So, marriage is AWESOME. Sex too.;) I'll put up pictures later. My place is a mess- so cluttered! It's driving me nuts. But the kitchen, bedroom and bathroom are pretty much put together. But considering you have to walk through the pit of the living room to GET to those three rooms, it doesn't seem to matter. I'm too depressed by the mess by the time I get to the "clean" rooms. We had our first fight. We missed our flight back from orlando. Jeremy claims my eyes rolled back into my head, but I was pretty impressed with myself. I didn't blow up, and only said one or two harsh things. But he got lucky later anyway, so it's all good. I have to say, disney world was a little dissapointing. Well, it probably would have been more entertaining had I not gotten sick on the baby rides and so had to forgo any rides that swayed, jerked, or moved faster than I walked. Ok, I better get back to work. ug. talk about hard to get up this morning. returning to work after your honeymoon.

So, I've finally put my engagement photos up. And we're only getting married in 56 days! (but who's counting?) It looks like we are looking at our kids (of the future) in a park or something. I'm tastey, or so I'm told. This one was fun! this one is the "scandelous pose" people are like- wha--Jeremy and Kim? aren't they Catholic? whisper whisper (we actually couldn't stop laughing) I'm really dissaponted at some of the people RSVPing 'no'. Damn friends in europe. It won't be one of the "UD weddings" I've always heard about. This planning has been a bitch. My mom threatened not to come b/c I have an "attitude." We have yet to figure out what she is refering to. Also, I'm immature and ignorant and not taking care of her guests. that's right, HER guests. aren't I the one getting married? Lucky me, we have christmas with her in a week. But my jobs are keeping me afloat--I taught my kids how to balance chemical equations the other day! They were like "Miss! this is so easy!! I don tink Miss Well (the science teacher) know how to do this..." the science teacher has been trying to teach them it for a week now, and it took me 15 minutes! Ciao

I got my own insurance card. MY OWN. it has my name on it as principle carrier. so weird. of course, it doesn't kick in until october first, so I guess I'm not offically in real life until then. speaking of insurance companies- they SUCK. I had an impacted and infected wisdom tooth (the last one to come out) and was so miserable (I had been waiting for my new insurance to kick in) but could feel my neck stiffening as the days went by due to the infection. needless to say I panicked and called my parents for the dental insurance stuff. which turns out stopped covering me in MAY. so this was in AUGUST and I needed my tooth out now. jeremy (thank God he works for the church) asked a friend if they new anyone and that same day I had my throbbing mouth checked out by an oral surgen who said he'd so the surgery probono. Talk about relief! all I could do was squeek out the words "thank you" between tears. if there's one thing I learned from my parents it was not to take hand outs. Jeremy had to really talk me out of my misery over not being able to pay. In the end we payed a little and baked the surgen and his office my famous chocolate chip cookies. I wish that had been the end of it. I had a dry socket TWICE, and the second time was over labor day weekend and I had to call the surgen in on that sunday. It's amazing how much pain a little nerve can inflict on a person. Now, I just have a huge frickin' hole in my mouth. I'm so glad all I have to worry about now is food getting stuck in it! had an interesting 'real life' shock today. two of my hispanic students, one mexican and one salvidoranian, were pissed off at each other. but when it came to me, they had two VERY different stories. I love them both and am with them all day and work so hard with them (they are two of my best students!) I didn't know who to believe. I tell you, 16 years of catholic school education sure made me gulibile. I had to turn it over to the assistant principle, who had to write up the situation b/c there were violence threats. In the end I think I believe the salvidoranian. Ever is so sweet. It would take a LOT to piss him off. Rigoberto has some brothers who have made a...memorible... reputation at the school. on a different note, I gave a speech to the teachers today. I was so damn nervous I soaked the underarms of my shirt. ok, I'm done.

seriously, I'm going to kill jeremy. this is like the 3rd time where he's screwed up and it involves leaving me in the dust. he can't go to julia's wedding. that means I'm left to drive 16 hours alone in 48 hours, have to pay for gas (his dad was gonna pay) will have no one to dance with at the reception, and this is the third time he's done this kind of thing. how many times do I have to tell him to WRITE STUFF DOWN AND LOOK AHEAD. gawd, I'm so pissed, I could...I don't know, spit on his carpet right now...but then I'd step in it later, I know it... damn I'm pissed!!!!!!! oh, good news, I'll probably be teaching ESL in the fall!!! yea!!!!!!! great pay and my DREAM job!!!!! but I'm too pissed at Jeremy to be happy anymore.

