[1438] You Call It Fate, I Call It Karma

i hate sit d :[

our couches came today :]

they are perfect. i say "they" as if its more than 1.. its a sectional with a chaise. it fits perfectly in the room. that's been happening a lot lately. Timmy actually brought it up a few days ago or a week ago.. that since we've been married... little things, and big, are just sort of falling into place.. he's right.. and its weird. and nice.. everything is perfect. its scary. i mean.. it scares me. how long can perfect really last? and who deserves it? i don't.I'm not perfect and never will be.

I've been thinking about that a lot lately.. and how everything i own.. i ruin, break, or lose. everyone i have cared for or loved left quicker than they came or has let me down in some way. I don't want to ruin this. In some ways I already have and i know it. Sometimes I feel like I do it on purpose... like i don't think i deserve to be happy, so i ruin the good things in my life. sometimes I chase after things I know are dead ends because i already know the outcome.. i can prepare. I can't prepare for what is to come for me and Timmy because I have no idea where we will end up in a year let alone a decade. I'm scared of the unknown. I hold onto who i was. the past. people from the past.. and I've been thinking it was because of the memories and the things and the people at that time.. but i don't think it is anymore. i think i hold onto the past as some narcissistic attempt to find who i used to be. not that i don't like who i am. there was a point for a while where i didn't recognize myself.. and i really didn't like myself.. but i'm happy now and burdens have been lifted and i feel amazing and i hate myself for certain things but overall i love myself again.

I know people think i watch too many movies or too much tv.. but i don't really care. I think there is a lesson to be learned in nearly everything we experience. people gain insight from a conversation with friends, a song, a book, a lecture.. and for some reason i hear/see things about myself in movies. i identify with the characters and for the most part, take something away from it.. maybe its not me who is crazy for doing so, maybe its all the people who are too shallow to pay attention to a lesson being taught that are the weird ones. Anyway, i was watching Everwood with Timmy tonight.. i love that we have that in common. aaaand i realized, i can separate my past from my future. it doesn't have to get tangled together if i don't let it. i can have beautiful memories of people forever gone, and be content with what i have now. I can be content knowing that in some situations I tried my best and gave everything I could have given, did everything i could have done.. tried harder than I should have tried, and for some reason, it wasn't good enough. And I can forgive myself for the times when I didn't try hard enough, and the outcomes and the hardships that resulted. I think its been harder to do so lately because of the enormous amount of rejection I've been dealing with when it comes to the job search.. and dealing with this stuff isn't really a priority. Everyone knows I'm a pack rat. of everything. old letters, pictures, notebooks with diary entries, doodles, magazine clippings, etc.. but its not just in the physical stuff. I pack my mind.. and I never clean it out. Because I feel like if i let go of something I lose it.. but maybe sometimes thats what sets the foundation for greater things. change. I can't keep thinking about other people and the "what ifs". i can only focus on the now and how I have everything I want in spite of all my failures. and be thankful. I can't hold on to something that isn't there. I'm happiest when i am focusing on making Tim happy. I think I am ready to put my past behind me and finally grow up and be a woman and a wife. and love Tim how he deserves to be loved.

anyways enough about things no one will understand anyways.. and on to more.. interesting... topics...

