Wow... its been a while

Listening to: rock with you-ashanti
Feeling: happy
wow.. what to really say, its been like a year i think since ive actualy used this thing;) mmm... Ive had alot happend since then but lets just get to the part where i am today;) SENIOR now.. hell yes!! im so happily in love with my boyfriend that i have now that i dont think a tear has formed in a while! i know that i used to say this kind of stuff all the time when i was little but im not little nemore and well i finaly found a guy im happily taken with! n i really dont kno what id do without him honestly! he makes me smile, drys a tear if it does form and makes me feel special everyday even if hes not near he always is in my heart!
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last night

Listening to: one wish
Feeling: sinful
everybody knows i was such a fool to ever let go of you baby i was wrong i know i said we would be better off alone it was time to move on i know i broke your heart i didnt mean to break your heart *BANGING ON UR FRONT DOOR* Yesterday I went to school sicker then a dog but i had a game that night so i had to go , it sucked. so i took 3 pills and coem to find out that there were pm so i started falling asleep at 9:45 or so in school. English- omg, seriously that teacher needs to leave hes so frigen annoying he gets on my nerves, i was like so wired at first and then idk what happend , all we did was take notes but we had a copule of laughs lets just say that also lol;) Geometry- It was fun, i was falling asleep the whoel time but you kno what time went by fast lol;) Alg 1- did the work n then fell asleep and at that time , my gramp was there to pick me up thank god for that;) haha CAME HOME i was so sick, i tried eveyrthing i could hot packs cold packs everything i felt like i had the flu and shit it sucked but i knew i had to feel better before 7:30 so i took a nap til 5 and got up and got ready, i still didnt feel that well but i made it through it all mM.. yeah we def lost the game to maranacook but thats okay, we got a game tonite n im not all up for this one at all cuz i def dont feel good right now it sucks!! my lil sisters b-day is today.. she just turned 7 lol.. i saw my hunie last night, before his big 21 hit, yeah def gave him a big hug and kiss , and i told him if i was with him when it hit 12 i would have def gave him a memory he wouldnt forget lol i called him though at 12 and he was like aww thanks hunnie im so trashed rightn ow and started rambeling on so i let him go lol, but hes finally 21 no more FAKE ID haha.. alrighty ill let you kno if nethign else happends dear diary... when will he ask me to be his?
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Last Night N Today;)

Feeling: achy
no matter how much i try i just cant say goodbye No no no i never had a dream come true til the day i found you and even though i pretend i moved on you will always be my baby! LAST NIGHT Omg.. it was insane, me and Sara took off to bangor right, well we were looking for people but like no one was home at all last night so we were just driving aroudn and shit n we saw these two guys so were liek haha , meg do ur thing lol so i was liek ok ok i will;) so these 2 guys were walking down the street right and right before they got there this old lady stops to talk to us n asks if we have seen this BIG WHITE DOG its snowing out and there is tonz of snow but shes lookign for a white dog im liek oo great im like no we havnt n shes like shes been sick for 3 days adn my knees are weak from taking care of her and i need to find her i was like if we see her we will let you kno do you have a number so she gave us her number her HOME number yet shes out in the van i think this girl was on crack or something! so she left so i was like EXCUSE ME to thouse GUYS n there like yes im ilke have you seen this big white dog and hes liek if i tell you can i have ur number im like haha sure n hes like no i havnt im like ok thanks n there like what and we drove off these guys were like probley late 20's lol Then we went n saw BJ n Shit last night also, before we headed home i got sara with a snowball in the car it was the funniest shit n the world haha;) On the way Home. there was a car full of GUYS so of course best and wondeful sara followed tthem and played lil head games with them in the car and shit so i was about 5 minutes laste but its all good it was fun lol;) TODAY GOT A TEXT FROM JOHN..Mornin Gorgeous Girl *that Made my Day N' Night* I woke up at around 7 am, called BJ to say bye jumped n the shower thinking i had a game which was for tonite i was getting my dresssy clothes out n was liek fuck i dont need them so i got my jeans and sweater and lil tank top and put my hair up quick and left for school Ooo n well ate breakfast of course;) Schoool was boring as fuck First Period- Chorus, well we sang our own songs it was a STUDY HALL so me candace and Jenna all took pics of eachother lol yeah weird ones, hott ones, sexy ones you name it we took it i danced crazy for this guy with the cam cuz he needed sumone to dance crazy so i was like iight ill do it;)so i did it was fun, n then nick came out n took pics with us haha.. yeah that was odd but u know what . it was wild n crazy;) Second Period- was.. a nother study cuz the GYMNASIUM was taking up by the blood donation people so we had to go into the library and be bored i wanted to do phys ed so bad and yet of coures not lol.. it sucked bad! i got o learn about my teachers and how they are on the sights that i am;) HOME ROOM was a drag, i had the worst pains in my stomach and know one had nething for me to take i wanted to cry seriously i really wanted to cry it was bad Third Period I had.. BIO, all we did was color Cells the ANIMAL CELL and the PLANT CELL lol thats it.. mines kewl though it all diff colors, and she gave us a lecture but i practiccally fell asleep lol;) Forth Period STUDY HALL AGAIN!! But this time we raised hell lol;) AFTER SCHOOL Err.. i shoudl have killed chris seriously, he quit the team so now we got gary and james and that is it, yeah our hockey team is going to suck even before chris left we sucked but we had a chance lol then him taking the front seat. ERR i wanted to rail him one and i dont means ex i mean with a punch lol* even though girls die for this kid* lol;) went to bangor so the kutest baby boy he was so adorable and his father wasnt too bad himself but im not even kidding it was the kutest african american lil boys i have ever seen in my life so far that is what has happend today.. nethign else happends ill let you know;)
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alot has been going on

