Listening to: Paradise - Vanessa Carlton
It's back again.
Fuck everything. Fuck her, fuck me, fuck the world, I want out.
Barbwire Stapled In My Bleeding Mouth
Locked In A Cage
Naked Animals Beat Me
A Liberator Knocks
An Untamed Inserts New Batteries
And Charges Once Again (X4)
We Set Off
Into The Unknown
Until We Destroy Everything And Are Dominant
Once Again (X3)
Once Again In The Back Where We Ride
The Barbwire Returns
In My Mouth, Ripping Up An Old Healed Wound
My Soul Has Grown Rusty
The Electricity Is Gone
I want to cut
And slice myself to death,
But daren't risk it.
Instead I turn myself off,
It's all coming back again, and I can't do it anymore. I don't want to do it anymore. I will not put myself through this shit again, and I just need out.
How does she do this? One stupid remark, and she's destroyed my self esteem, into tiny little pieces, and I hate myself.