I was re-reading old entries...and I came across this one...I think its from September....And I thought it was interesting to see how far I've come....just read.
All I want from a guy is someone to lean on, and for them to know that it's ok to lean on me to. I want someone to hold me when I'm cold, scared, sad, happy, tired. Someone who would hold my hands in the winter because I forgot my gloves. Someone who would bother to listen to what comes out of my mouth, and maybe see through to what I'm really trying to get at. Someone to be my Miracle Drug. Someone who can tell when I'm crying...Even if we're talking on MSN. Someone who cares and loves me for what I am, and not what I think I should be. Who doesn't care if I'm a little late because I was trying to do my hair, or if I didn't do my homework because I really wasn't in the mood. Someone who tells his friends I'm his Girlfriend and says it proudly. Someone who can actually make me believe I'm beautiful, when I'm standing there in sweat pants and a hoodie, with red eyes and a red face because I just spent the last hour crying about something, that probably isn't worth it in the long run. Of course, someone who can deal with my inherent craziness, and who might be a little crazy themselves. I want someone to snuggle with at night, and they WON'T try anything. Someone who would lay with me under the stars in the middle of summer at 2 in the morning, talking and laughing, and not worrying about whether we'd make curfew because it doesn't matter if we get in trouble because this was defiently worth it.
Mostly I want someone to love me.
I could skip all that up there and say I just want someone to love me
And, thinking about that now...
I have all that. I have it. And I'm just amazed because...I never expected it. I just...prayed. It sounds stupid and really selfish but yes, I prayed for a boyfriend. I was praying hard for ever since I can remember...
And now I have one.
And he has no idea how grateful I am.