It's me once again! Its kinda funny I only write here like once a year. But I must say I do miss this website. This is the site where the love of my life and I got to really know each other. Can't believe that was 5 years ago already! Wow. Last time I wrote, Dustin and I were about to move into our apartment. Well we are moved in and been living here for almost a year now. We have had out ups and downs but we are doing awesome. Dustin is starting school in the fall and I just finished taking a CNA course and Passed. Now I just got to find a job. Kinda hard to get a job when No one is hiring. But I can't give up! September 2nd will be our 5 year Anniversary together and this year we are celebrating it by going to Valley Fair for a day and going to a Mitsubishi Cookout! I'm so excited. I'll try to write more. ~Cassandra Love you Dustin xoxoxo (7/20/2009)

Yup...I am 18 years old and I have been with the love of my life for the past 4 years! Next Monday we are FINALLY getting an apartment together and I can't wait...Wish this week would move by a little faster! September 2nd, 2008 was our 4 year anniversary and I hope we have 100 more :) I love ya baby ~Cassandra

A little about Cassandra...I can't believe I'm 18 and a Senior. I have 19 days of school left and I can't wait. I am no longer living with my dad because we got into a fight and it didn't end well. Now I'm living with my grandma. I love my grandma so much. I know she don't mind me living with her because she gets lonely their since Grandpa has pasted away and all. I miss my grandpa so much! I had the worst Chirstmas of my life when he had a heart attack on Christmas Eve and died on December 29, 2007! Can't believe he has been gone now for 4 months. He was the best Grandpa EVER!!! It has almost been one year since I have been on the diaries. When I was 14 years old, my life was all about being on the diaries and talking with my friends. I basically meet and got to know my boyfriend through this web sit. Well if anyone followed up with me and all my diary entrys, I am still with Dustin and we have been together now for 3 years and 8 months. Thats just crazy. We have been through anything and everything together! I remember writing about Dustin and I fighting all the time. Dustin and I never fight anymore. It's awesome. When the fighting was going on, we were 15 and 16 years old, now we are 18 and 19 years old. I guess we both just grew up a little. But our relationship is awesome. I love him so much. Dustin is always there for me and I'm always there for him! I Love You Dustin! ~Cassandra PS: I will try to write more then once a year!

Well the love of my life Dustin and I went camping last weekend and it was the best fun ever! Mostly cause it was just Dustin and I in the tent...if you know what I mean! It really gave a feel of what it would be like to live together, which I loved! School is over, Dustin graduated and now I have to go through my senior year without him! Never gone through a day of high school without him. But I am going to try so hard to make my senior the best which is going to be hard without Dustin by my side! My Friend Brittany had her baby yesterday and I was there with her. You would not believe how much hair that baby has! She was 7 lbs 2 oz and 19 inch long! Born 2:55pm, 11 hours of Labor! Proud of you Brittany! Thats it for now! ~Cassandra

Wow, I have not beeen on the diarys in like forever and it really must be going down hill. When ever I need help, i would go to the help diary and guess what, i never got help. If anyone is wondering, me and Dustin are still together, over 29 months now, wow. I met alot of people on the diarys and none of them are even on it anymore. This really sucks. Well this might be my late entry, but I know I will be back the see all the comments I get.....NOT! I love you Dustin ~Cassandra

So...I have been with Dustin now for 2 years. Today was fun. I had to work 6am-1pm and my hunny Dusty suprised me at work...what a sweet heart. Dustin took Stephanie (sister) and my cousin Kali and I to Wally World so we could shop for Grandparents day today. OH YEAH...HAPPY GRANDPARENTS DAY YOU ALL YOU GRANDPARENTS!!!!!!!! After all the stuff... I took Dustin out to eat for our two year Anniversary. I'm just so nice...oh oh oh I also bought him a Zipppo and a car model. I have to go now and do homework for school tomorrow. BLAH I Love you Dustin!!! xoxoxo ~Cassandra

ok so...I hope my family don't see this.lol. I went and got my man and me hand cuffs and a blindfold as well. So today I cuffed if to the bed and OMG it was fun. Now I don't want you to think I am so into sexy but I enjoy doing it. I have only been doing with Dustin so its not like I sleep with a lot of men...don't think that. I am so funny. I Love you Dustin and if you see this, just laugh. lol ~Cassandra

