well, this could be rather useful...

"Wasn't there something about happiness somewhere amongst the dirty books and the dusty manuals in the back of your mind. I clearly remember a time when the word happy was in my vocabulary, but since then it's been removed from my mental dictionary. I made sure with the clerk that this one was the latest edition, he must have lied, they always lie to get a sale."

I'm happier than I could have ever known.

Let's hear a toast for loneliness, Sometimes it just makes so much sense. For every night I drink alone, I'm happier than I could have ever known.

I've done my good deed for the month. I saved a kitten. :) I was walking home from baseball practice after school today, and on Olive and Keewatten, I saw a kitty. So, naturally, I went to pet it. I patted it, and then I saw it's face and it was all snot filled and bloody and gross. Anyway, I stood there for five minutes trying to figure out what to do. I went to three doors to see if anyone knew whose it was, and no one did. So I picked it up and started to bring it to the vats up on Townline and King. Long walk. Yeah, so halfway up the big hill, Jordan shows up, and we start to go down there. We named him Dildo, lmao. Yeah, so we get to the vets, and Jordan heads off to his work. The vet says that he's got an upper respitory sickness, and that we should call Animal Control to pick him up, cause they can't legally fix him without me dishing out like a lot of cash (and if you know me, you know I'm broke 24/7), so I walked up to my Mom's work, and from there, one of her workers made a bunch of calls to vet;s offices across Durham cause if we brought him to Animal Control, more then likely they'd put him down. So now on Saturday, someone from a vet's office in Whitby is going to come, puck him up, cure him, and find someone to adpot him. Hurrah! I feel good. :)

There's more I have to say. So much more. But... I've disappeared.

Hmm. I decided it was time for an update. This update won't be as eye-poppingly philsophical as the last one, just you know, an update. Yeah. Single again. Yessir. The countdown to Jamaica is 4 days. Yep. 4 days until two weeks of heat and peace (hopefully). :) Music Change: Pantera - Suicide Note Pt 1 I'm doing awesome in school. I'm proud of myself. 96 in Weight Training, 93 in Programming, 84 in Com Tech and a 67 in Math. Not too shabby. I'm hoping we'll get to go bowling tomorrow. It'll be fun. Hehe, I like my new header pic, lmao. Anyway, that is all. Later. "It's a damn shame, but who's to blame?"

Hmm. I was going to wait a month before I updated, but people have been pressuring me to update, so I suppose I will. PEER PRESSURE! Alrighty, well. I'm bored, talking to Meaghan, arguing with Cassie and internet'ing. Hur-freakin-rah. Kay, soo. What happened over the past few weeks... hmmm. Well, there was lots to think about. My new classes in school are: Com Tech with Scott, Nikki and Linds. Math with Hoeboy, Scott, Meaghan, Nikki and Amanda. Programming with Scott, John and Hoeboy. Weights with DJ, and hopefully Randy, Jordan and John. Lunch is still the best period, lmao. MUSIC CHANGE: Sum 41 - Moron I got my hair cut. Boo. I needed it for mah passport cause I'm going to Jamacia for two weeks over the March Break. Yay, I get to miss a week of school! Go me! MUSIC CHANGE: Sum 41 - Noots We're getting our report cards tomorrow. I'm pretty sure I passed everything. Except maybe English cause it's gay. Die English, DIE!! I'm going to have to make up some excuses in order to explain why I have absenses. Oh well. I'm good at lying. :) MUSIC CHANGE: Taking Back Sunday - You Are So Last Summer I'm running out of things to say. Lalalalalala, dododododododo. Hurray for random tidbits of info that are slightly related to each other jumbled up into one real-time paragraph! I should probably start to update more often. I ain't promising anything though. And I'll post lyrics if I feel like it, lmao. MUSIC CHANGE: Taking Back Sunday - Cute Without the E And now Meaghan's leaving me with only Cassie to argue with. I've forgotten what we've been arguing about, lol. All we've been saying is no and yes, back and forth, over and over again, lmao. Shiz yo! Now she's going away! Noooo! Anti-cool. I have math homework that I should probably do, but I really don't feel like it, so fuck it. I'm bored... and hungry. The Virgin Mary saw Chuck Norris in her grilled cheese sandwich. Well, this paragraph is over. As is this entry. Later.

Late night, brakes lock, hear the tires squeal. Red light, can't stop so I spin the wheel. My world goes black before I feel an angel lift me up. And I open bloodshot eyes into fluorescent white, They flip the siren, hit the lights, close the doors and I am gone. Now I lay here owing my life to a stranger, And I realize that empty words are not enough. I'm left here with the question of just, What have I to show except the promises I never kept? I lie here shaking on this bed, under the weight of my regrets. I hope that I will never let you down. I know that this can be more than just flashing lights and sound. Look around and you'll see that at times it feels like no one really cares. It gets me down but I'm still gonna try to do what's right. I know that there's a difference between sleight of hand, and giving everything you have. There's a line drawn in the sand, I'm working up the will to cross it. And I hope that I will never let you down. I know that this can be more than just flashing lights and sound. Rhetoric can't raise the dead, I'm sick of always talking when there's no change. Rhetoric can't raise the dead, I'm sick of empty words, let's lead and not follow. Late night, brakes lock, hear the tires squeal. Red light, can't stop so I spin the wheel. My world goes black before I feel an angel steal me from the... Greedy jaws of death and chance, and pull me in with steady hands. They've given me a second chance, the artist in the ambulance. I hope that I will never let you down. I know that this can be more than just flashing lights and sound. Can we pick you off the ground, more than flashing lights and sound?