Feeling: crampy
Mm.. i woke up and well startd off my usual day then i noticed i had to clips so i said you kno what im going to put my hair up in two big clips instead of one haha.. got to my first period class the great n wonderful mrs.canny ENGLISH room haha.. the class im always late n today i was just on time, i think she was about to have a heartake or something lol omg though that student teacher is such a dumb ass he gets on my nerves so bad.. haha;) walked out in high heels i repeat*HIGH HEELS* out to my Geometry Class haha, i thought for sure i was going down for the count but i made it, did well in there learned about kewl kewl diff shapes lol exciting not really lol;) went to my pride group, omg.. cassie litterally fell on her ass, courtney had her up in the air and dropped her i feel so bad for that girl she must have been rubbing her ass for a while lol went to my ALG 1 class, the easiest fucking class i got my test done n 2 minutes not even joking it was so simple... haha me and this kid is the only one in the class lol great class.. quiet ill tell u that;) haha then i had the most wonderful teacher of all MR.BOWEN-HISTORY, ok hes a great teacher but i hate HISTORY i dont see where its goin to get me in a better life i mean its in the past people die and we get over it.. well sumtimes linz rip girlie, i miss you fucking bad .. you were always my angel, my role model my good friend ;) you left us too quick its not fair.. i love you! came home, and now ive been reading my emails finally getting down to the 824th email on myspace seriously that place kind of drives me nutes sumtimes.. haveing about 1,000 friends and did i mention only knowing maybe what 100 out of that 1000 thats a whole extra 0 lol;) neways.. yeah i think im headed to pats for pizza with the grand parents and shit.. waiting for john to give me a call, i hope hes feeling better, haha:-D get back to you later.. Byes;-)
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Thursday

Listening to: Mr. Curtit's Music;)
Feeling: adored
mMm..Nothing much here, just sitting in good ole computa class, ... i havnt been up to much lately, just chillin at my house or brandis;) Talking to Jesse and Zach that i about it;)... N now eating sum nibblers;)... MmM.. ill give you up the updatel;) Later.. *Megan elizabeth*
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Later on...