i went to heathers wedding today. it was nice. it was at the sanctuary and the reception was at some place called the sportsman lodge. it was cute and stuff.. i wished timmy could come but he had to work.. but i was with my mom and it wasn't that bad. she's so weird sometimes though. but besides that, i had a fun time. actually.. it was an answer to many many.. many.. prayers. I've just been praying to myself lately that I get some sort of help. some sort of something or sign that i wasn't some sort of freak.. and there are others like me.. having difficulties in certain marriage areas.. and stuff. well, today at the wedding, everyone is dancing and mingling.. and me and my mom go over to the table next to us and sit with the salz. and so i'm talking to talia and she asked me "what is the best and worst thing about being married?" to the first one i told her how close i feel to tim now, just aday after even.. it changes everything. and howmuch more open he is with me.. then amanda came over and we talked to her for a little while.. when she left i leaned over and whispered "to answer ur question...... sex!" and from there started a HUGE conversation fiasco.. lol. apparently i am not the only one having issues. i'm not going to go into detail here because i'm sure she'd hate to find out that i told everyone about her sex life.. but God.. its nice to know I am not the only one who feels.."broken".. i have been crying and hating myself for it since we got married.. but i don't feel so bad right now :] we exchanged numbers and we're going to keep each other posted. I lvoe talia.. she's so open and honest and to the point.. it wasn't awkward at all.. i think we we're both relieved, to say the least, to have someone to relate to. thank god. it came just in time, i felt like giving up :[

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other than that... i love our couches.. so comfy. so awesome. they match perfectly.

OH! and we were experimenting to see if jefri used his litter box.. HE DID! i'm so proud of him. tear. now we can get a doggy door and he can come inside.. he's a smarty pants. but he doesn't wear pants :/

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[1849] Then You Can Start
[1841] The Silence
[1829] Desires
[1827] Changing Directions
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[1819] Banana in the Dark
[1816] What's This?
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[1809] What's the Dinosaur...
[1807] Grandma and Bea
[1806] Dear God this...
[1803] Cheers
[1797] One After the Other
[1796] Doors
[1794] Welpy
[1792] Ruh-roh!
[1790] Forgotten
[1787] C-3PO
[1786] Let Me Be Nice
[1785] ORRR
[1784] Sh!t Talking?
[1783] DO
[1782] Under the Hood
[1781] Duck Duck.. Goose?
[1780] Handbone
[1778] 1 week
[1777] Family?
[1774] GIRLS
[1769] 26 - 28
[1768] Pros and Cons
[1767] Bell Jar
[1766] To Be Out of Here
[1764] The Grove
[1762] Forgot Again
[1761] Recently
[1760] Never Learn
[1759] things
[1758] Oh Hello
[1757] A Feeling
[1756] Stabby Knight Syndrome
[1755] Aubrie
[1754] Getting Things Done
[1752] Ketchup Is Sticky
[1750] .
[1749] So Pissed
[1748] The Worst
[1747] Cake Pops
[1746] Don't forget
[1745] Birthday
[1744] Toxic
[1743] Incomplete
[1742] Exiting Narnia
[1741] Because My Head Hurts
[1740] House
[1739] Now I Have No Nose
[1738] I Miss It
[1737] All The LIttle Things
[1736] Top Shot
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[1733] Sleep Apnea
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[1729] Give It Up
[1728] Too Good To Be
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[1726] Guess What!
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[1723] Intussesception
[1722] Beef Stew
[1722] Lemons
[1721] Nightmare
[1720] Being Nerdy
[1719] Conflicted
[1718] More Time To Write
[1717] Hopefully
[1716] My Moose
[1715] Bruxism
[1714] The Grind
[1713] Ambiguity
[1712] The Worst Ever
[1710] Its a date?
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[1708] Have To
[1707] Overnight Vegan
[1706] No kidding
[1704] Want
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[1702] Goodbye E3
[1701] Day 1
[1700] E3 2011
[1699] Don't Print Bobby Pin
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[1681] That's what she said
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[1634] But I Like Lobsters
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[1627] Cheesus Christ!!
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[1624] So Yeah
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[1622] Punchy?
[1621] For Now...
[1620] It Didn't Suck
[1618] Jefri Has A Girlfriend
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[1616] E3!!
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[1613] Baby you got it
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[1608] To be or not to be...
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[1488] Drink up Beautiful
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[1475] Books & Cold Stones
[1474] ARG!
[1473] Tortures of the damned
[1472] Just enough to love you
[1471] Sometimes..
[1470] Dear Tragedy
[1468] No one understands
[1467] Nice
[1466] We'd stay there forever
[1465] Mayday, Mayday!
