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Listening to: the noose - apc
Feeling: distraught

i was honestly excited... i can't believe it... and now.. ha...

so, the girl the guy was talking to... well.. that was his lesbian friend.. and she was giving him advice on relationships.. she must have made it pretty clear that long distance relationships are painful and messy... he doesn't have the time to be in a relationship...

i confronted him about.. halloweeeen... and he said, "well, i like you.. and you like me...*insert previous paragraph*"... great.. very frustrating.. this would have been the first guy that i would have felt completely comfortable introducing to my family and friends... someone i would have been able to speak to about...buckley, the death penalty... anything.. walking on stilts!... bloody hell.

i've been pretty upset... just the fact that he would said NOTHING... that he would have let all fall on its own... coward... so maybe i would have not of been so confident in introducing him to my family... just maybe this is an indicator.... this event...

nope, i'm still mad.

he even flexed is muscles!!! he moved across the class... just to sit in front of me.... he followed me after class to the library... WHAT IS THIS??? auuuuuuuuuuuuuugh! finally, i let my guard down... and... thanks... five more weeks.. five more weeks.. and the semester ends.... and no more him!

he made this decision on his own.. without my consent... he just decided what was best for both of us...

idiot.

i've had my share of relationships... ha... has no faith.. probably because he doesn'nt know me... and maybe he's not "fiel"... i dont know.. it's not like this is going to change the situation much.. it's nice to write it out though.. :/

issues wont leave... ignoring them are only fortifying them.. great.

ps. he provoked me... damn it!!!!

augh, im still really mad! lol

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November 18th, 2008 @ 6:35am
Thanks a lot :) I really appreciate it.
I find it quite difficult to write on here without sounding...try hard or arrogant...

As for the guy, what a coward. Sounds like he wanted to have his cake and eat it. Urgh...they're all bloody useless.

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