
[1012]
[1013]
[1011]
[1010] BAH!
[1008] oh, you're alone
[1007] mind boggling
[1003]
[1002]
[1001] "sup"
[1001]the real 1000
[1000] and the winner is!...
[999] spanglish
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[985] and makes me realize
[986] Makes Me Wonder
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[982] the last couple years
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[980] your hands are mine to...
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[977] and all the kings...
[975] commonplace occurances
[974] there aint nothin to...
[972] nothing gold can stay?
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[967] i think not
[966]
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[964] shooting star
[961] double sided tape
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[954]
[953] i hate sleep
[952] Going to the chapel &...
[951]
[950]
[949] I cant think of a...
[948] All about those words..
[947] Geek in the Pink
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[944] Hits her like a ton of...
[943] adhesive bandages...
[942] Ryan Atwood?
[940] sibling rivalry
[939] he's gotta be strong,...
[938] one day i slowly...
[935] walkign and singing...
[932] amanda must die...
[930] In a flash...
[929] Humphry Bogart stole my...
[928] timmy fry fry
[927] i got you babe
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[918] Don't let the..
[917] August I'll see you...
[915] cuz its sexy
[914] january 6th
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[910] This Christmas
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[909] wow i wrote alot of...
[908] Thailand or bust
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[904] coffee break
[901] Best buy blows
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[895] parinoid
[894] Curve balls
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[891] almost alive
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[889] this could be different
[786] cold stones and warm...
[785] globalization is...
[783]
[781] screw it
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[779] From the freeway
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[763] tonight
[762] boring again
[759] boring
[760] top of the mornin to ya
[758] no name face
[757] pretty much...
[752] i cant find my phone...
[750]
[749] dirty pirate hooker
[747] things change...
[744] on wednesdays we wear...
[745] ash hole
[746] i guess..
[740] mondayness
[743] it helps
[742] 21st
[738] fine.
[739] i hate myself
[735] So Little Purpose...
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[732] well..
[731] Bianca Bear
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[729] yeah..
ahh.
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[719] Mothers Day
[718] Jefferton
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[714] one thats all your own
[711] X-games continued
[710] X-games
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[707] Country Time
[706] We'll hide indoors
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[704] Cuz I Cannnnn
[703] my depth perception
[702] Innocence Again
[700] the plan
[698]entry title
[697] In the FACE!
[695] In Roswell
[694] Shirt PUrses
[693] One Word...
[692] Now You Know
[691]
[688] Number Two
[685] just catching up
[684] Sit D is Healed
[683] Gotta make that mottor...
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[679] Entirely Useless
[677] ya know..
[675] Straight Up Now Tell Me
[673] ANother Way
[672] Blame It On Bad Luck
[671] December 9th
[670] All You Wanted
[649] Until this echo can...
[648] Hey
[667] 8:40
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[664] Douse the lights
[665] i tried to be...
[660] All In Your Hands
[659] subside
[658] Caricature of intimacy
[657] & paying in naivity
[656] whats best?
[653] It starts
[652] "How Are You?"
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[647] So contagious
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[646] The Art of Growing Up
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[643] Tomorrow is the new...
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[641] but its better if you do
[640] storage
[639] heart & soul
[637] so far
[636] writers block
[635] titles are overrated
[633] Raindrops on Roses
[632] 5:15 and beyond
[629] lunch backwards is...
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[627] I'm the new cancer
[626] TRY
[625] swing kids
[624] knmsdn
[623]untitled
[622] Hippie Monkey
[621] A quick one
[618] Viva La Difference
[617]
[615] CABOOSE!
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[612]
[610] Just this once
[609] What Good Is It?
[608] Pour it out
[605] 6:25
[604] teddy grams and kelly...
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[602] thingy i do
[600] Blank
[598] PG
[596] Unthinkable
[595] ...on both accounts
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[592] On a day like this
[591] Take my breath away
[589] forever to get here
[588] survey
[587] sos
[585] so this is the new year
[583] back in black
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[580] christmas
[579] Nite before Christmas
[577] Click here
[575] Brown and baige
[574] Indestructable
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[570] Chicken Little
[569] Out and about
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[565] American Reject
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[562] the taste of saint...
[560] Turks!
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[558] Marriage and divorce
[556] Hey tony!
[555] PICTURES?
[552] Beachen'
[551] Whatever
[550] The Travis
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[547] Not gonna happen
[545] Like Fandango
[544] Cute in the rain
[543] Shocker
[541] cereal killer
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[539] TWO stupid to count
[537] bleh
[536] All sortsa time
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[533] unfinished
[532] Keep me in tune
[531] Hoctober 31st
[530] literate and stylish
[529] water fills these open...
[527] too good to be true
[526] ESPN or something
[524] Picture this
[522] Lime Flavored
[521] What gives?
