[728] j'adore
Listening to: nothing
Feeling: productive

It has been exactly a month since I have updated last.

I'm going to france. I will be in Paris. I will see Nice, I will be at Cannes, I'm going to the Monte Carlo Casino and the Grande Prix and I will be doing it all by myself.

I am so excited I can hardly breathe.

I'm also going to see U2. And maybe Coldplay. And maybe Bruce Springsteen.

I am having an especially productive day, and I wonder if this is what everybody else feels all the time.

I don't think you can see my cheekbones anymore. I desperately want to lose weight. I hate having a round face. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it.

I want to write but the words don't come.

I see myself three years ago in her, and I don't want to tell her how the story ends. Maybe it'll be different, maybe there will be a happy ending, but I'm a cynic at best.

I feel so much older than my 18 years.

~Katie

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Entry List
[972] gotta get better
[971] woke the fuck up
[97o.5] post script
[97o] i would give it all
[969] riptide
[968] lost
[967] ghost town
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[964] i belive in a thing...
[963]
[962]
[961] i'll be over here
[96o] this is what it feels...
[959] every gambler knows
[958] do it all again
[957] i want your ugly
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[955] i walk to the sound of...
[954]
[953]
[952]
[951]
[95o] all i wanted was you
[948]
[947] i need you so much...
[946] if you can't hold on
[945] is this my life?
[944] brace yourself
[943] elastic heart
[942] heaven couldn't wait
[941] what now
[94o] get lucky
[939] pigeon feathers
[938] and i will hold on
[973] youth without youth
[972] drinking cheap wine on...
[971]
[97o] bravado
[968] it takes an ocean not...
[967] one great city!
[966] and here we go again
[965] toxic
[964] but i keep coming up...
[963] float on
[962] breathe me
[961] no angels
[96o] jolene
[959]
[957] please don't take him
[956]
[955] rumor has it
[954] a cripple walks amongst...
[953] this time we know
[952] all along it was a fever
[951] you shouldn't have to...
[95o] again, again
[949] i think you already...
[948] gravity
[947] on the wreck of '86
[946] YES
[945] accidentally in love
[944] the grand optimist
[943] ever after
[942] caught in the slightest...
[94o] well i've been cheated
[939] you were the first one
[938]
[937] i stay in time and...
[936] you're not ill, and i'm...
[935] bury me in satin
[934] stop calling
[933] the wolves
[932] the end
[931] where'd you go?
[93o] i will follow you into...
[929] every step i take
[928] pure imagination
[927] sunday morning
[925] dig it
[923] hands on me
[922] once upon a time
[921] darkness is a harsh term
[929] first cut is the deepest
[927] take this sinking ship
[926] you've got a nerve
[925] don't wake me up
[923] it's always the same
[922] do you want to
[921] auld lange syne
[92o] in case you failed to...
[919] we used to wait
[918] get fighted
[917] it's about time
[916] hello hello baby
[915] why don't you love me?
[914] roll away your stone
[913] stop telephonin' me
[912] on a bed of nails she...
[911] hello, hello
[91o]
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[9o8] l is for the way you...
[9o7] dream within a dream
[9o6] this ain't a scene
[9o5] in this city of...
[9o4] inside me, a lunatic...
[9o3] i can't live
[9o2] if you think that a...
[9o1] we were the kings and...
[9oo] there, i just said it
[899]
[897] how long must you pay...
[896] I got it from my momma
[895] i'll be back for good...
[894] Making Good
[893] it's nobodys battle but...
[892] According to you
[891] and loving a music man...
[89o] I'm a free bitch, baby
[889] 500 miles
[888] paris holds the key to...
[887] this is not what i...
[884] mobile
[882] this could be anywhere
[88o] she's a mess
[879] lions!
[878] a river in a time of...
[877] moonlight sonata
[876] lord listen lover
[875] if we ever meet again