So I think God finally got to the H's in his prayers. Yesterday I got a job teaching ESL at a Jr. Highschool and then two hours later Jeremy proposed, and then this morning I started a part-time job at a grocery store!! yea! go me! :) it's ok to be self centered when I just got engaged, right??

so, I didn't kill him. just cried a little and talked things out. he did mention that he has a ring though. but he's waiting for the oportune moment. He told me he had one thinking it would calm my worries, but now I'm just like 'Give it to me damn it!' everytime he moves I think he's gonna ask. See? this is why I don't want to know stuff like that. I want it all to be a suprise. ALL of it. He still is learning that. (he's not a fan of suprises.) we've been working out for a week and a half! go us! ooo...job interview to be ESL teacher...wish me luck!

so, working 90 hours a week at three jobs SUCKS. I gave my two weeks at Harps, so I could babysit 4-year-old triplets. $10 an hour and only 20 hours a week? hell yeah! jeremy is being so good. he's taken over all the domestic stuff for the next week or so until my two weeks are up at harps. he does the dishes, makes dinner, picks up max's unmentionables. so nice, let me tell you! but damn I'm tired. yesterday was such a weird day. I should have just turned around and went back home as soon as the lady behind me told me that my zipper in my skirt was all the way undone and my undies were in full view. so, I saftey pinned the skirt together and went on with the day. at harps that night I had a guy try and write a hot check, another lady short me $10, kept walking to the wrong place and locking myself out of my drawer, we were short a checker so it was BUSY and people were irritable. I just made up a little speach in my head if anyone complained "listen, I'm working 90 hours this week. next week will be the same. we are short a checker and short on my patience. you complain again and you'll be paying for MY groceries." I'm so close to finishing kate's jacket! I wish I had some TIME. gr.... oh, and as far as wedding plans...you know, I never had a problem with my mother. NEVER. we have always been so close. now that I'm planning my wedding- I want to strangle her and all I do is complain about her. why???? this pheonominon (spelling?) as well as the one at the grocery store where everyone comes to the front at the same time to check out really confuse me. ok, so I'm at work, I think I should do something work related. it sucks being non-certified. I'm basically a go-fer shadow.

so, graduation was...long...kinda boring...and stressfull. I can't let myself think about my life then right now b/c I kind of get all teary eyed. it's over. no more 'girls nights' no more group studying in the computer lab...gah, I can't think about it. so, I got an awesome apartment. terrific boyfriend (still not fiance...gr) wonderful landlords, interesting dog who thinks he knows it all...but no job, no friends other than jeremy...I feel bad, because I've become real clingy, but I think he understands. still job hunting. cleaning toilets for side money. I just hate cleaning toilets when I have a college degree. talk about depressing! and everyone here is so slooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow. in thier driving, talking, and getting back to you about employment! I swear if I have to write out yet another job application I'm going to shoot myself! and the fact that I have to call all the employers back all the time drives me up the wall. it wouldn't be so bad, but they all tell me how badly they need me, someone who speaks spanish, oh, I'm so valuable, we need your right away, fill out an application today! hurry! and then I dont' hear from them for a week! anyway, on the bright side, I've got a dog training book, so hopefully I can get max to stop whinning every time I move in the apartment. JEremy and I are going 'Power 90' workout. so in 90 days we should be sexy beasts. it feels great. not just physically either...I'm in much better shape than he is so it helps my ego too ;) anywho, I'll have to post our 'before' 'during' and 'after' pics. I'm excited to see them. ok, gotta shower and get to work. lots of toilets to scrub. good thing I went to school and worked up 30,000 in loans...dont' know how I'd do this work without that kind of prep. :S

I got the best apartment ever! a garage apartment in a great neighborhood, gas stove, new carpet, I get to have my puppy, my landlords have a one year old (I'll have my baby!) and only 325 a month! I'm so excited to move in...just hope I can get a job. there must be something wrong with my resume, like a major blaring error that I can't see b/c I've sent my resume into like a million places and no one is even calling. granted, I don't need a job NOW, just I was hoping to have SOMETHING for when I move in. but, a part time job will last me for while. there is a DRE (director of religious education) position that I really really really hope I get... cross your fingers! meanwhile... so close to graduating! convocation: thinking of the freedom so close at hand I just love this picture...and rene!! two things I do best? sleeping and talking.. that night: that night...kate was celebrating a LITTLE too hard, if you know what I mean...