Listening to: Curtis
Feeling: abandoned
Hey, Well there has been to much to really think abotu what i have been doing, i finally got my computa back so maybe ill update later;) .. im single again, yah i kno you guys dont even kno about him .. but yah.. neways..;) ill give you a update later on;) *Megan elizabeth*
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Friday-Wednexday

Friday- I went to school, saw Mark, and i was suposed to go see Zach, but i never found him. cuz he was at the BAngor Autotorium and i was at UTC trying to find him lol;').. hes still my kutie, n alwaysa will be;) talked to jessse, he makes me feels so good abotu myself i luv that kid;) Saturday- I was suposed to go out on a date with Mark,but the little bugga couldnt find my house, haha, its all good. i went to a dance, and met this really hott guy named SHAWN, we danced*Grinded* in frount of the parentials it was funny, n then him n his girl got in a fight he came in after and drop me a note saying sorry we didnt have lont with eachother n call him to get to kno him better, so i was like okay ill call him sumtime. n then i was dancing, n they shut off the music n was like MEGAN you have a call, n they told me that he wants me to call him. we talked, his X kept following me.;) Sunday- I wetn to bangor with my mom n Ruby. Went shopping more, as usual;) also on Friday i got my CELL and SAturday i went more shopping;) neways.. i went n hung out Shawn at his house, me and him have alot in comman. haha it was really exciting actually.;) ... My Mom was like outside waiting for me n we we gave eachother a hug and a kiss n my mom is like what and im like.. by the way were together now;) hes bringing me shopping next weekend, for no apparent reason n he just wants to;).. THIS SATURDAY AND SUNDAY, We are hanging out, n were making up a dance for the lil kids n things, n he wants to make everyone kno its a official for me and him;) kute huh?... ......................................... Jesse- i guess he might be getting his job, n after 2 weeks of his job he is commming to see me;) Zach- is suposed to be seeing me SATURDAY, cuz its his b-day, i dont kno how im suposed tod ot hat;) but iills ee..;).. .................................... welll i better get going on my project;), MAtt, your such a kutie, ;').. we willl hang sumtime;)... SmooChes, megan Elizabeth
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Friday-Wednexday

Friday- I went to school, saw Mark, and i was suposed to go see Zach, but i never found him. cuz he was at the BAngor Autotorium and i was at UTC trying to find him lol;').. hes still my kutie, n alwaysa will be;) talked to jessse, he makes me feels so good abotu myself i luv that kid;) Saturday- I was suposed to go out on a date with Mark,but the little bugga couldnt find my house, haha, its all good. i went to a dance, and met this really hott guy named SHAWN, we danced*Grinded* in frount of the parentials it was funny, n then him n his girl got in a fight he came in after and drop me a note saying sorry we didnt have lont with eachother n call him to get to kno him better, so i was like okay ill call him sumtime. n then i was dancing, n they shut off the music n was like MEGAN you have a call, n they told me that he wants me to call him. we talked, his X kept following me.;) Sunday- I wetn to bangor with my mom n Ruby. Went shopping more, as usual;) also on Friday i got my CELL and SAturday i went more shopping;) neways.. i went n hung out Shawn at his house, me and him have alot in comman. haha it was really exciting actually.;) ... My Mom was like outside waiting for me n we we gave eachother a hug and a kiss n my mom is like what and im like.. by the way were together now;) hes bringing me shopping next weekend, for no apparent reason n he just wants to;).. THIS SATURDAY AND SUNDAY, We are hanging out, n were making up a dance for the lil kids n things, n he wants to make everyone kno its a official for me and him;) kute huh?... ......................................... Jesse- i guess he might be getting his job, n after 2 weeks of his job he is commming to see me;) Zach- is suposed to be seeing me SATURDAY, cuz its his b-day, i dont kno how im suposed tod ot hat;) but iills ee..;).. .................................... welll i better get going on my project;), MAtt, your such a kutie, ;').. we willl hang sumtime;)... SmooChes, megan Elizabeth
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Thursday-Thursday

Listening to: Mr.Curtis's Music
Feeling: accepted
MmM..wow what to say!! I really dont belive that i belong on this earth anymore.. me and brandi are in his huge fight cuz of ANDREA, and I didnt do nething n she didnt eitehr, its just like wre not talking nemore, n now she gives me really dirty looks.. dont ask! i guess MJ, doesnt want brit talking to me anymore cuz he thinsk im the one that messed up there whole relationship, even though im the one that made it better.. yes i had her talk to damien, but it was her chioce.. she asked if there were ne guys to talk that were on.. me and jessse, are getting really close. he is trying his best to come up n see me.. he doesnt kno yet.. im suposet o be meeting Zach tomorrow night, im not sure if its goin to happend or not,cuz i think i mighit be going shopping for a celly!:)... ...... .. Me N Josh, well were TIGHT, its pretty sweet actually, hes such a sweet heart, but hes way to old, so hes like my older brother;}) talking to kayla again, haha yah, things are goin well with us! Crystal, and heidi.. damn i miss thouse girls;) And i havnt really talked to mark, in 2 days we have a date, im not sure if its goin ot happend for sure or not, cuz my compuat is down again, so we really cant talk. his friend told me to call him n gave me his number, i just dont kno thoughl;) well i better get going, i gotta do this comic strip;) update you later;)... Love You All, megan elizabeth
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Wednexday-Thursday

