Listening to: Summer Love - Justin Timberlake
FINALLY IT'S BACK
SWEET JESUS CHRIST THANK YOU
I didn't realize how much I depended on SitD until it imploded. Again. And I was so desperate to write an entry because I really needed to get stuff off my chest, and when I couldn't, then all my other writing attempts just IMPLODED and I couldn't write anything worth a damn, but now it's back, it's BACK and I'm okay.
Anyways, in my other entry, I was going to complain about him acting jealous when I brought up my other ex-boyfriend who had said he would drive me around to job things (even though I wouldn't drive with him; two reasons being I know he still likes me, which is ANNOYING BECAUSE I BROKE UP WITH YOU YOU AOHFISOHFIDSUHFISDUHFSIDUHFDSHFSDFDSFS NO SPINE NO SPINE RAWR, and because he'd get me killed because he goes about, oh, I don't know, like ONE HUNDRED FUCKING MILES A HOUR! IN THE CITY! GRAWR)
And some people told me I had self-esteem issues. Which I obviously do not. And I did improve. Well, maybe I do, because I'm still afraid to scroll down and see if I got voted out. But I think I did. But that's okay. I think I was starting to not care anyways. And I had other stuff to do, I DO have a life, so whatever, I wish timing wouldn't always count. Except when I can do it really fast. Then it should count.
Baha, I'm so selfish.
Anyways, now I can't remember half of what I wanted to write. Except I need to remember to copy and paste these things before I post them.
OH, and I finally gained the courage to scroll down, and I was right, I was elimanated, BUT everybody thought I was cool anyways, so it's okay =D At least, the judges said I was really a geuniune person, if not a bit eccentric. Which is perfect, because hey, I am!
And I am selfish, although I'm already debating myself on that conclusion I came to about myself. Because I don't know, is the fact that I am aware of being selfish a marker that maybe I'm not as selfish as I think I am? I mean, I do try and do stuff for other people. Maybe I am a better person that I would like to give myself credit for.
And I have way too many posts to catch up on, which kinda sucks, because I don't feel like writing any of them. And I have stupid people trying to hook up with my characters, and I have Lennon and I have a thread that is only 6 posts in, but ridiculously cheesy.
And all I really want is TNG.
All I really, really, really want. But I can't get a yes or no out of Dimitri, which sucks, because that leaves pretty much ALL of my characters in limbo, because I can't decide what to do with them if all his characters have suddenly left or if they haven't. Jesus, it's just a yes or no question, and I know he loved TNG like I did, probably even more, because he created it. So what's the huge problem here? Just for summer even, I'll take it back just for summer, but I need it, or something like it, and I'm dying here.
Not literally, don't get up in arms about it.