I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate school. I want to be with Jeremy. my head hurts, I'm tired, and have one paper left to write in my college career and I can't get myself to fucking DO IT.

and I'm 22. happy belated b-day to me!

shoot me now. system overload. and it isn't even midterms yet.

so, I think I want to send out this picture for our engagement announcements...it's where we had our first date...and we love oriental food. plus jeremy looks so cute. I wish I hadn't done my 'eye thing'. otherwise, I think it's a really cute picture. so, drove to fort smith...was a little nerve racking at first. my stomach was all in knots b/c all I could think of was 'gawd, this is my fate... this is where I'm going to be living" and so of course I was finding everything I possibly could wrong with it and kept thinking what everyone else (ie family that will probably never see fort smith) would think of it. but after hanging out with my love and meeting everyone, I'm very excited now. not sure where I'll find a job, but jeremy has a lot of connections now. I'm so proud of him! he doesn't think so, but I can hear him maturing over the phone--the things he has to do, the people he has to confront, etc...it's very exciting and making him all the more attractive! mmmm! Mallory is engaged!!!!! allen asked her on valentine's day. 'awwww how sweet' Jeremy and I don't do the valentine's day 'thing' but she and allen do all the romantic/sentimental stuff that movies are made of and I think it's real sweet. keep having dreams that I'm still working in the hotel industry. well, maybe they aren't dreams, more like nightmares. but then I wake up and realize that I DON'T have to deal with all those pious pricks and get to babysit my little german boy. He is so FUNNY! So, lucy was talking to me the other day and said "Immmadooonuhapumazlofumuhaniumnalanuhisralyumuhhar" and I said "what?" and she replied "Immmadooonuhapumazlofumuhaniumnalanuhisralyumuhhar" and I said "really!" and she said "yeah!! you wanna talk amanda?" and I said "sure" and then I asked amanda "WHAT was she saying?" and she said "she said she's doing a puzzle of animals and it's really hard" I'm such a bad sister. how could I NOT get that? I mean, obviously it's understandable-- a 10-year-old got it. how could I not understand it??...especially when the 2-year-old can repeat it so well herself??? *sigh*

I really shouldn't have drank this coffee. but iced mochas are sooooo good! my german professor's kid thinks I'm part of hte family. all day today he said "mama....papa....kimmy....mamma....kimmy....kim...mamma...papa...kim." and he gave me lots of cuddles. I can't wait to see jeremy tomorrow!!!! eeee!!! kissy kissy to be sure;)

so, now kate's sick. I'm just going to avoid mentioning to her that I was sick a week ago... why take blame when only scorn comes of it? So, jeremy took the hint on the phone. the conversation went similar to this: j"Hello my sweet" k"hi" (hint) j"are you ok?" (catching on) k"no" (hint again) j"what's wrong?" (he got the hint) k"I'm upset at you and I'm sick and that's not a good combination" j"why are you upset at me??" k"b/c you were playing video games yesterday while talking to me and I told you I didn't like it and after we hung up you didn't call me back later when you were done" j"I'm sorry!" k"yeah" j"I won't ever do it again" k"ok. thanks. but I'm still sick and feel like shit" (crying) j"you poor thing" so, maybe I was a little pathedic, but at least he won't play video games while on the phone anymore. I could have sworn he was watching tv or something last night when we were chatting but he claims he was only picking at his toes. how can I argue with that? he knows I do that all the time. I think it's a good sign that we are not attached to each other and don't do well with the long distance thing. I mean, I miss his like hell and dream/think/talk about him all the time, but there's something to be said about a relationship that can survive long distance but not flourish. I mean, we bond so much so quick when we are together physically, I think it's good that we aren't 'growing together' over the phone. I dunno, maybe it's just b/c I had a BAD experience with the last bf which was long distance/internet/phone based. ok, enough stalling...time for some more hebrew

I have a cold...I think...man do I love chicken broth. makes everything seem alright. I finished my first sock!! yippee!!! but now I have the another one just like it... So I called jeremy to talk last night, had had such a great day and even gave him the opportunity to ask me about it when I said "boy, I had a very productive day today...........(long pause)" you know, I give the boy as many hints as I can, and usually he does real well. but yesterday, he was playing video games and said 'I can talk to you and play at the same time' that lasted about 2 mintues of me chatting and him giving mono-sylobic responses 3 seconds too late. grr. so I told him flat out that I didn't like talking to him while he was playing video games and I would talk to him later. so what does he say? 'oh, ok. luv you, bye!' I'm very pissed at him now. I'm going to have to be very blunt tonight. something like: 'I'm very upset with you. we haven't seen each other in 2 weeks and we won't for another two and you can't stop playing for 15 minutes to chat? I don't care if you think you can do both at the same time, talking to you while you play video games is like you watching tv while we make out: rude, annoying and so not worth it.' hopefully that will get the point across. but then again...