Why not... I confess that in 2005 I... ( ) stayed single the whole year ( ) got your first kiss (x) kissed someone new ( ) made-out for the first time ( ) made-out in/on a car ( ) kissed in the snow ( ) kissed in the rain (x) fell in love (x) fell in love with a fool (x) had your heart broken ( ) broke someone else's heart (x) Had(HAS) a good relationship with someone ( ) questioned your sexual orientation ( ) came out of the closet ( ) gotten pregnant ( ) gotten someone else pregnant ( ) had an abortion ( ) gotten married ( ) had a divorce ( ) had a gay marriage ( ) kissed someone of the same sex ( ) dated someone you'll never forget (x) done something you've regretted ( ) lost your love ( ) lost faith in love ( ) kissed under miseltoe WORK/SCHOOL ( ) got a promotion ( ) got a pay raise ( ) changed jobs ( ) lost your job ( ) quit your job ( ) dated a co-worker ( ) dated your boss ( ) dated your boss' daughter/son ( ) got fired from your job ( ) got straight A's (x) met one teacher you really like (x) met one teacher you really hated (x) found the subject you love ( ) failed a class (x) cut class ( ) skipped school ( ) got into a fight with a classmate (x) did something you were proud of ( ) discovered a new talent ( ) gave the teachers a reason to teach (x) proved yourself an idiot ( ) embaressed yourself in front of the class ( ) fell in love with a teacher ( ) got a lead in the school play (x) made a varsity team ( ) made junior varsity team ( ) were involved in something you'll never forget (x) got sent to the office OTHER ( ) painted a picture ( ) wrote a poem ( ) ran a mile (x) listened to music you couldn't stand (x) double-dipped ( ) skinny-dipped ( ) went to a sleepover ( ) went to camp ( ) threw a surprise party ( ) laughed till you cried ( ) laughed till you peed in your pants (x) flirted shamelessly ( ) visited a foreign country ( ) visted a foreign state ( ) cooked a disasterous meal (x) lost something important to you ( ) got a gift you adore (x) realized something new about urself (x) went on a diet ( ) tried to gain weight ( ) dyed your hair ( ) came close to losing your life (x) someone close to you died... (x) went to a party (x) drank alchohol (x) drank alchohol underage ( ) tried drug(s) ( ) got drunk ( ) got arrested (x) read a great book (x) saw a great movie ( ) saw movie so scary that it made you cry ( ) saw one of your favorite band/artist live ( ) saw someone famous in person ( ) did something you want to tell everyone

MERRY FREAKIN' CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!! EDIT: Listening to: Silverstein - My Heroine Muahaha. Yay Christmas. Woo, I got Pulp Fiction, Reservoir Dogs, Dodgeball, Let It Enfold You, an MP3 player, cash-ola and clothes. Woo, and I got to sleep in till 10, muahaha. Yay.

Pfft, you call this a snowstorm? Jeez. Lousy people, not coming for gaming night. This is not a storm, lmao. 30 centimetres is a sprinkle. A metre! Now that's a storm! I'm bored, and I really have nothing to say. Maybe I'll start another orgy convo on MSN. Maaaaaaybe. Hah, I did, and they all left. Homos.

Working on a few things. I hope it'll be readable by tonight, lmao. Well? I kinda like it. Still needs a bit more work, but I like it.

OMG! Another real update! The sky is falling! Haha. Anyway, today was the Bodyworks trip. It was fun. We spent like 5 minutes at the Bodyworks place, and the rest of the time at the sports place. We saw a wicked imax thing too. Awesome. Music Change: Panic! At The Disco - Lying Is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off Yeah, it was fun. I would have beated Donald at that rowing thing, but I fell off my seat, lmao. And throwing pennies at Brown. Good times. The ride to there and back home was... interesting. The ride home moreso, lol. "If I touch the electric ball thinger, will the hair on my balls stand up?" "What are you doing?" "Turning it up." "It is up!" "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU GUYS TALKING ABOUT?!?!?" "Friends help friends piss out the school bus window." "I'm going to piddle all over the seat." I can't remember anymore, lol. Later.

How bout a real update? My first since like halfway through the summer. Sounds like a totalleh good plan. Uh, English sucked, Guitar sucked, Chemistry was boring, as was Biology. Me and Scott had to do a Chem lab after school, so we did it and them we played Smash Bros. T'was fun. I kicked his ass with Peach and Roy a couple times. Haha, I rock. Haha, Noelle wants to be my bitch. :P Later. "When there ain't enough of me to go around, I'd rather be left alone."

You're cold with disappointment, While I'm drowning in the next room. The last contagious victim of this plague between us. I'm sick with apprehension, I'm crippled from exhaustion, And I dread the moment when you finally come to kill me.

I think that the truth is I'm scared. I think that I'm just scared to live. I think that the truth is I'm scared. I think that the truth is I'm everything that I hate.

"Dear diary, my teen angst bullshit has a body count, I believe it's 6 going on 7 now." From First To Last - Ride The Wings Of Pestilence

Woo, Leafs game tonight! FINALLY! Gunna kick some Sens ass! Boo-ya! I rented NHL 06 yesterday to get more into le hockeh spirit, and I gotta say, it's a solid game. Go rent it. NOW! Yay, Bleed The Dream is a great band. Ok, gotta get prepared for the game. Later. What makes you think that I would just let you walk away?