[1464] Sundays
[1463] Get Your Fix
[1461] "Husbandy"
[1460] Eat My Brains & I'll...
[1459] Ring, Ring!
[1458] Do do do . Banana.
[1457] 365 Reasons Why...
[1453] Ask and you shall...
[1452] Tim Always Knows
[1451] Almost Here
[1450] New Moon
[1449] On Purpose
[1448] This Place
[1447] Prozac Problems
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[1445] Coming Close
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[1443] Seriously?
[1442] Tick Tock
[1441] Bad Ass
[1440] People Suck
[1439] Its nice
[1438] Sanding Sucks
[1437] Today was good
[1436] A Happy Ending
[1435] Somersaults
[1434] The Panic Begins
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[1432] Pretty n' Pink
[1431] Lame News
[1430] Are you Mocking me?
[1429] Perfect POnies
[1428] And Everything Just...
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[1426] 2 Weeks to Live
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[1424] Pros and Cons
[1423] DJ Hero
[1422] And then 3 became 5
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[1418] 10 Reasons
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[1415] Bologna?
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[1412] Sunset and Santa Monica
[1411] Topanga can Suck it
[1410] Jeni Land
[1409] Bigger People
[1408] What A Noob
[1407] Titles and Numbers
[1406] Sleeping In
[1405] Deflate The Air From...
[1404] Bite Sized Pieces
[1403] Tuesday
[1402] Torrance vs El Segundo
[1401] QA Training Day 1:
[1400] Hi world.
[1399] A Note On Your Bed
[1397] Pink Lemonade
[1395] Its Been A While
[1394] Peanut Butter...
[1393] Snap Back
[1392] Freaking Out
[1391] Activision
[1390] Doctor Appointment
[1389] Cake
[1388] Until My Feet Don't...
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[1385] Jeni the Builder
[1383] 100 lbs!
[1382] Broken or Gross
[1380] But We Will Never Fold
[1378] The Cure
[1377] Too Little Too Late
[1375] Is Everyone Here...
[1374] Now I Wonder
[1371] Iz Businez Time
[1370] Oh Yaz?
[1369] personality in a paste
[1367] At the Beginning
[1366] Typical
[1365] Resolution
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[1363] I am no bird
[1361] Its A Pity...
[1360] Not So Novice...
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[1357] Yahoo..
[1356] People I know
[1355] Christmas 08
[1354] Almost
[1353] Neverending
[1352] Who do they think they...
[1351] COMPLETELY
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[1348] Christmas Shopping
[1347] Silly Goose
[1346] Junk Mail
[1345] Soul Mates
[1344] Oh Really?
[1343] Walk On Water Or Drown
[1341] Run Away, And Never...
[1340] A Picture Worth a...
[1339] And I've Brought Some...
[1338] Plain Yogurt
[1337] BFF's
[1336] Eyes Meeting Over The...
[1334] And Since We've No...
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[1330] Never FInish A Book
[1328] First they're sour ...
[1327] Corners and Cones
[1326] Choli
[1325] Thanksgiving part II
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[1323] Pancakes & Candied Yams
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[1320] Thanks But No Thanks
[1319] New Hair
[1318] Changing All ThE COlors
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[1311] Such Boundless Pleasure
[1310] The Bird Is the Word
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[1305] Buttcritter
[1304] To Be Loved
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[1301] History In the Making
[1298] Best Day Ever
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[1295] Bored.
[1294] Keep talking
[1293] Thrill Planet
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[1289] To Be Haunted
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[1261] my domain
[1260] If you can't beat em,
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[1252] Denial Never Hurt...
[1251] Ahhhh
[1250] Yet Again
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[1461] My Dress
[1460] how now brown cow
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[1439] Eyes Glued To His
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[1437] Banana Pancakes
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[1424] Not Again..
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[1418] Wusband and Hife
[1417] Call It Karma
[1416] Viva Lost Cell Phone
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[1098]
[1095] title and registration
[1094] Are You Ready To...