Feeling: fabulous
Wednexday.. mMm. we had a snow day at schoool, n i was finally goint back to school lol;) .. mMm.. nothing really happend, i hung out , wathed tv and made mea my space...;) my user name on there is xxshakeitup13xx@yahoo.com;) alrighty... bye you all;) Thursday- Nothing, went to school, talked to britt, got on here jn fixed my space n things...;) nothing much, just got homework n things.. at times:) finally , might have a date made for me n mark;) Friday- nothing yet, just in computa, haha you kno how it is..;) just chillin with brittany n things.. talkto you guys later n give you the update;)
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Friday-Tuesday*(3-4-05)

Listening to: nothing
Feeling: bootylicious
wow what to say mmM... i havnt talked since Thursday.. havnt been on for a while computa was crashed all better now.. give you the update;) MmMm... Friday- I really cant mmeba, i kno i went to school, hung out with daniellem, n alld her diff classes, and came home n crashed, slept most of the night and day! went shoppping part of it i think, if i can memba correctly! i got me a straightner, and dye to dye my hair with! ;) Saturday- I slept most of the day, talked on the phone as usual;) fallin for Jesse more and More everyday, mMm, ... went to a dance at 11 pm, and didn tcome home til 1:30 am lol;) Sunday- went shopping, went out to eat with my mom.. OLIVE GARDEN*YuMmmY* then we looked for UNICEL* we finally foudn it, but ti was close* then we headed to the movies;) monday- i woke up, and i had the sharpest pain in my stomach, so i went to the ER, evreything is well now though, mmMmm, stayed home slept, talked to jesse, moose(wow last night was a hard night with me and him) and talked to Zach and brandi, many others'_ Tuesday- day is not over yet, but nothign really much ;) Saturday-
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*monday to thursday 3/3/05*

Feeling: cuddly
wow the update on my diary... since feb.21:-D Me and Moose starting talking again, 'ooo yah big time, it was a surprise when i get a phone call from him. we talked for like 2 hours . .. .. got really deep, but then he came to town, said he was goin to come n see me n never does.. hes scaraed to fall for me again. HAHa, wow. i think its pretty gay!! Neways, i havnt talked to him for about 3 days now.. YEP1.. Pretty Gay! Me and Jesse are talking ALOT NOW, we were on the phone forl ike 2 days now forl ike 4 hours each. hes such a sweetie, hes commming to maine with his friends n shit, pretty soon i talked to his gramf or like 1 hour last night too;) HAHA.. he seriously is the greatest, otu of all the shit going in my life right now he keeps me from ending it!! WOw, its me and Zach's one month, n i still havnt talked to him n like.. wow.. a week today. yah i called him lst night n he finall was home but he was busy, n then he told me to call him back so i did n he was still busy , n now im just giving up HAHA!, whatever, idc nemore, i think its pretty gay, i mean hes a great guy in all,but comeo n, just say something if you wanna say it:-D!!! I went n hung out with Josh N CHris, and then hung out with Luke and thisg uy named.. Joe! with kaila, i just hung out in bangor, nothing raelly much has happend lately;).. except .well.. one thing!!!! lol Me and Alex, are great too, we have had a couple of nights of talking deep , and emotions n things, but im glad he is doing great, finally nweays!! hes soh appy, n i hope he never changes. hes so great too.. If ur reading this you guys, I LOVE YoU!:-D you too ALisha:) I hung out with brandi yestereday, we just hung out, and she showed me something im not happy about/::ANDREA: eRr.. SErioulsy its so gay1 neway s, .. no one is ripping me and brandi's 8 year friendship out the window. HELL NO:-D! well i better get going, ill talk to you later you guys .. Love Ya;) .. My Compuat is down for about 6 more days, VIrus had to send it to NYC:-D Megan Elizabeth
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_Monday_