[874] beatles or the rolling...
[873] seven day fool
[872] me against the music
[871] open your eyes
[87o] paranoid android
[869] need you now
[868] the other side of the...
[866] WE STAND ON GUARD FOR...
[865] from far and wide, o...
[864] with truth north strong...
[863] we see thee rise
[862] with glowing hearts
[861] in all our sons command
[86o] true patriot love
[859] our home and native land
[858] oh canada
[857] i'll get him hot
[856] our home and native land
[855] old crows
[854] don't call my name
[853] forever & always
[852] i lied
[851] you are all that i have
[85o] go out and smash it
[849] i know you tried to...
[848] won't you make me stay?
[847]
[846] i get wherever i'm going
[845] where there's a will
[844] that girl possessed
[843] to a friend
[842] rebellion
[841] Meet me halfway
[84o] All I wanted
[839] merry christmas, baby
[838] misguided ghosts
[837] the only exception
[836] even if you cannot hear...
[835] closing time
[834] diamonds best friend
[833] windows
[832] run where you'll be safe
[831] freakum dress
[83o] when you give me...
[829] happy birthday
[828] show me your teeth
[827] medicine man
[826] patron tequila
[825] speechless
[824] could we fix you if you...
[823] rah rah rah-ah-ah
[822] hate on me
[820] tik tok
[819]
[818]
[817] masterpiece theater
[816] the world is a vampire
[815] politk
[813] i never meant to cause...
[810] i took a chance
[8o9] jump then fall
[8o8] isolation
[8o7]
[8o2]
[8o1] you either wanna be...
[8oo] are you hopeless?
[799] i'm gonna let you down
[798] that shit makes me...
[797] i'm permanently black...
[796] cell block tango
[795]
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[793] the one thing that i...
[792] in gods hands
[791]
[79o] why did you change...
[789] you've got a friend in...
[788] thunderstruck
[787] video killed the radio...
[786] dancing in the dark
[785] one love
[783] stand by me
[782] hold it, i'm about to...
[781] Good girls go bad
[78o] don't trust me
[779] things were good when...
[778] we are not the kids we...
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[776] i ain't fuckin' scared...
[775] it's a death trap
[744] i'm king of the world
[743] billy jean is not my...
[742] i'd be good to you
[741] you gave me a life i...
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[739] la vie en rose
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[737] tramps like us, baby we...
[736] this town rips the...
[735] Rosalita, jump a little...
[734] that's what you get for...
[733] thought this wouldn't...
[732] you said look at me, i...
[731] 31 days.
[73o] i feel your ghost when...
[729] they're not talking to...
[728] j'adore
[727] Hardwire
[726] the war won't stop
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[724] You are
[723] Why?
[722] Blinded by the light
[721] Yeah, I saw sparks
[72o]
[719] you put on quite a show
[718] sharks & danger
[716] The Fame
[715] bleed it out
[714] Adrenaline running...
[713] You've got a lot of...
[712] It's not easy to erase...
[711] Postcards from far away
[71o] Upgrade You
[7o9] happy birthday to me
[7o8] shut the fuck up
[7o7] Glass of Water
[7o6] Don't you know that's...
[7o5] Give me the music
[7o4] You self destructive...
[7o3] NaNoWriMo
[7o2] I've run out of...
[7o1] Maybe you're too old to...
[7oo] But I don't believe...
[699] So many times betrayed
[697] We will not let time...
[696] Thanks for acting like...
[695] You've got to be...
[694] I feel like a monster
[693] Paris, j'taime!
[691] La ferrasie
[69o]
[689] Kiss him goodbye
[688] In a haze, a stormy haze
[687] Doing what we do,...
[686] Vertigo
[685] Memories like embers...
[684] Can anybody out there...
[683] Hate brought to it's...
[682] Watch her as she flew
[681] Back to Vegas Skies
[68o] Jesus, when it rains,...
[679] So now that your whole...
[678] Is that all there is?
[677] All in all, you're just...
[676] Steal my Sunshine
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[675] I am still dreaming
