www.sitdiary.net/katgirl - (Last 5 Entries) http://sitdiary.net/katgirl/ A feed of katgirls diary entries on sitDiary. Tue, 25 Apr 2017 5:05:41 CDT http://www.sitdiary.net/ [971] woke the fuck up http://sitdiary.net/katgirl/?cmd=view_entry&eid=22991 Fri, 13 Jan 2017 1:01:12 CST okay yeah i'm fucking annoyed<br>i shouldn't have to ask &nbsp;every fucking time but sure whatever fine [97o.5] post script http://sitdiary.net/katgirl/?cmd=view_entry&eid=22991 Thu, 15 Dec 2016 1:01:59 CST it's the same girl, sitdiary. it's been the same girl for the last six years and it's gonna be the same girl for the next six and for every six years after that.&nbsp;<br>i just realize that the only time i write here is when i'm feeling lonely and so i guess i should just. i don't know. posterity&nbsp;or something. i used to write good things, but it's really the bad things that i feel like should be excised, you know? the good things, i want them to stay with me.&nbsp; [97o] i would give it all http://sitdiary.net/katgirl/?cmd=view_entry&eid=22991 Thu, 15 Dec 2016 1:01:22 CST "wow," says everyone, because everyone says it, "that's so far."<br>yes i fucking know how far it is and i fucking know that it's a long time and i fucking know every single other thing<br>here is the hard part and here is the worst part is that my mom didn't believe me when i said you were coming and sometimes i don't believe either<br>it's just hard some nights. i feel like maybe you're not real and if you're not real then we're not real and if we're not real then what am i? and i know that's not true but it feels true when it's 3 AM and i am just. here. alone. it's so hard to not feel alone when that's all i feel like i've ever been.&nbsp;<br>i love you i love you i love you i promise i love you more than anyone and i guess this is what people mean when they say sometimes you have to chose. i'm choosing and i want to keep choosing but i need something.&nbsp;<br>please god, give me something. i love her and i'll keep loving her so good but please, give me something. i am so tired of sleeping alone. [969] riptide http://sitdiary.net/katgirl/?cmd=view_entry&eid=22991 Fri, 20 Nov 2015 14:14:07 CST well god, if we've learned anything at all, it's that i know how to make myself lonely [968] lost http://sitdiary.net/katgirl/?cmd=view_entry&eid=22991 Sat, 14 Nov 2015 22:22:48 CST god sometimes it's just heavy and far and out of reach and unthinkable that you would ever love me like i love you<br>i don't think that anyone can, truth be told, but some nights its harder to carry than others<br>i want you and i want a life and i want to be happy and i want to make you happy (that's not how this works, that's never how this works) and all i can think about is how to do it and all i can think about is how it won't happen&nbsp;<br>it's safer as a dream as something i tell myself at night as something that i take to bed with me and leave there when i wake up because i can't lose it. i can't stitch myself back together after that there is no after that and i know people say things like this and i know it's melodramatic but i can't remember what life was like without you and i have no interest in finding out again in the future.<br>you should be here with me, and you should stay with me, and we should be happy together because that's the only way i know how to be happy sometimes. not because of you, but god, because you give me a place to start at the very least.&nbsp;