Feeling: happy
I got up, my grandfatehr made me get up at 10:( it kind of stunk, he made me my lil sisters get dressed, at 10 im like. .its only 10 lol... we went to Mc'ds ad i wanted my sis play it was fun. people thought that they were my kids.. im like ahhh no.. ur kidding lol it was weird, i went to shop n Save n this guy that worked n hit on me im like.. wow ur really ktue, but then he saw rings n thought tiw as from the boy friend lol;) ... it was kind of funny!! i had to bring my lil to the docs, cuz she kept getting a bloody nose n stuff,she has strep throat we found out.. talked to alex, alisha, and my babie zach;) j... talkin gto him right now;) hanging out with my li sis right now;) ... give u the update later;)...:-* *megan elizabeth*
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_Sunday_

Listening to: nirvana
Feeling: unique
last time i talked on her was Thursday, so ..mMm.. let me think... Friday-Chris L, came n picked me up from school, we went to bangor, i hung out with him n his buddies for a bit, then n hung out with kaila,luke and joe...for basiky the whole night, then me and kaila went to her house, n watched movies, talked on the phone, tried to get a hold of the boy friend.. it was impossible lol.... talked to moose, yah that was kind fo upsetting but whatever, im over it.. went to bed, n got up on sat morning..;) Saturday- got up at 8:30 am, went to searsport with my mom, got my lil sisters, didnt do nething yesterday, i was bored, tired and sick.. talked on here , did nothing.. as usual Sunday- got up n the worst mood, i had to go to the mall to watch m y lil sis get her ears peirced, idk nemore, i seriously hate my life, i just want it all to end, idc nemore, i just dont think i even belong here nemore, i think my mom hates me, she talks about me all the ti behind my back same as the grandmother, i just want my life abck to where itw as before.. but it neve rwill, so slowly ill c ut my self to peices til i burn to ashes....
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*Thursday*

Listening to: nothing..at school
Feeling: bored
Mmm. got up, ate a drop egg on toast, n now is at school for period one with mr. curtis. its okay n here but now i gotta go get my late pas;) .. give you teh update later!
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_Wednexday_

Feeling: lovely
MmM... Tuesday, i went to school, so wasnt that bad at all, it was pretty fun actually, i know i cant belive im saying this!! mMm.. just thought about Zach, talked to others and Got a nice very nice phone call with SEVEN, err.. he makes me mad sumtime... really really mad actually.. but neways, i wetn to bed nothign really happend , just hungout, had fun i guess, living my life';) went to the prep rally, it wasnt that bad, lol but i saw MARK, aww hes such a kutie, i wish he would actually talk tome, then just see me n smile n wakl away..;).. he knows about Zach you guys..dont worry! .. MmM.. today, i went to school, saw MARK like.. 5 times, no talk, just smile n walk away, dont ask m ewhy, i didnt do much, i got in trouble witht he councelor but its all set now, things are better.. i have to go bak to CHORUS, it kind of suck actualy!!!.. lol, i haven treally dont much today, hung out with people and just TALKED TO ZACH, wait did i say... Jusat.. i mean. OMG IM SO HAPPY!!! hes so perfect he makes everything so perfect in my life,n i told him that i missed him n he goes, n u think i didnt mis syou, it was the kutest thing in the world, he told me that he missed me n blew me kisses n stufF!! :-* n did his lil kute lil walks, it was really kute!!!!... well today was great.. he makes me smile nt hat is all that counts")_.. just waiting for him to get back.. i missed him so bad. n hes back;).. LUVS* .... ... ... ... ... .. .. ... ... .. . .... DEAR DIARY, Im FINALLY HAPPY AGAIN!!:)
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*Valentines Day*

Listening to: country
Feeling: happy
mmM.. i went to schoool, went to math class wow that was easy today, it wasnt bad at all, mMm. hung out with brandi and britt at lunch time, tried to find MARK, still couldnt find him.. mMm.. nothing much happend, Just DRAMA, n listneing to music.. mMM.. i gotta call Zach in about.. 2 hours. so ill just update it later;)*HAPPY VALENTINES DAY*:) ........... Nothing else happend. i didnt get ot talkt o zach cuz he wasent home ,and eveyrthing it sucked.. i just talked to chris and mark... that is aboutit;0 Megan elizabeth
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_wow i havnt written in a while