[674] You belong with me, not...
[673] Poor little tin man
[672] The day I found it...
[671] Twisted logic
[67o] The truth is, I miss you
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[638] Strange
[637] Is it bright where you...
[636] I'm typing this from my...
[636] All that you break
[635] Gimme More
[633] Anything at all
[632] My Apologies
[63o] When I Grow Up
[631] This is how it ends
[629] You just might get it
[628] Be careful what you...
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[626] Every morning
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[625] Disturbia
[623] Fuck this.
[619] She said, next time...
[622] Glow
[618] Some kind of fairytale
[617] Paradise Burning
[616] The Main Universe
[615] Nothing Special
[613] Play with Fire
[614] Deja Vu
[611] It's getting hot in here
[61o] Ain't No Other Man
[6o9] Please
[6o8] Faraway, so close...
[6o7] No one lives forever
[6o6] Everything changes
[6o4] Could be blue
[6o5] Your little spies
[6o3] I think I might know
[6o2] And it was all Yellow
[6o1] Viva La Vida
[6oo] I want to be your...
[599] Hold your mistake up
[598] Thanks for making me a...
[597] We're all wasted
[596] Teenage Wasteland
[595] Breakin' Dishes
[594] Fly away
[593] Hakuna Matata
[592] This burden's not a...
[591] In New York, I lost it...
[59o] Sick of toy soldiers
[589] The road to hell is...
[588] My family tree is...
[587] Dancing in the moonlight
[586] And I could write a...
[585] Calabria
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[583] I's the B'y
[582] Good weather for...
[58o] All's quiet on the...
[579] blank
[577] Pedal to the metal
[578] So caught up
[573] TNG with a side of...
[572] It doesn't matter how...
[571] Oh penguin, do you care...
[57o] What goes around
[569] And you give yourself...
[568] Hold me
[567] Untitled
[566] I'm not paralyzed
[565] Between who you are,...
[564] White shadows
[563] You were my shelter and...
[562] I'll be home for...
[561] So this is continuous...
[56o] Miami
[559] All that you break
[558] Welcome to the 60's
[557] Jingle bell rock
[556] It's too late to...
[555] My body is a cage
[554] So many times betrayed
[553] Come Together
[552] Don't Let Me Down
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[551] In the Backseat
[55o] I've just seen a face
[549] Why does it hurt when I...
[547] Thunder Road
[548] Did I waste it?
[546] I'm comin' home
[545] Don't stay up and wait...
[544] Hey batter, batter,...
[543]
[542] S
[540] C
[541] E
[539] R
[538] E
[537] T
[536] I
[535] S
[534] L
[533] E
[532] T
[531] T
[53o] I
[529] N
[528] G
[527] G
[526] O
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[522] e
[523] b
[521] L
[52o] I
[519] E
[518] v
[517 e
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[515] E
[514] V
[513] E
[512] R
[511] Y
[51o] T
[5o9] H
[5o8] I
[5o7] N
[5o6] G
[5o4] Y
[5o3] O
[5o2] U
[5o1] K
[5oo] N
[459] O
[458] W
[456] S
[457] I
[454] R
[455] W
[45o] AHHHHHHH
[452] N
[453] O
[451] G
[449] You were everything...
[448] Nothing hurts, and...
[447] Will you still call me...
[446] Ny Batteri
[444] It's all I can do
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[443] Rawr.
[442]
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[44o] Come back to me when...
[439] Think we can last...
[438] On a bed of nails, she...
~436~ Knocking on Heavens door
~435~ This doesn't hurt.
~434~ Let's get these teen...
~433~
~431~ I miss you so bad.
~432~ I think I wanna know...
~430~ The day that you...
~429~ Point form
~428~ You don't know how...
~427~ The Hardest part
~426~ If you've gots the...
~425~ Perfect situation
~424~ I was blind, I could...
~423~ Building a mystery
~422~ Black betty
~422~
~421~ Let there be love
~419~ Let's Go Oilers
~420~ All your dreams are made
~418~ Yeah, this whole world...
~417~ Open up your heart now,...
~416~ I'm just shot, then we...
~415~ We're falling apart to...
~414~ I'm pretty when I lie
~412~ I tried to be perfect,...
~411~ Superhero
~412~ That every time I turn...