gave my two weeks yesterday. why couldn't I just quit? that's right. I'm a-whatever you call it. person who does more than is necessary in life for NO REASON. damn conscience. oh, I have the BEST picture of jeremy and me. wish I had a scanner. I want it to be our engagement announcement. damn, we are reading 11 books for ONE of my classes. ELEVEN. thank God my aunt pays for my books. speaking of paying for things, I'm officially officially officially doing the dave ramsey budget. my goal is to have $1000 saved by graduation and my $600 loan to my aunt paid off. Dr. Anderson and his wife are having a little girl!!! eee!!!! I can't wait to see what a daughter of theirs will look like. Benne is pretty darn cute. I'm just upset that I won't be around to babysit her as well. so, I'm trying to be all social and such this semster. I went to tgit for like 45minutes. the band was loud and it was almost 11-I was exhausted. and, of course, as I walked home I saw half my class walking TO tgit. so much for being social. I think i will really have to wait until after the end of the month, when I won't be working 30 hrs and taking 19. yeah, don't want to kill myself. oh, get this, I was so pissed at my mom the other day. when I asked if we could maybe hold an open house in nebraska before I move to arkansas, she responds, "why? kim, all you did was go to school and work a little." those of you who are going to school full time might understand the insult of this statement. Those of you who go to school full time and work will understand better. and yet, those of you who understand the time commitment each of the professors require for each hour of school and then factor in 'working', that is, the times where one is paid, you will come to realize that I am pulling 75-80 hour weeks. yes, I know I dont' have the responsibilites of a morgage, a marriage and kids, but I think anyone pulling those kind of hours would be exhausted. plus she thinks it is ridiculous that I should want to quit working to 'just go to school.' she 'doesnt' understand why kids these days want all this free time.'' urg. I've tried explaining to her that ud is a little harder than the 2 year community college she went to in nebraska, but she thinks I'm exaggerating. this is be the first time i'm doing something that my mother doesn't approve of! (getting married next year will be the second) ;)

so, went to buy Jeremy the 'Firefly' series and splurged on the first season of 'Doogie Howser'. I really meant to save the money I had intended for my oil change, but when the machanic told me I really didn't need one since I'd only driven 800 miles since my last, my subconscious money demon came to life and I splurged. damn it. I should have bought his gift beFORE I got the oil changed. there is a song by dean martin 'money burns a hole in my pocket'... I was looking at the series' lined up (I knew I should have left after I found firefly) and the song started repeating in my head. when the song starts, the demon has taken control. but doogie howser is totally worth it. I was so young when it was on the air. hmmm... I distinctly remember him being a lot older, cuter, and having a deeper voice. (I'm trying to convince myself that I had watched the later series when he was 19/20) Actually, he looks and talks exactly like this kid I babysat for 10 years. I've watched 5 episodes and still can't get over it. Man, vinnie was obsessed with sex. I'm suprised they aired that kind of character in the 80's. So I'm working until 11 tonight and then heading for houston. Hope to get in before 2am. gonna listen to 'enchantment' by orson scott card. my brother raved about it. so the other day when I had 7 hours to do nothing (not that day, the other one) I did some calculating and Jeremy and I will have to wait 2.5 years before we can have kids after we get married (to pay off all of our debt). He'll be 29 and I'll be 27. kinda later than I have always dreamed, but hey--I was thinking- 2 or 3 years to just goof off with my husband? I can wait for kids! mmm...husband...I can't wait to call him that. ooo- he officially graduated! 3.0 this semester. I couldn't help myself and had to top him with my 3.6, but I'm trying not to rub it in...too hard. but come on, I was working 30 hours and taking 16 hours and he wasn't working and taking 12. I get bragging rights, right? __________________________________________ oo! I just got these. This summer, at the inn I worked at, at least twice a day either I or christie were asked if we were twins. I don't know... I'm not seeing the resemblance. I think it was a combination of uniforms and the oldness of all the customers (bad eye sight) and then occasionally bailey joined us. The three of us working a banquet together got a lot of double/tripple looks. quite a few times a guest would get angry at one of us b/c he had just asked another one of us to get him a drink and he saw 'his waitress' doing other things. bla anyone else think we look alike? I'm really interested in a young stranger's opinion. _______________________ a guest just told me I have very pretty eyes. if I was only 10 years older and wasn't already in love....

30 more minutes....man what a long day. my neck is killing me.

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