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My lips were raped...

The shortest version of the most eventful 2 weeks in my life.

Alot of this has to do with Derek so don't mind the title when I talk about others.

The only one I'm thinking of with this title is David. The icky boy that he ish.

Derek is a sweetheart. David is the icky one.

Anyways....

Starting with the first of the week..

A week before the dance Ryker took Megan and I and we trashed Natalies room with a bunch of pink crap b/c she hates pink. Ryker answering Natalie with a yes to the Valentines Dance. Since Natalie had asked Ryker like 3 times.

Meanwhile, while Megan was helping Ryker trash Natalies room. Nate went over and him and Dana trashed Megans room, answering Megan yes to the Valentines dance. Since Megan decided to ask Nate two times.

After Natalie ruined her surprise by coming home early, Ryker looked at Megan and said, "I think you should go home now." Megan got the hint and started screaming. We all ran to her car. And yeah, that was like the funniest thing ever. Never forget that.

I was kinda lonely really, but hey, they had fun.

That night we went over to Nates tho and thats where Megan kissed Nate. mwhaha

(Goes with the title)Anywayz...

So yeah that whole Emi thingy.

Emi and Clint...Clint not going on a mission, moving to Provo for the time being. Emi moving on to boy named David. David with Emi for about two weeks and then he decides to move on to me. Ick. He was with me for like 3 days before I got sick of him. He was with Emi, asked if I would be his gf. He was kinda involved with my friend at the time and he's like an embarrassment to me and my friends so I said no. He stayed with me and wanted to kiss me. I said no, I wanted to keep my VL's. yes, they are important to me. But a few days later he kissed me. Thursday...the third of February. He's a sucky kisser! And that's pritti sad when you can kinda tell that on the first kiss. But it was prolly sucky b/c I didn't do anything to help b/c I was like pulling away. GRRR, THAT STUPID COW. *smiles sweetly*

I was disappointed. I've always been the "bounce back" and so I was hoping I wouldn't be the bounce back this time, Emi was more of the bounce back but he still like used both of us at once there.

He was kissing me and still gf/bf with Emi! Oh my gosh! The -very- next day he was over at Emi's and they were all holding hands and everything! He had juss stolen my Vl's the other night. Stupid boy! He said he was going to break up with Emi. Prolly b/c she told him not to kiss her either.

But yeah, I shot him down. Hate him for kissing me. Still flirt with him tho. I think I'll lead him on and tease him forever now.

But it's kinda cool, b/c even tho I shot him down he's still dumping Emi. Emi was making fun of me forever for the kissing thing that I didn't even want to have happen. So I think she doesn't need a boyfriend. He's dumping her b/c she gets really jealous and tells him who he can and cannot hang around. teehee..sowwy He's still after me btw.

He thinks he'll get me one day. He keeps talking all long term and crap. Pff. I'm sowwy I don't do relationships. He's a femmie! He's like a girl! It's embarrassing to be around!

Oh oh oh! And and...I went over to Natalies the next day after he kissed me and he was there being gf/bf with Emi. They were having a butt slapping war in the kitchen. I came just in time. But it was sick b/c David started smacking Rykers butt, obviously disturbing the boy. Ryker got mad after like the 2nd time and decided to wrestle him in the kitchen. I was the only other one in the kitchen at the time...But David basically picked up Ryker so he couldn't get down but he got crouched down on the floor and David was trying to get him to 'jump' or stand up by grabbing Rykers inner thigh or something and pulling him.. But he kinda missed... and got Ryker between the legs and pulled. It was disgusting and david was laughing, ryker was pissed. So I like pulled those two apart and put them in separate rooms. You should've seen Natalies reaction when Ryker told her. hahahahaha...VIOLATED by the gay guy really.

*sighs* So yeah, my VL's are gone all b/c of a stupid icky boy in which I don't even know his last name. Ryker got violated by him. I rejected David. David rejected Emi and is still after me. Nate is like pissed at David for stealing my VL's. I told the story so that everyone would be on my side btw. I went to a scary movie with Natalie and Megan. The Juniors huddled together and the sohpys David, Emi and Kacean huddled together. We all screamed and grabbed each others hand. The movie was White Noise. (End of Icky David story) The date thing with Derek happened. It was like the best date of my life.

Derek and I made a scene at the dinner table. "Are you playing footsies with me?" "Yeah...sorry...gosh" "Not right noww..we're at the table" teehee...it was cute.

My cat jumped on his lap during dinner

My Mutti, Vatti and Kirris Mutti were involved with our date. Ugh. They made dinner for us the restraunt thingy. It took -forever-.

Scooter (Kirris date) was kinda annoying and John Pack (Kaceans date) was like a perfect gentlemen.

Vatti took pics of us after dinner. We were all pictured out. But then we all piled in the cars and went to K-mart for the 'surprise' of shoving the guys in a booth with us and taking pics. Derek thought the surprise was riding the lil' kid rides outside of Kmart in which Scooter and Kirri were doing. Funny. We should try it.

Derek adn I were the only ones that got to do the booth twice. They kicked us out after that b/c they were closing around 9ish.

I decided to kiss him in the booth, on the cheek. Yeah, since I lost my VL's theres no stopping me now from kissing anyone and everyone!! mwhahahaa...

I think he went into shock. I was really sorry I did that, he didn't seem to enjoy it. He seemed in pain...with a smile during the picture. hehe He let me have that pic...is that a hint he didn't like it?