~410~ You were always crazy...
~409~ Can't explain all the...
~408~ Will I never learn?
~407~ Ain't Love the sweetest...
~406~ Just for the record,...
~405~ I drove the other ones...
~404~ And I won' tell no one...
~403~ We went back to Naboo
~402~ But I'm afraid that I,...
~401~ It's getting hot in here
~400~ That's the Way it...
~399~ You heard me in my...
~398~ When you thought that...
~397~ Shake that thing, miss...
~396~ Am I retarded or am I...
~395~ Boy you've got me...
~394~ Nothing hurts and...
~393~ It's something...
~391~ Next is a trip to the...
~392~ It's about time that I...
~39o~ Cause we're all about...
~388~ I am terrified of all...
~387~ There was a terrible...
~385~ Everytime you close...
~386~ December songs no...
~384~ It's a lip!
~383~ Adia, I do believe I...
~382~ FUCKING! AMISH!
~381~ Spinning in the...
~38o~ I got CCTV,...
~379~ CHUCK NORRIS!
~378~ Buy me things and I'll...
~377~ Lit up like a cigar
~376~ You gave me nothing and...
~375~ Digimons are the...
~374~ Welcome to the fallout
~374~ Digimon, digital...
~374~ Somebody get me out of...
~372~ But I'm afraid that I,...
~371~ Dislocation
~369~ What a shame the poor...
~368~ I don't know what's...
~365~ I wait for the words on...
~367~ Condemnation
~364~ Crossed lines that I...
~363~ Its just a moment, this...
~362~ Lights go out and I...
~361~ Cause you're everywhere...
~358~ If I could find you...
~359~ Mormons are bad
~36o~ Held so high, fell so...
~356~ Don't have time for a...
~353~ No one can find the...
~354~ I'm missing your laugh,...
~355~ In high speed
~352~ You give me something I...
~351~ Don't pretend to hold...
~35o~ I just can't get you...
~349~ It seems like forever...
~348~ I know its done for...
~347~ All I Want is You
~346~ Stop, turn, take a look...
~645~ I wanted you to know, I...
~364~ I don't think they'd...
~363~ If I stumble, catch me...
~362~ I wasn't jumping, for...
~361~ I can't live with or...
~36o~ Exhale, another wasted...
~358~ Cut the Curtains, the...
~357~ Do what I please, gonna...
~356~ Tear yourself in two...
~355~ She is raging
~353~ You've been keeping...
~354~ Slowly breaking, slowly...
~352~ Even the Best fall down...
~35o~ Nobody said it was easy.
~349~ You make me feel like I...
~348~ I know the truth about...
~347~ I know I'm dead on the...
~346~ STILL SICK!
~345~ *coughs up a lung*
~344~ There's no way I want...
~343~ Light up, light up, as...
~342~ Scream without raising...
~341~ EE! GRAMMYS!
~34o~ Wtf?
~359~ She moves in mysterious...
~358~ You said the brains I...
~357~ So save your scissors...
~356~ Lyrics a la mode
~355~ Can't find yourself,...
~354~ Tell you I'm sorry
~353~ Here's my heart, I'll...
~352~ Can't stand the beat
~35o~ Come on, my star is...
~351~ I Caught Fire
~349~So here I go, scream my...
~347~ I'm alive, I'm being...
~346~ Why Do I Love you?
~345~ Everywhere you go, you...
~343~ I am broken when I am...
~342~ We're at a place called...
~341~ SQUEE!!!
~34o~ R.I.P.
~339~ If you wanna kiss the...
~338~ Broken back to the...
~337~ But you taught me I...
~335~ Wishing for her broken...
~323~ Staralfur
~324~ And you give yourself...
~322~ Somewhere past this...
~321~ We're falling apart to...
~32o~ Quiz time.
~319~ Finding it hard to...
~318~ Touch me, take me to...
~317~I Want To Run, I want To...
~316~ Want a trip inside your...
~315~ Little late...
~314~ Seriously now...
~313~ What I did in 2oo5
~312~ BAH! HIGH SPEED IS...
~311~ (this is the real one)...
~31o~ HAPPY NEW YEARS!(Well...
~3o9~ Hehe. I always knew I...
~3o8~ AHHHHHHH!!!
~3o7~ Wedding
~3o6~ v.v
~3o5~
~3o3~ Wow...Long way...
~3o2~ Blah.
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~3oo~
~299~ SURVEY!
~297~ The kilt pin is UP!
~296~ (TODAY!)
~295~ (TOMMOROW!)
~294~(3days) PARTAY!
~293~ (4days) *gigglesmore*
~292~ (5days)
~291~ (1odays)
~29o~ (13days) *giggles*
~289~ (17days) YAY!
~288~ (19days) Purpling.
~287~ (19days) SURVEY TIME!
~286~ (2odays) The countdown...
~285~ Overreaction much?