[1092] I shot you in the face...
[1091]
[1090] whatever what?
[1089] breathing
[1087] finish this later
[1086]
[1084] like a raindrop
[1082 1/2]
[1082]
[1081]survey thingy
[1079] this is a reminder
[1078]
[1076]
[1075]
[1074]
[1072]
[1071] funny face
[1070] p50
[1068]
[1069] and eat it too
[167] renee is gay
[166]skoozy
[1065] Couch
[1063] I dont care
[1060]
[1058] The Rest
[1057] finding neverland
[1054]
[1050] no title.
[1048] radio on
[1047] in other words..
[1045] If you ever had a...
[1043] I hold sunlight &...
[1042]
[1040]
[1039] going nowhere
[1038]
[1036] The way I am
[1033] bridal shops and zuma...
[1032] my only one
[1031]
[1029] hunger
[1027] POP goes my heart
[1026] tooools
[1025] bodily functions
[1024] Gravity
[1022] photoshop 101
[1020]
[1019] diligently doubtful
[1018] TSS
[1017] not worth mentioning,...
[1014]
[1012]
[1013]
[1011]
[1010] BAH!
[1008] oh, you're alone
[1007] mind boggling
[1003]
[1002]
[1001] "sup"
[1001]the real 1000
[1000] and the winner is!...
[999] spanglish
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[985] and makes me realize
[986] Makes Me Wonder
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[982] the last couple years
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[980] your hands are mine to...
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[977] and all the kings...
[975] commonplace occurances
[974] there aint nothin to...
[972] nothing gold can stay?
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[967] i think not
[966]
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[964] shooting star
[961] double sided tape
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[954]
[953] i hate sleep
[952] Going to the chapel &...
[951]
[950]
[949] I cant think of a...
[948] All about those words..
[947] Geek in the Pink
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[944] Hits her like a ton of...
[943] adhesive bandages...
[942] Ryan Atwood?
[940] sibling rivalry
[939] he's gotta be strong,...
[938] one day i slowly...
[935] walkign and singing...
[932] amanda must die...
[930] In a flash...
[929] Humphry Bogart stole my...
[928] timmy fry fry
[927] i got you babe
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[918] Don't let the..
[917] August I'll see you...
[915] cuz its sexy
[914] january 6th
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[910] This Christmas
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[909] wow i wrote alot of...
[908] Thailand or bust
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[904] coffee break
[901] Best buy blows
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[895] parinoid
[894] Curve balls
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[891] almost alive
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[889] this could be different
[786] cold stones and warm...
[785] globalization is...
[783]
[781] screw it
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[779] From the freeway
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[763] tonight
[762] boring again
[759] boring
[760] top of the mornin to ya
[758] no name face
[757] pretty much...
[752] i cant find my phone...
[750]
[749] dirty pirate hooker
[747] things change...
[744] on wednesdays we wear...
[745] ash hole
[746] i guess..
[740] mondayness
[743] it helps
[742] 21st
[738] fine.
[739] i hate myself
[735] So Little Purpose...
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[732] well..
[731] Bianca Bear
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[729] yeah..
ahh.
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[719] Mothers Day
[718] Jefferton
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[714] one thats all your own
[711] X-games continued
[710] X-games
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[707] Country Time
[706] We'll hide indoors
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[704] Cuz I Cannnnn
[703] my depth perception
[702] Innocence Again
[700] the plan
[698]entry title
[697] In the FACE!
[695] In Roswell
[694] Shirt PUrses
[693] One Word...
[692] Now You Know
[691]
[688] Number Two
[685] just catching up
[684] Sit D is Healed
[683] Gotta make that mottor...
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[679] Entirely Useless
[677] ya know..
[675] Straight Up Now Tell Me
[673] ANother Way
[672] Blame It On Bad Luck
[671] December 9th
[670] All You Wanted
[649] Until this echo can...