He took the second/innocent role. teehee

Then we went to the dance. We danced...got attacked by Natalie and Megan in the hall. Nate had that sparkle in his eye when he saw me in my frickin pritti red dress. He wants me. But then again....Ryker had this more of a dazed look but there was some thoughts in there as he looked at me. He wants me too. I was juss gorgeous okay?

Derek and I danced at like every slow dance. He switched from both hands on the waist to the one hand with each song. He didn't ditch me and I didn't ditch him. The silence wasn't that bad or anything. We all mingled with Natalies group until they left b/c Kacean and Kirri kept ditching us. Their dates went around the place looking for them. Derek and I laughed. We found Jordan and chatted with him. But we went to get a drink...came back, ran into Jordans really funny brother talked to him...danced to a country song..but then I wanted to go on the other side of the gym to find Kirri but he like wasn't paying attention as I was leaving and I didn't wanna ditch him. So I came back and grabbed his arm and started pulling but my hand slipped down his arm until I caught his hand and so I juss held his hand and pulled him along. He was like going into shock or something I swear. That poor boy, got kissed on the cheek and a girl held his hand in one night too! It felt cool tho.

The best part of dating is the physical contact and then you don't have to do it again if you don't want to if yer not into relationships. It's makin the other person uncomfortable, bringing them out of their comfort zone by physical contact, harmless tho.

But then all 6 of us were all dancing to these upiddy songs. Kirri came up and said, "you should be twirling with yer dress b/c of the sleeves that fly around!" and I had been twirling but I couldn't keep on track or anything so I put a hand above my head like someone was holding it and said, "I dont have anyone to hold my hand so I don't fall over" so Kirri put Dereks hand in mine and I started twirling and then since I had someone to guide me kinda I went faster and faster! It felt soo awesome! I guess I twirled so much I ended up right in front of Derek and he like caught me after I stopped twirling. It was wicked awesome! Twirling that fast, with Derek, made me feel soo pritti and stuff.

Later that night we went and did pictures. I wanted to do the girl-grabs-guys-tie-looking-kinda-evilish but we didn't. I still wanna do that...that pose is hot. Kirri and I got individual...and Kacean bought a group pic. I had to borrow a buck from Kirri, stupid booth.

Then we went and danced some more...danced to the last song. Kinda shocked him again too b/c the 'slow songs' were kinda upiddy and so I was kinda making my own rythum thingy so I was kinda swaying back and forth while his hands were on my waist in which I don't have..so my hips. He like kept looking at me like what are you doing, or stop it! lol I juss wanted to sway a lil' more gosh....slow dance doesn't fit with the song. Then I made him do the Cottoneye Joe song thingy yeah.

Then we all piled up in the cars and went to Kirris house. Dereks bro was there, "Derek, which ones yours?" And Derek points at me. haha great, thanks. We all laughed and made fun of Alicia cuz she was being stupid. The Pizza man came to deliver pizza to colby, dereks bro, another friend who's gf if Kelly Odgen, we decided to give the pizza man a brownie while he waited. Then Kacean and John living out in the middle of no where with curfews decided they needed to go. I remembered the traditional gift Kirri and I always give the boys for being suckers and coming with us. It was a box of candy hearts an' all. Derek really seemed to like that alot. So then we all got back in the cars and I dropped John and Kacean at Johns car.

Then I was gonna take Derek home, driving and putting on my seatbelt so I was like veering off the road. He told me my driving was scary. I remembered his favorite thing in the whole world is cars so the best way to end the date was driving! So I said fine, do you wanna drive?! He said yeah. I said, It's like 11:30 and we don't have to be home until midnight so heck why not. So I pulled over and let him drive my car. He went on and on analyzing my car and I had no clue what he was saying. So I juss gripped my seatbelt and smiled and nodded like I knew. I looked to see if he was ever speeding tho. He wasn't really. He liked my car. I directed him up the canyon there with the cool hills and stuff. He was excited. Then he took me to his house and we got in his car so he could show off in his car and stuff. It was fun.

The convo wasn't bad either. He asked what music I liked and I knew he liked/had Dashboard so I juss said Dashboard. So he put it in and I told him I didn't have that CD so he had an opportunity to be like my hero or something and burn me a CD. He liked that control of the car tho. Since he was the only guy that wasn't driving that night and the only one that got steak at my house. teehee, he kinda felt stupid.

But yeah, then we went back to his house. We said our goodbyes and I hugged him and got in my car and went home as he went in. teehee...we had a bonding moment! awesomeness!

He's a cutie and a keeper.

There thats my date.

Like my favorite one out of the like 5 I've been on! I think I'm learning how to date now thats why it's so fun.

Well, my hand hurts.

That wasn't the short version of the long story so I lied to you.

I'm stressed b/c of homework I didnt do yesterday b/c of the date.

I'm stressed with the boy/kissing situation.

And I'm even more stressed b/c now I hafta write my bro and send him a Valentine before morrow! And I'm soo soo tired and I don't want another week of schoooll...

Valentines day is gonna suck b/c I hafta go to the dentist.

make it end!

I dont want to make a Valentine!

that means I hafta be creative!

And write snail mail some more!

I want sleepp....waaahhh

All these events worth writing down, things I'd wanna remember one day and I haven't written in my journal forever. grrr...stupid sara.

Davids still a stupid cow.

I hope he's really really jealous that I was Derek.

bah hah!

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I agree about Daivid being iky. Been there, played that game too. I know how ya feel hun.
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