~284~ I don't want to go...
~283~
~282~ I don't care who you...
~281~
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~276~
~275~ Sooooo
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~27o~ My dad rocks all socks
~269~ Screwed
~268~ HOCKEY
~267~ Too lazy for a real...
~266~
~265~ I demand you ph3ar the...
~263~
~264~ Hyperventilation
~261~ Moshtacular
~26o~ The Hell Song - Sum41
~258~
~259~
~257~ ...
~256~ AH!
~255~ crap
~253~ Sooooo
~254~ XD
~251~ PURPLE
~25o~ Every girl wants
~252~ No better send off
~249~ w00t w00t
~247~
~248~
~244~ gym. is. evil.
~246~
~245~ HAHAHAH!
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~24o~
~237~ SURVEY!
~238~ Confuseded
~236~ *sneezes*
~235~ sick. Ugh.
~233~ A whole week
~232~ Guys. Sucks.
~231~ W00T W00T!
~23o~ woo
~228~ YAY! TIME FOR A SURVEY!
~229~ I have a question...
~226~ END OF ZE WORLD!
~225~ Singleishness...
~224~ A Beautiful Mistake...
~227~ I love this
~223~ Don't screw with me
~222~ YAY!
~221~ Awww ><
~219~
~22o~ >< I hate crying
~218~ Inexplicable
~217~ Why?
~216~
~215~ DAMN!!
~214~ EEEEE!!!
~213~ EE! *fangirl scream*
~212~ QUIZZES!
~211~
~21o~ Break My Heart Lyrics
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~2o6~ O.O
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~2o3~ AHH! SCHOOL!
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~195~ He's dead...NOT REALLY!...
~194~ good news/Bad news.
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~182~ HECK YES I'M BACK!
~183~ WORLDS LONGEST ENTRY!...
~18o~
~181~ AH! MISS YOU GUYS!!
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~179~
~178~ PURPLE! (real entry >.>)
~176~ PURPLE!
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~172~
~17o~ RANDOMEST POEM EVER!!
~171~
~167~ COLDS EAT MY SOUL!
~169~
~168~
~165~ SUNBURN!
~163~
~161~ SICK! GAH!
~162~ WOOO!
~159~ TIRED! GAH!
~16o~
~155~ Shiny
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~148~
~146~ REALLY LONG QUIZ!
~147~ AHAH!
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~142~
~143~ GAH!
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~14o~ BLAH!
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~137~ Oook
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~122~ ^^
~12o~
~121~ Really weird survey...
~119~ GAH! PAIN!
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~115~ FCUK!!!!!
~113~
~114~ Help...
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~111~
~1o9~
~1o6~...Well I WAS feeling...
~1o5~ Feeling better...I think
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~92~ GRR!!
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~88~
~86~ You wanna know how bored...
~85~ AH HA!!
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~83~ GAH! HOT!!
~82~
~81~ Ummm
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~68~ BORED!
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~66~ Ha!
~63~
~61~ More lyrics
~6o~ bORED...
~59~ I think this is the most...
~58~
~57~!
~56~ Remembering...
~55~
~53~ Be My Escape lyrics
~52~ I think I'm scared...
~51~
[5o] MUD BOG!! WOO HOO!
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[49] TO ALL ME FRIENDS!!
[47] STAR WARS COMES OUT...
[46] LOOK! NEW COLORS AND...
[45]
[43] CAKE
[44]
[42] *bangs head on desk*
[41] Random Poem
[4o] HEY LOOK! ANOTHER RANDOM...
[39] FRIDAY!
[38] AHHH! Con't
[37] AHH!!
[36] Don't wear kilts when...
[35] Someday We'll Know Lyrics
[34] Learnin To Breathe Lyrics
[33] *blinks*
[31] End of the world as we...
[3o] WTF??
[29] Alright...Breathe...
[28] AHHHHHH!
[27] Shouldn't I be...
[26] Mondays SUCK!!
[25] Paper Heart - All...
[24] Moshing hurts...
[23] Woo?
[22] random survey 2
[21] 3rd worst night EVER
[2o] ^_^
[19] ....
[18] CD! YAY!
[17] Stand Alone
[15] random survey
[14] Random Poem
[16] Weirded-out
[13] Something about...
[12] *blink*
[1o] Freaked out
[11] Quiz Result
[7] Never enough
[8] Bored
[9] Ignored
[6] Icky
[5] Rockin' Out!
[4] HYPER!
[3] GAH!
[2] *sigh*
[1] New diary
[32] >.
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