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[517] Worth the pain
[513] 20 questions
[512] Dear Diary
[509] burts bee's
[511] meow, isnt that nice?
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[507] I ate carrots
[506] five O six
[504] That simple
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[502] Throw it back
[499] September ends tonite
[498] Juxtapose myself and me
[496] Walls of Porn
[495] Mommy dearest
[494] NUTS!
[491] Cuz after all..
[490] sendin me straight to...
[489] Shrinking?
[487] a glimpse
[486] YAy for that
[485] weezererererer...
[484] So deep that it didnt...
[483] No heavy thoughts
[481] pink pops and red eyes
[480] pictures cuz i can
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[478] CASTLES IN THE SKY
[477] Turn It Inside Out So I...
[476] Big Brothers
[474] Short and Stout
[473] The M word!
[472] Gaps in History
[471] Oh guess what
[470] my heart is spoken for
[468] the biggest yellow...
[467] Goodwill
[466] Crazy Selfish
[464]
[463] Left Unsaid
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[460] monday
[456] A Good Scream!
[455] When I wanna be
[453] Incoherent response
[452] No Friends
[450] Fall to pieces
[451] Delta pics
[449] For a week at a time
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[447] I can't live
[445] its all in you
[446] Always something
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[442] I'm a notebook?
[441] Ventura theater
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[438] Feel and felt better
[436] ndusfsduifbsdfg
[435] Dont put it out with...
[434] 1 Month
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[431] Boys are like
[430] Nothing
[429] basically
[428] For a week
[426] Like riding a bicycle
[423] i like bruises
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[422] Delta whAAAt?
[419] sean & jeni pictures
[417] "whAAAAAAA?"
[416] coOOOOOokie crisp!
[415] frikken whoa
[414] yawn
[413] TGI Friday
[411] live a colorful life
[412] For you only
[410] Accuse me?
[409] How much longer will...
[408] duckie hearts P-tree
[407] freak out
[406] wanna bake me cupcakes?
[404] i have a sean?
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[400] 400!!!!!
[399] Beachen'
[396] new season
[395] pictures!!!
[394] are we in space? do we...
[393] mmmmHMMM!
[391] water is for quiters
[390] I love lamp
[389] But i just keep tryin
[388] kick me
[382] Look at the MOON
[385] To make plans and...
[381] suck
[383] show time
[382] pictures are fun
[381] to eat or not to eat?
[380] why do u wait on me?
[379] yeah. but what color...
[377] i think i might just..
[374] something unpredictable
[373] If you see a change in...
[371] such sweet sorrow
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[367] the roaring 20's
[364] poo poo
[360] heh.. 360 eh?
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[356] Entry Title
[355] you make me wanna "la...
[352] Who am i?
[343] The spectrum's A to Z
[342] Kiss me I'm romantic!
[341] Oh! Oh yes indeed
[340] We looked like giants
[339] DOH!
[338] TOM WENT TO THE MAYOR!
[337] Shhh don't tell!
[336] The dingo ate my...
[335] Little miss apprehensive
[334] Shoes on the ceiling
[333] lalala da bears
[331] And ended so soon
[329] PANCAKED...
[328] Red lettered day
[327] My life....
[326] Baby eys
[325] Does evil exist?
[323] So sick of being tired...
[321] Noticing Nothing Again
[318] Sat and Sun
[316] You + Me = Us
[315] Not Even A Little Bit
[314] Love and Angels
[313] Bu-bu-bu-bunnies are...
[312] R is for Rawr
[310] Are you ugly?
[309] a new start
[308] I hate them all
[307] not going anywhere
[306] 3 In The AM
[305] I dream of... Justin...
[303] I'm invisible
[302] It's Over
[300]THE
[298] when they doubt
[297] Hmm.
[296] nope, not at all
[295] unfinished
[294] Tehacha' what?
[293] And Yet
[292] not finished
[291] Tom Boy
[290] HASSELHOFF!!!!
[285] NOWWWWWWWW!
[287] ninja what?
[284] sing that song for me
[282] EEK!!
[279] gentry
[280] Dun na na na
[277] The List
[275] For Once
[274] my pet wombat
[273] It Does...
[272] Like a donut?
[271] ouch, my liver
[270] misery or missouri?
[267] Space Up In My Head
[269] If You Can
[265] what i was expecting
[266] nothing
[263] In your head
[262] and nothing but the...
[261]
[260] two-sixty
[259] heart in a blender
[257]
[256] i can't feel my arm
[255] stomp my face to mush
[254] apples can runner fast...
[253] every little thing
[251] and i was like...
[250]
[249]
[248]um yeah?
[247]i got it at ross?
[246]after the glow
[243]sing it out
[244] kiss me on the mouth
[245] what would you name a...
[242]psycho supergoddess
[239] everything she had
[240]2 all you mother truckers
[238]one line at a time
[233] a theory of my own
[232] whistle while you work
[230]GO billy GO!
