[122] Do You Have a Pulse?
Listening to: Icon For Hire - Pulse
Feeling: sarcastic

I'm going to try and blog more...it helps me clear my mind and relax. There's something theraputic about typing what you think and seeing the words in front of you.

I don't know what to do with my life currently.

I need to come out with more books but my muse is being silent. Every time I go to write nothing comes out and it's just...blankness. I don't know why but it's distressing.

I've been hacking games like editing/changing things and making new scripts in an attempt to make a new version - which is fun and time consuming, but I can't spend hours on it like I used to. I just do it for 20-30 minute bursts...and then I do something else.

I've been watching Merlin and that takes my mind off of my issues, at least until the credits roll so I've begun to chain watch episodes which does help...but also wastes my day.

I can't get a job until July. I'm moving around too much and can't put any roots down until I have a more stable living situation.

Ugh.

The one thing I want to do - I want to open a bakery or work in a bakery. I love to cook - I love everything about it but I don't have credit, can't get business loans, etc. so that's not going to happen. I just hate how complicated life is sometimes.

The only thing that's keeping me going is that the game con I'm going to looms close and I'll see my friends again. I'm so glad we saved up all the money and payed everything off before shit went to hell. Oh, and Icon For Hire put out new music. That's helpful, too.

I miss my friends - especially Jordan and Ashe. I can't wait to see them. 

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June 23rd, 2016 @ 8:26am
dude, cake decorator/baker here. Definitely try to work at a grocery store bakery to get basic skills/fundamentals down before working in a local real ass bakery (only if you're worried about not having credentials off the bat). You'll learn a lot without the pressure of a stand alone bakery. Then after a few months of that, apply for a cafe that needs a pastry chef or a bakery that needs a baker/decorator. Things will fall into place if you want it. I don't own my own bakery, but I feel like that goal could be achievable. Right now I'm kind of scared to venture out & own my own place, but if you already feel like you want that then that's already a great sign! Best of luck <3
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