[648] Hey
[667] 8:40
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[664] Douse the lights
[665] i tried to be...
[660] All In Your Hands
[659] subside
[658] Caricature of intimacy
[657] & paying in naivity
[656] whats best?
[653] It starts
[652] "How Are You?"
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[647] So contagious
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[646] The Art of Growing Up
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[643] Tomorrow is the new...
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[641] but its better if you do
[640] storage
[639] heart & soul
[637] so far
[636] writers block
[635] titles are overrated
[633] Raindrops on Roses
[632] 5:15 and beyond
[629] lunch backwards is...
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[627] I'm the new cancer
[626] TRY
[625] swing kids
[624] knmsdn
[623]untitled
[622] Hippie Monkey
[621] A quick one
[618] Viva La Difference
[617]
[615] CABOOSE!
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[612]
[610] Just this once
[609] What Good Is It?
[608] Pour it out
[605] 6:25
[604] teddy grams and kelly...
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[602] thingy i do
[600] Blank
[598] PG
[596] Unthinkable
[595] ...on both accounts
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[592] On a day like this
[591] Take my breath away
[589] forever to get here
[588] survey
[587] sos
[585] so this is the new year
[583] back in black
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[580] christmas
[579] Nite before Christmas
[577] Click here
[575] Brown and baige
[574] Indestructable
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[570] Chicken Little
[569] Out and about
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[565] American Reject
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[562] the taste of saint...
[560] Turks!
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[558] Marriage and divorce
[556] Hey tony!
[555] PICTURES?
[552] Beachen'
[551] Whatever
[550] The Travis
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[547] Not gonna happen
[545] Like Fandango
[544] Cute in the rain
[543] Shocker
[541] cereal killer
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[539] TWO stupid to count
[537] bleh
[536] All sortsa time
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[533] unfinished
[532] Keep me in tune
[531] Hoctober 31st
[530] literate and stylish
[529] water fills these open...
[527] too good to be true
[526] ESPN or something
[524] Picture this
[522] Lime Flavored
[521] What gives?
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[517] Worth the pain
[513] 20 questions
[512] Dear Diary
[509] burts bee's
[511] meow, isnt that nice?
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[507] I ate carrots
[506] five O six
[504] That simple
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[502] Throw it back
[499] September ends tonite
[498] Juxtapose myself and me
[496] Walls of Porn
[495] Mommy dearest
[494] NUTS!
[491] Cuz after all..
[490] sendin me straight to...
[489] Shrinking?
[487] a glimpse
[486] YAy for that
[485] weezererererer...
[484] So deep that it didnt...
[483] No heavy thoughts
[481] pink pops and red eyes
[480] pictures cuz i can
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[478] CASTLES IN THE SKY
[477] Turn It Inside Out So I...
[476] Big Brothers
[474] Short and Stout
[473] The M word!
[472] Gaps in History
[471] Oh guess what
[470] my heart is spoken for
[468] the biggest yellow...
[467] Goodwill
[466] Crazy Selfish
[464]
[463] Left Unsaid
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[460] monday
[456] A Good Scream!
[455] When I wanna be
[453] Incoherent response
[452] No Friends
[450] Fall to pieces
[451] Delta pics
[449] For a week at a time
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[447] I can't live
[445] its all in you
[446] Always something
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[442] I'm a notebook?
[441] Ventura theater
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[438] Feel and felt better
[436] ndusfsduifbsdfg
[435] Dont put it out with...
[434] 1 Month
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[431] Boys are like
[430] Nothing
[429] basically
[428] For a week
[426] Like riding a bicycle
[423] i like bruises
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[422] Delta whAAAt?
[419] sean & jeni pictures
[417] "whAAAAAAA?"
[416] coOOOOOokie crisp!
[415] frikken whoa
[414] yawn
[413] TGI Friday
[411] live a colorful life
[412] For you only
[410] Accuse me?
[409] How much longer will...
