chirp
Feeling: angsty

my cousins and i found a songbird in the evening. they picked it up and handed it to me.. i fed it some banana... i just googled "songbird care".. aah-hah. i screwed up. i'm not supposed to feed it. i'm happy i didn't give it any water, phew!

according to the wild life centers, i have to keep the little fella warm.. and i can't give it any water.

something about their tongue leads to their lungs? ay.

i remember when i was younger(a lot younger) my cat left a baby songbird in the patio... it was having a hard time breathing.. during that time i was talking to my "soon to be" jerk of a boyfriend, he told me to kill it. i didn't want to. he then began taunting teasing blah blah blah blah and so, out of spite i killed the bird.

it's been five years and i still havent forgiven myself for what i did.

it sounds so little

it's not

guess this is my second chance??? very frustrating.

i freaked out earlier. so much that i started calling the rehab centers.

IT'S GOING TO BE 1AM.

ay, one of the numbers was to a cell.. i didn't know.. :S some lady picked up... she asked me if i knew what time it was..

bang! reason returned!!

rofl

i was so embarassed!

i'm a dim-wit.

i apologized and she said that it was ok, just to bring it to the center in the morning. before she could finish, i hung up. my eyes got watery, couldn't help it.

she's going to feel that in the morning!

mhm.

i think she'll forgive herself, instantly lol. she had all the right...

when i lose it, i really just go OOooOOoo

so tommorow i will look for another shelter. i will call at 1PM hehe... man.

yeah.

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