Sad...

7th grade

Stared at the girl next to me.

She was

my so called "best friend".

I

stared

at her

long, silky hair,

and wished she was

mine.

But she didnt notice me like that, I

knew it.

After class she

walked up to me and asked

me for the notes she had missed the day

before and

handed them to

her. She said "thanks"

and gave me a kiss on

the cheek. I wanna

tell her, I

want her to

know that I don`t

wanna Be just friends, I love her but I`m

just too shy,

and I don`t know

why...

11th Grade

The phone rang. on

the other end

it was

her. She was

in tears,

mumbling on

and on

about how her love had broke her heart.

She asked

me to come over

because she didn't want to be alone, so I

did. As I sat

next to her on

the sofa, I stared at

her soft eyes, wishing

she was mine.

after 2

hours,

a drew barrymore movie,

& 3 bags of

chips, she decided to go

to sleep. She

looked

at me,

said "thanks" and

gave me a kiss on the

cheek. I wanna tell her,

I want her to

kno

that I don`t

wanna be just

friends, I love her but

I'm just too shy, and idk wHy

Senior Year

The day before prom she walked to my

locker. "My date is Sick"

she said; he`s not qonna

go. well I didnt

have a dAte and

in 7th qrade we

made a promise that if

neither of us had dates we would go

together

just as "best

friends". So

we did.

Prom niqht

After everything was over I was standing

at her

front

door step. I stared

at her, She smiled at me

I want her

to be mine,

but she

doesn`t

think of me like that

and I kno it.

then she said "I Had the

best time,

thanks!" and gave me a kiss

on the cheek. I wanna

tell her,

I want her to kno that I don`t

want to be just

friends, I love her

but I`m just too shy,

and I

don`t kNow why

Graduation Day

a

day passed, then a week, then a month.

before I could blink, it

was graduation day. I watched as her

perfect

body

floated like an anqel

up on staqe to qet her

diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she

didnt notice

me like that, and I knew

it. Before everyone

went home, she came to me in her smock

and

hat, and

cried as I hugged her.

then she lifted

her

head from my shoulder and said, you`re

my

best friend,

thanks!" and gave

me a kiss on the Cheek.

I wanna tell her, I want her to know that

I

don`t wanna

be just friends, I

love her but I`m just

too shy, and I don`t know why

A Few Years Later

now I sit in the pews of the church. that

girl is gettinq married

now. I watched her say "i do" and drive

off

to her new

life, married to another man.

I wanted her

to be mine, but she didn`t see me like

that

and I knew

it. But before she

Drove away, she came to

me n said you came!" She said. "thanks!"

and kissed me

on the cheek. I

wanna tell her, I want

her to

know that i dont wanna be just

friends, I love

her but I`m just too

shy, and i don`t

know why }]|

Years

passed,

I looked

down at the coffin

of a qirl who used to

be my "best friend". at the service they

read a diary

entry she had wrote in

her hiqh school years.

This is what it

read: I stare at him wishing

he was

mine, but he doesn`t notice

me like that, and I

know it. i wanna tell him, i want him to

kno

that I

don`t wanna be just friends,

I love him but I'm

just too shy, and I don`t know why. I wish

he

would tell

me he loved me...I wish I

did too. I

thought to myself, and I cried

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Well i'm officially 19 as of the 19th. Not much has been goin on i work alot. And sometime it sucks. believe me hehehe well i suppose i'll let ya'all go!

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170.

Well i'm really freakin tired! The past two mornings i went to bed at 4am. and have been waking up from 6:30 - 7am so yeah it BLOWS!!

The Exorcism of Emily Rose...SCARED THE HELL OUTTA ME...I'm a big wussy when it comes to that. Well for the 40 day advent i think it is...i'm a catholic and i don't know the termanology...anyways...I've decided to give up cursing..good luck to me! It's gonna be hard esp. since i live at home with my mom and brother and sister whom irratates me ...........

OKAY OFF THAT SUBJECT>.... YEAH RIGHT! Well yea my sister decided to steal or hide or give away my favorite tank top i got from DEBS!!

Blah Blah Blah!!!!!!!!!!Well i suppose love and butterflies good luck to my know cursing heheh!

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169.

Well, I think they (my family)actually scared him off. It's all good tho. hehe.

What’s wrong with me all I do is think about my ex and if I did the wrong thing by breaking up with him.

I feel better about doing it. But now I feel lonely and I hate it.

I have a feeling I’m never gonna find a good guy. I’m drawn to all the wrong ones and I hate that fact! And I feel that he's the only guy who will ever be with me.

But I know I did the right thing in order not to be miserable any more. I mean all we did was fight and he's gonna be 24 and he still lives with mama without a job or an education.

I'm such a loser, god.

But i'm sure i'll find mr. right some day!

Love and Butterflies!

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168

Well not a whole lots goin on. I met this dude last night. He's cute, and barely taller than me. He met my family like right away!

I was so embarassed we didn't talk all that much.

It was humiliating!!!

but yea...

He survived tho when his sister showed up he was outta there like a bat outta hell

It was so OMG yea...

Well I suppose it's time to go. I can't wait until i get a hold of him again.

AND THE MOST EMBARASSING PART WAS THAT MY MOM ASKED HIM IF WE WERE SEEING EACHOTHER OMFG!!!!

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