August 14, 2004 was the first time I met Dustin in person...two years ago today. I can't believe I have known him that long. A little info in what going on in my life... I am leaving and going to Chicago in two day. I will be gone for 5 days and two of those days I will be at six flags. Then I'm going to go see "Season 5 American Idol" Which that will be really cool. My Cousin Sarrah is going to have a baby boy October 8th. So her baby shower is on the 26. I have got her a lot of things. I know I have wrote about my other cousin Amanda and OMG she and her friend Sam Pissed me of so bad. To make a LONG story short...Amanda is SO STUPID and Sam is SO DIFFERENT when she is with Amanda...its on real. I have been Hanging out with Cheyenne the last 3 days. Its been fun. And her baby Laci is so CUTE. lol Well thats about it. I can't Believe on September 2nd will be Dustin and my Two Year Anniversary. I lOvE yOu DuStIn! XoXoXo ~CaSsAnDrA

I have had the blue and purple look on my diary for over a year! Its time for a new look. Tell me what you think! I Love you Dustin! xoxoxo ~Cassandra

How has my summer been going to ask? Well If you wanted to know I'm still with Dustin and we are doing great. I got my drivers licences May 17th and I'm love to drive around with Dustin and my friends. I got my first REAL job at Sauer Nursing Home! I make right now $9.15 and hour, and on May 22 it will go up to $9.66! Its awesome! Well I'm sure Nobody I know reads this diary anymore so I think its safe to say...I can't stand my cousin! She is making me so mad. Its funny we are so nice when we are togeher, we act like we are bestfriends but then when we are apart then we say things behind each others back. Oh well. I have been looking for a friend that I could tell anything to. I have not really found a friend sence Cody moved a year ago. Well I have been hanging out with Amanda's(cousin) bestfriend Sam now for a month or longer and she is really cool. I could really see us being good friends for a long time. But theres one problem...Amanda, she hates that Sam and I hang out! Then Sam and Her fight all the time. And plus she has a boyfriend thats with her for some fuckin pussy. And I bet she would do it too! I mean she already smoke pot and gets high! God she is so fuckin stupid! Well to make a short story Amanda is moving on July 15! I'm going to be sad yeah. But she can start over. And I'm hoping he leave her. So then she can really start over! I'm not trying to talk bad at her but I'm scared for her. I mean look at the path she is taking. I can't believe her! Well I'm going to go. I've talk enough! I Love You Sam! I Love You Dustin! xoxoxo ~Cassandra

The fuckin diarys are really starting to piss me off! Someone fix it!

Dustin, I'm so sorry for everything I ever said in my last entry. I know I hurt you with what I said. I really hope I can see you tomorrow. You are the best thing that ever happen to me and sometimes I get really scaried that someday you won't be by myside. Don't leave me baby! I Love you so much hunny! xoxoxo ~Cassandra

So last night me and Dustin got into a fight which is nothing new but it was goin on forever and this is the 3rd time we fought about it. Well anyway. Dustin wants to do weed and if you know me. I really hate drugs and everything. So lastnight I asked him to choses.....drugs.....or me. You know what he said...DRUGS. I brusted into tears. I couldn't believe it. I felt my heart break. What has happen to Dustin? So his reasion was that he wants freedom. Well I'm sorry. God this is so hard for me to write. I just keep crying even though it happen last ngiht. I feel our relationship going out the window. I called him just a little bit ago and god it was hard for me to talk to him. I don't think he has any idea how much he hurt me. I can't stop crying. My heart in broken and I should have NEVER asked him the Question about me or drugs. He says he meant drugs as freedom. Well then he should have said freedom instead of drugs. To me, Dustin has change a lot. He says he loves me a lot...(God I hate this. I can't even write about it without crying)which is hard for me to believe after last ngiht and what he said. When we were getting off the phone last night, you have NO idea how hard it was for me to say "I Love you too" back to him. You know what I found funny? He never said he was sorry. So as I see it, hes not sorry for saying drugs over me. Do I really want to be with a guy like that? God I must be really stupid or something for my own boyfriend to choses drugs over me, What is so wrong with me not wanting him to do it? God help me! I do love you Dustin! But you hurt me in a way you have never hurt me before! ~Cassandra