[408] duckie hearts P-tree
[407] freak out
[406] wanna bake me cupcakes?
[404] i have a sean?
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[400] 400!!!!!
[399] Beachen'
[396] new season
[395] pictures!!!
[394] are we in space? do we...
[393] mmmmHMMM!
[391] water is for quiters
[390] I love lamp
[389] But i just keep tryin
[388] kick me
[382] Look at the MOON
[385] To make plans and...
[381] suck
[383] show time
[382] pictures are fun
[381] to eat or not to eat?
[380] why do u wait on me?
[379] yeah. but what color...
[377] i think i might just..
[374] something unpredictable
[373] If you see a change in...
[371] such sweet sorrow
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[367] the roaring 20's
[364] poo poo
[360] heh.. 360 eh?
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[356] Entry Title
[355] you make me wanna "la...
[352] Who am i?
[343] The spectrum's A to Z
[342] Kiss me I'm romantic!
[341] Oh! Oh yes indeed
[340] We looked like giants
[339] DOH!
[338] TOM WENT TO THE MAYOR!
[337] Shhh don't tell!
[336] The dingo ate my...
[335] Little miss apprehensive
[334] Shoes on the ceiling
[333] lalala da bears
[331] And ended so soon
[329] PANCAKED...
[328] Red lettered day
[327] My life....
[326] Baby eys
[325] Does evil exist?
[323] So sick of being tired...
[321] Noticing Nothing Again
[318] Sat and Sun
[316] You + Me = Us
[315] Not Even A Little Bit
[314] Love and Angels
[313] Bu-bu-bu-bunnies are...
[312] R is for Rawr
[310] Are you ugly?
[309] a new start
[308] I hate them all
[307] not going anywhere
[306] 3 In The AM
[305] I dream of... Justin...
[303] I'm invisible
[302] It's Over
[300]THE
[298] when they doubt
[297] Hmm.
[296] nope, not at all
[295] unfinished
[294] Tehacha' what?
[293] And Yet
[292] not finished
[291] Tom Boy
[290] HASSELHOFF!!!!
[285] NOWWWWWWWW!
[287] ninja what?
[284] sing that song for me
[282] EEK!!
[279] gentry
[280] Dun na na na
[277] The List
[275] For Once
[274] my pet wombat
[273] It Does...
[272] Like a donut?
[271] ouch, my liver
[270] misery or missouri?
[267] Space Up In My Head
[269] If You Can
[265] what i was expecting
[266] nothing
[263] In your head
[262] and nothing but the...
[261]
[260] two-sixty
[259] heart in a blender
[257]
[256] i can't feel my arm
[255] stomp my face to mush
[254] apples can runner fast...
[253] every little thing
[251] and i was like...
[250]
[249]
[248]um yeah?
[247]i got it at ross?
[246]after the glow
[243]sing it out
[244] kiss me on the mouth
[245] what would you name a...
[242]psycho supergoddess
[239] everything she had
[240]2 all you mother truckers
[238]one line at a time
[233] a theory of my own
[232] whistle while you work
[230]GO billy GO!
[228]Hope your doin well
[227] yeah yeah uh huh
[226] BOOGErs!
[222] adam wasn't there
[221] emotionally exhausted
[220] endless rain
[219] SAl farted on my arm
[218] hi and hello
[217] The fireman told me
[216]if peter pan was naked...
[215] forever temporary
[214] I cant count to...
[213] Butcher's Hook!!!!
[212] iron your lips
[211]Have I told you lately?
[209] who knows what entry...
[202] I'M RETAWDED!
[200] Where have all the...
[199]
[197] 2! 4! 6! 8! WHO DO I...
[195]Its been a while
[191] urg
[192] Even if...
[189] Save the Night
[187] NIKOLA!
[184] my bonnie lied, so I...
[183] Denial, revisited
[181] Blink 182??
[180] OoOOOooOOoBArAcUdA!
[179] mexico pictures finally
[177] I saw your butt and...