Feeling: happy
Mmm. nothing much, i havnt written it since Wednextday..so Thursday- SNOW DAY, didn tdo nethign stayed in relaxed,;) as usual, didnt do nething fun at all, talked online n chatted with myy hunnie*Zach*, n went to be di think.. it was a while ago;) Friday- I memba, goin to brandis i spent the ngiht, we had fun, cooked n ate the most, i talked to Zach for like 5 minutes he was goint to see.. Boogeyman, but he never did i guess he went mudding, i didnt really do much that day either:) Saturday- I came home from brandis, got dressed, was goin to dance but we never went, went to a AA meetign with my mom though there to suport her, didn do much again, the comput weas down:(had a virus!! sunday-TODAY!!.. i woke up got up n went to church W/' my mom it was really nice, then wen to BK with my grandfather, he is the best thing in my life, i dont kno what illd o if he leaves me:( my childen*sumd ay* will awlys kno how wonderful he was, hes my hero!!! I went grcoery shopping with my mom*andy* was there n smiled at me n stuff hes like.. 26 n hes reall hott*sorry hunnie* but he is, you guys are equal,n when i see u im goin to blush too dont you worry;) she embarrasses me everytime..;) its all good though shes my mom i luv her!! Then came home, didnt do nethign got the computa fixed so i got on line, got in the tubbie*called my hunnie* and talked to him fora while, im meeting him SUNDAY!! omgi just cant wait at all, im serioulsy so excitd..;) im still talkin to him. give u the update;).. Luvs! Megan elizabeth
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_wednexday_

Listening to: dissapear-hoobastank
Feeling: beautiful
Mmm..wednexday, i woke up got ready for school, had to make a doc appointment which was at 10 am, so i went to that n headed to school, i got there around... 12 or so.. got there went to IPS it wasnt that bad, had to give Justin his BACK MASSAGE:( it kills my hands, then he started getting. Moods, im like im done i couldnt take it nemore... tehn i had English, god that teacher was annoying. MR.Smith wasnt there thoug, i took my quiz n started reading my Cosmopolitan, it wasnt that bad of a day at school.. ..... .... went ot brandis after school, called chris, ... talked to him for a while, brandi isnt doing tha twell i hope thigns go better with her.. relay bad.. i luv her to death,;) i dont kno what i would do if i ditn have her, ... talked to chris for a bit, we gert along good, then... .................. Got home, called ZAch, omg seriously, he makes my Day so bad, he can make me smile, laugh, giggle even Butterflies, im happy that were together so bad, i just wish i could be there to do thins with him.. Mudding, snowboarding*for me* and skiing for him, nethign to be with him... i dont care as logn as im here, so i can actually hve him in my arms.. feel his Lips on Mine;)... .............. ............... ............. taLked to chris for a while..nto abotu alot mostly about me and my life now,. i dont kno it was nice talk n things i guess. got back online to talk to ZACH:) god i seriously luv this skid, he is so grand.ZACH* if ur reading this idont lov eyou .. i WUV YOU* llol cant say it til i mean it;)... .......................................... well ill add more if ne more happends, .love you diary..;) *megan elizabeth*
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*Tuesday*

Listening to: nothing
Feeling: sinful
Mmm. got up this morning, stil wasnt feeling that well slept int il about 10:30, and just been laying around, i need to call Zach at 6, but im not sure if im goin to be able to, today is jus ta lazy sucky ass day!!.. .................... Tried to talk to Zach, i called him but he wasnt hom so i left amessager for him;)... I ms him so much..:) .... Moose called me but my mom wouldnt let me chat, i got like 2 inutes with him, i hated it, i hope he is doin gbetter with his finace;)... i hear he is okay of what he said, even though i don tbelive it, i told him about Zach, he was kind of happyf or me;)... its all good i guess were hangign out this FRIDAY, if heather isnt there..;) hope for better next day:) *megan elizbaeth*
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