wtf sitdiary wtf at least it is january 20th and obama will be sworn in 12/11 hours from now hope he can handle the terrible state bush has left the country in hope things turn up for everyone. hope things turn up for me.

i will END YOU. i am a genius. fourth year at CSULB. shakespeare is fun.

boys, why are you so much trouble?

boys boys boys boys i like boys my nose is still stuffed up and my throat is still sore, but i've seen worse days. my cousin found me on MYSPACE today. i haven't spoken to her in quite some time. she's getting married. SHE'S 19 and getting married. to a soldier. and moving from Indianapolis to somewhere in Colorado. oh how things have changed. MARRIAGE - such a scary concept and thought and just, in my mind right now i know that i'm not ready for marriage and it's hard to think that my (barely)younger cousin is already making the leap. do other people even think about everything that marriage entails when they "take the plunge"? does she know how hard it's going to be? maybe it won't be hard for her, i don't know. i'm hoping it won't be, but the examples of marriage i have seen haven't been exactly pristine. suffice it to say, marriage is not my absolute favorite institution. neither is organized religion but that's something for another day.

quack quack i'm sick :[ it's been a really long time since i've written in this but i feel like bringing it back. i guess that means that only carlos will read it but it's ok cause i love me some charliechaz! LEOOOOOO! i doubt you'll read this but i love you too ^__^ someone quick, get me a new throat!

so, i've come to realize that no matter what happens, i'll still be me ... and i'll still be awesome. everything will be OK here is an enon song for everyone! Enon - Tilt You Up! http://s22.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=1Q873N4EBU31N21SEX0E8LW8EM here is a ben lee song for everyone! Ben Lee - Catch My Disease http://s24.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=3345MF0O5N2GM13JVWH4PQTZF8

You rule. in 15 years, you won't be as known as youare now, but most of the people that will knowyou then will like you (or else I'll beat themwith a stick). You're nice to listen to. What band from the 80s are you? brought to you by Quizilla

so ronnie imed me for the first time in like two or three years and the conversation was very LOL funny i haven't written in here since before erin's mom visited me. wow long time also i have become obsessed with this : http://www.eyezmaze.com/grow/v3/index.html anyway, i am still utterly perfect and cool rest assured sitdiarians, my awesomeness shall never fail

ERIN'S MOM IS COMING OVER TO PICK UP HER ART HISTORY NOTEBOOK. i hope it's not awkward :-

FINANCIAL AID SCARE = OVER!!!! i'm so fucking happy i get to go back to school!!!!! my days were looking bleak for a while but now i'm freaking FLOATING i love you all!

Oh oh i really wanted that thing I just want to sing I love you baby Won't you bring All the flowers you Find out in the garden Don't tell me the truth That your heart has hardened But you don't want me anymore How can it be Look what you've done to me Oh oh Oh oh the bee does quickly sting I was wondering If you could maybe darling Think? I'd give everything If you'd grant my love a pardon And all the fruits Again would fill the garden But you don't want me anymore How can it be? Look what you've done to me Oh oh Oh oh, oh oh oh oh

this past week has been Rosie's week it's official everything that could've gone wrong .. didn't. and erin apologized which was like a blow out of nowhere but it's cool and it left me feeling kinda weird all week hanging out with kathy and her sister has been really really really fun $3 dollar theatres are the best and dodgers games with stands full to the brim with mormons are fun too her sister and i were talking excitedly about quidditch and screaming "go go gryffindor" ^__^ how kawaii of us. we also listened to gwen stefani really loudly on our HOUR venture out of the parking lot i think there's a small mormon girl out there who genuinely hates me but it's ok! because i was being annoying so whatever. i updated because i'm sure you were all tired of seeing my face and because leo yelled at me and because i was tired of seeing my own face looks like this bonfire deal is really going to happen but no thanks to any of my efforts dano seems to be offering to bring everything ... meat, a bbq grill, bonfire wood... and so on well, it's byob and byoe(everything) so meh i hope to see those who i told about it there you're all special to me

so my speech was pretty ok. i got lots of "good job!"'s and my teacher said it was a very fun speech. apparently i'm entertaining. who would've thought? anyway, i quoted what mr.smolin wrote to me in my yearbook, in order to explain why i switched to English as my major. this was it: "I encourage you to be an english major - i think it's your calling- and i hope you will share your charismatic glow, your brilliant mind, your loving heart, and your beautiful soul with all those who need your guidance." YEAH! i rule. also, i ended it with a fun quote from CLERKS that i built up as something very serious and then after i said it everyone laughed and clapped loudly. "I'm a firm believer in the philosophy of a ruling class, especially since i rule" i've decided that i'm going to marry another teacher, like dr.victor and ms.silverman. and we're going to be the cutest couple at school. anyway, i wore a pink bow in my hair, this is what it looked like kinda :

i have an oral presentation on myself tomorrow. i'm boring i feel so fucking pretentious i'm brining in books, art, and music/my ipod. i'm such a fucking tool. argh prove me wrong kiddos. prove me wrong.

i made this for you!

secret heart, what are you made of what are you so afraid of could it be, three simple words or the fear of being overheard what's wrong let 'em in on your secret heart secret heart, why so mysterious why so sacred, why so serious maybe your just acting tough or maybe your just not man enough whats wrong? let 'em in on your secret heart is there a secret that you're trying to conceal is the very same one that you're dying to reveal go tell 'em how you feel secret heart, come out and share it this loneliness, few can bear it could it have someting do to with admitting that you just can't go through it alone let 'em in on your secret heart is there a secret that you're trying to conceal is the very same one that you're dying to reveal go tell 'em how you feel this very secret heart go out and share it hmm hmm hmm this very secret heart

Dear Maam and Sir... no To whom it may concern... no Oh, I know, Dear Mr. And Mrs. Troublemaker... I wanna marry your son. It's been so long now that I've been in love with your son. He scares the other kids but it is towards him that I run. He's got a way with words and when they crush test me my hair curls. He's got a heavy metal style that drives me wild. He's undeniably the best thing in this town. I don't know what I'd do if he was not around. Dear Mr. & Mrs. Dear Mr. & Mrs. Dear Mr. & Mrs. Troublemaker

EEEEEE! summer school is for the birds and i'm a penguin june 19th here i come!!!!! ____________________________________________________________________________________________ EDIT GIVE ME HUGS

as much as i definitely enjoy solitude, i wouldn't mind perhaps spending a little time with you i love carlos and i love liv. i love gerri and i can't fucking wait until june 19th. i'm going to pee my pants