[228]Hope your doin well
[227] yeah yeah uh huh
[226] BOOGErs!
[222] adam wasn't there
[221] emotionally exhausted
[220] endless rain
[219] SAl farted on my arm
[218] hi and hello
[217] The fireman told me
[216]if peter pan was naked...
[215] forever temporary
[214] I cant count to...
[213] Butcher's Hook!!!!
[212] iron your lips
[211]Have I told you lately?
[209] who knows what entry...
[202] I'M RETAWDED!
[200] Where have all the...
[199]
[197] 2! 4! 6! 8! WHO DO I...
[195]Its been a while
[191] urg
[192] Even if...
[189] Save the Night
[187] NIKOLA!
[184] my bonnie lied, so I...
[183] Denial, revisited
[181] Blink 182??
[180] OoOOOooOOoBArAcUdA!
[179] mexico pictures finally
[177] I saw your butt and...
[175]thursday night
[174] Its the end of the world
[172] BOP!
[171] Monday Maddness
[170] Hecho en MexicO!
[169] the nite before mexico
[168] SO lame
[166] climax coming in my way
[165] the magical sitar
[164] hungry eyes
[162] Onion rings are...
[161] To Grandma's House She...
[160] THE CAR SHOW!!!!
[158] Polka dancing chEEt-O...
[157] monday
[156] picture this...
[155] pretend for you
[154] one for the road
[153] Didn't tell myself
[152] thoughts compressed
[151] dental floss and remote...
[150] puddles of cream cheese
[147] the cow talks!
[145] an entry to skip
[146] A nice balance
[143] ursala 1000
[140] SO lame and very much...
[139] hollywood horror
[138] and would you...
[136] Say Sneeze?
[137]Say what?
[135]Nothings wrong
[134]so fresh and so...
[132] dont read..
[133] and and and... is DNA...
[131]
[130]the word is oi
[129]look a duck
[127]
[128] fade away real slow
[126] Duckpond
[125] Leona said...
[124] Feed the Sheep
[123]P-P-P-PICTURES!
[121]He needs salt
[120] volcon logic
[119]Incandifamous
[117] ear-lee-ness
[114]It starts
[111]cheerio darling,...
[113] EVERYWHERE!
[110]SO HI
[109]what a hippo called...
[108]tish-a-moo's
[107]and I said whoo whoo
[106]jellyfishing...
[105]Once upon a german...
[104]Eat Our Chips
[103]?sselesnes detsiwt?
[101]Dalmations
[102]100!!!!!!!! BOTTLES...
[100]I LIKE EGGS!
[98]dun dun dun
[97]WHOOOO are you? who...
[95]14 DAYS!
[94]Give me a...
[93]Double what?
[92]pb and smuckers jelly
[91]JENI'S GOT A GUN!
[89]TARZAN RAPED MY FOOT!...
[90]Stringy cheese
[88]Sunday
[86]THE MISSING ENTRY!
[87]BE HAPPY!
[85]Bite my face
[84]Nothing more than...
[82]what flavor is the...
[80]Loads of Laughs
[79] looks like butt
[78]I see bad people
[76]Sitting on the letter...
[74]Warm Bricks and...
[73]so move your car
[70]boys-n-berry chapstick
[69]GET A SIT DIARY!
[68]Its whats for dinner
[67]PICTURES
[66]On behalf of an Ox
[65]BATMAN!
[64]The angry entry
[63]Utters
[62]if u noticed me
[61]Green Pants
[60]i eat rubber bands
[59]break your yoyo
[58]this is a boring entry
[57]don't know why
[56]ducking donkeys,...
[54]KIG-NIG-ITS!
[53]butter scotch tomatoes
[50]hand to hand
[51]Saddened
[49]granny smith apple
[47]gahhhhhh
[45]the size of a peach...
[46]drink my pee
[44]GONE
[43]what if I am a...
[42]and that's what I had...
[41]RAZOR BURN?
[39]Blind Mangos
[38]Effective Butter
[37]Funny Soaps
[35]shoelaces and where...
[34]braindead ducks
[33]Hello kitty committee
[32]and the fork jumped...
[31]I woke up
[30]so I burnt down your...
[29]Boring Bisexual
[28]Bohemian Rapshedy
[27]The berries taste...
[26]turkeys
[25]in my hands again
[24]chunky soup and...
[23]the HAPPY entry
[22] GOOD...
[21] I have to peeeeeee
[19] December 6th
[18] Happiness is Just...
[17]Nothing More Than...
[16]i am happy and I know...
[12]Leaving Spatula
[12]No More School
[10]KB Wasn't Home
[9]15 minutes
[8] And A Side of Buffalo...
[7]Just another day
[6] Head. Shoulders....
[5] Boys Hurt Me
[3]that sucked
[2] Um this is just...
[1]1st entry... EXCITING...
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