Listening to: Melanie Martinez - Play Date
I don't know how to start these most of the time...so I'll just jump right into things.
So I have a friend named Linus who I'm relatively close to, hell, very close to. I see him as someone who is "mine" to protect and just be there for and whatever. I don't know what he sees me as, or rather, what he thinks of me as, but that's what I think of when I see him. I love him. He's someone I'll always be there for - whether I like it or not.
That being said, he really annoyed me today. He's a streamer and as a streamer who wants to make a living off of it, his first thought/concern should be the quality of his stream. Myself and the other mods keep telling him that. Instead, what does he do? He's been giving lackluster streams the last three days because he's dealing with some "stuff" in life and is too sad. Bullshit. I know that the stuff he's talking about is girl drama.
I don't know how many times myself and his other mods need to tell him - FORGET ABOUT THE FUCKING GIRLS. First of all, he's too young to worry about finding a serious relationship. Secondly, he's not straight. We know he's not straight and I'm fairly certain he knows he isn't straight (judging by the comments and way he speaks to me) so I don't understand why he feels the need to put up a facade. It seems like he wants to find a girl to date him so he can sleep with her and pretend he's straight - and that's not healthy for him or for the girl.
He's a wonderful guy. I know most people don't get to see it because he likes to hide himself away and put up this front of being a pervy nerd, but he actually has a good heart and is really kind. I hate seeing him self-destruct. I want him to be strong like I know he is. Like I know he CAN be.
He just needs to realize it and own it. And stop trying to be somebody he's not. Because it's transparent and it just makes us all tired.
In other news, I spent the day tidying up the house and I even got in some WoW time. I finished a lot of pet/garrison stuff. Woot! :D