[175]thursday night
[174] Its the end of the world
[172] BOP!
[171] Monday Maddness
[170] Hecho en MexicO!
[169] the nite before mexico
[168] SO lame
[166] climax coming in my way
[165] the magical sitar
[164] hungry eyes
[162] Onion rings are...
[161] To Grandma's House She...
[160] THE CAR SHOW!!!!
[158] Polka dancing chEEt-O...
[157] monday
[156] picture this...
[155] pretend for you
[154] one for the road
[153] Didn't tell myself
[152] thoughts compressed
[151] dental floss and remote...
[150] puddles of cream cheese
[147] the cow talks!
[145] an entry to skip
[146] A nice balance
[143] ursala 1000
[140] SO lame and very much...
[139] hollywood horror
[138] and would you...
[136] Say Sneeze?
[137]Say what?
[135]Nothings wrong
[134]so fresh and so...
[132] dont read..
[133] and and and... is DNA...
[131]
[130]the word is oi
[129]look a duck
[127]
[128] fade away real slow
[126] Duckpond
[125] Leona said...
[124] Feed the Sheep
[123]P-P-P-PICTURES!
[121]He needs salt
[120] volcon logic
[119]Incandifamous
[117] ear-lee-ness
[114]It starts
[111]cheerio darling,...
[113] EVERYWHERE!
[110]SO HI
[109]what a hippo called...
[108]tish-a-moo's
[107]and I said whoo whoo
[106]jellyfishing...
[105]Once upon a german...
[104]Eat Our Chips
[103]?sselesnes detsiwt?
[101]Dalmations
[102]100!!!!!!!! BOTTLES...
[100]I LIKE EGGS!
[98]dun dun dun
[97]WHOOOO are you? who...
[95]14 DAYS!
[94]Give me a...
[93]Double what?
[92]pb and smuckers jelly
[91]JENI'S GOT A GUN!
[89]TARZAN RAPED MY FOOT!...
[90]Stringy cheese
[88]Sunday
[86]THE MISSING ENTRY!
[87]BE HAPPY!
[85]Bite my face
[84]Nothing more than...
[82]what flavor is the...
[80]Loads of Laughs
[79] looks like butt
[78]I see bad people
[76]Sitting on the letter...
[74]Warm Bricks and...
[73]so move your car
[70]boys-n-berry chapstick
[69]GET A SIT DIARY!
[68]Its whats for dinner
[67]PICTURES
[66]On behalf of an Ox
[65]BATMAN!
[64]The angry entry
[63]Utters
[62]if u noticed me
[61]Green Pants
[60]i eat rubber bands
[59]break your yoyo
[58]this is a boring entry
[57]don't know why
[56]ducking donkeys,...
[54]KIG-NIG-ITS!
[53]butter scotch tomatoes
[50]hand to hand
[51]Saddened
[49]granny smith apple
[47]gahhhhhh
[45]the size of a peach...
[46]drink my pee
[44]GONE
[43]what if I am a...
[42]and that's what I had...
[41]RAZOR BURN?
[39]Blind Mangos
[38]Effective Butter
[37]Funny Soaps
[35]shoelaces and where...
[34]braindead ducks
[33]Hello kitty committee
[32]and the fork jumped...
[31]I woke up
[30]so I burnt down your...
[29]Boring Bisexual
[28]Bohemian Rapshedy
[27]The berries taste...
[26]turkeys
[25]in my hands again
[24]chunky soup and...
[23]the HAPPY entry
[22] GOOD...
[21] I have to peeeeeee
[19] December 6th
[18] Happiness is Just...
[17]Nothing More Than...
[16]i am happy and I know...
[12]Leaving Spatula
[12]No More School
[10]KB Wasn't Home
[9]15 minutes
[8] And A Side of Buffalo...
[7]Just another day
[6] Head. Shoulders....
[5] Boys Hurt Me
[3]that sucked
[2] Um this is just...
[1]1st entry... EXCITING...
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