I can't take this anymore! Me and Dustin. We fight all the fuckin time. I'm so sick of it. Today we went to go look at my old house and then Dustin nuged me NOT PUSH..nuged! And I will say that I did say "ouch you push me and now I have a sliver" then i cryed because it was not just any old siver it was a BIG ASS one and it hurts like a bitch. I have slivers before and they never hurt and i would just leave it because yeah there no big deal. But this hurt like nothing i have ever felt before. It makes be just want to...idk. Si then Dustin gets pissed at me because I said he Push me instead if nuged and I made a big deal out of it...well you know what, the fucker hurt. Then he is pissed off at me. SO we get back to my house and i tried to get it out then....i can't get it. In the mean while he is out in the living rooom doing what? I really dont know. Then he finally come back (i'm thinking he is going to say sorry but I was wrong) and asked if i would go down to the pop machine with him. I should have said No but i said yes because i thought we would talking about it. Boy was i wrong! WE didn't say a word the whole way. Get back to the house, i go in my room and i cryed to fuckin hard. And I thought about breaking up. He Finally come back there.....then with in 3 minutes his mom came. Great way to fix things DUstin. What until the last minute and that happen almost 2 hours ago, we are still pissed at each other and he still has not said he is sorry. What im done crying over him! ---------------------------------- *update* LMAO looking back on that it just makes me laugh. We are so funny. Little shit like that. I can't stop laughing well just for the recorded IT REALLY DID HURT. lmao i can't take it anymore. hahaha. lol

Wow it has been so long since I wrote in here and it mostly because of my mom. She don't want me on here anymore! But today there is no school and I am Babysitting where there is a computer so here I am. If you were wondering, now you know. And for all of you out there who care...and thanks for caring...Me and Dustin are still together. Thank-God! I Love You Dustin! xoxoxo ~Cassandra

This morning when I woke up I was so happy beacuse I was going to get to go to Dustin's house. I got up at 7:00 and then at 8:00am I went down to my grandma for breakfast. After all that I went to church, then went to Dustin's house. I had fun, we did fight but thats the past. Had a lot of fun if you know what I mean...lol. At about 7:15pm my mom came and picked me up to go to figure skating not knowing what I was going to found out. I got to skating and I went into the locker room and all the girls were talking about how this girl died in a car accident and got throwed from the car today on her way to work and how it was this girls brothers friend and they were going on and on how it was so sad...finally I asked "Who was it?" then they all told me it was Brianna Vitek. My mouth droped and my eyes got big. Everyone look at me and asked if I knew who she was. In shock I finally said "yeah, she was one of Dustin's friends" With one skate on I ran to the lobby to call Dustin and tell him the news that shocked me. Dustin knew her before Kindergarden. I had two classes with her. She was very very nice to everyone. No matter who it was, very nice to everyone. So now this is my question... Why does God have things happen like this. Brianna was very nice and the world is not full of many people like that. So why her. Thats one question that will never be answered, which really sucks. I can't get it off my mind, its all I have been thinking about. I have never had someone I knew die that this age before. She was a Junior in high school. I can't think how her parents feel. I feel so bad. I keep running it through my mind how it happened or how her friends and family feel. I Love You Dustin! ~Cassandra

Merry Christmas to everyone. I get to open my presents today and I'm so happy. I Love Christmas. From Dustin I got a dimonds heart shaped neckels and matching earrings. The dimonds are pink, and last I got "Dawsons Creek" I love that show. Well thank you baby so much. I wish you all a Merry Chrismas and a Happy New Year! I Love you Dustin!!! xoxoxo ~Cassandra

I have not wrote about my life in a long time. I wrote on Thanksgiving but all I said was "Happy Thanksgiving" So this is what happen in that past few weeks. First, my great grandfather past away November 29th which was really sad for my whole family and my mom cryed for days and days and last sunday was the funral! Also that sunday I went to figure skating and I learned a new jump and I was awesome at it. I was proud of myself. Go Me! Then the following Tuesday we went to go and get a dog and it was so cool. We got a blue heeler black lab mix and he is so cute and we named him Jack. 8 weeks old. Born on Oct. 13th. I Love him so much! My cousin Sierra from Texas is coming to town to stay with me on December 26th then she will going back home on Jan. 1st. She has not been to my house in like 3 or 4 years. Can't wait to see her! Me and Dustin are doing great. Thank you for writing in your diary baby and NO im not pissy. I Love you so much!!! I Love You Dustin! xoxoxo ~Cassandra

Happy Thanksgiving! Everyone have a wonderful day. We are about to eat the big turkey my mom got. Love ya all! And make sure you have a Happy Turkey Day! I Love You Dustin! ~Cassandra

I finally got my permit and I have been driving a lot. Its so cool. I got 6 months to get 30 hours of driving in and this weekend I have already got 3 hours, almost 4. I bet it will be four but the end of the day. Go me. I Love you Dustin! ~Cassandra