Listening to: Anatasia - Once Upon A Decemeber
Turned in my stalker today.
He gave me another note.
This had morbid pictures, more japanese symbols, and the 'goodbye forever' thing all over again. This time he kinda had a date set. So I decided I've had enuff. Ryker said he'd come with me. I was confused there. But we went over to the counselors office.
Ended up going to Riggs office with Riggs standing in the middle of the desk and the two officers standing on each side. It was scary but Ryker just went in with all smiles from memories. I went up and handed her the note and explained some things.
The two officers eyes like boaring into me. eeee I dislike the pigs, they make me nervous and have anxiety attacks. I wasn't scared of Riggs, but the officers were there and Rkyer would every now and then telling things about Dallas like he was recieving the notes. Riggs kept telling me I was awesome. One officer kept telling me to bring the other notes and the other kinda looked at me with some sympathy, but it was still scary.
After everyone in the room read the note (making odd faces while doing so) we talked some more and we went on our way. Great, now I hafta have some type of contact with an officer. I walked mostly in shock down the hall. Ryker noticed I wasn't okay, opened the door and told me I did the right thing.
We went into the audit, and Ryker went into our dark corner and I stood in front of the door. Ryker came back and put his arm around me and asked if I was gonna be alright, it was then I collasped.
I only remember my leg going a lil' weird when I collasped and ending up in the dark corner in Rykers lap. I lifted myself (upper body) off Ryker was like shaking trying to hold me up. And in his words, "I got a kiss out of it at least" and I was 'snuzzling his cheek' or something when he heard a smack and kinda felt something like on the jaw line. Apparently I had kissed him, it's his fault!! I felt so stupid. He's the one that snuzzling/putting his cheek on mine while hugging me. He got too close to me while hugging me! He said "it wasn't wet and it wasn't dry either" As in I didn't kiss him at all? heh But he said he heard a smack...so it was an air kiss that he heard?! I don't know! So embarrassing! I can't believe I did that....I said sorry over and over again.
It was a different kind of anxiety attack tho, it was weird b/c it wasnt the heavy breathing kind, it was juss like...I was in shock, all energy left me and I juss lost all senses. It was weird, like I was in a coma, or had a stroke. I could hear everything, but I didn't have the energy to move. I actually think I kissed Ryker to help me remember what happened after I kinda went 'out of it'. I think I kinda remember doing it, but I hope this 'kiss on the cheek' wasn't too horrible. That's what happens if you get to close to me when I'm out of it or just waking up, usually it's just a hug, but I was already hugging him so I got closer! so ha. He'll get over it.
I went to the dentist. They numbed me, made me wait for a few, took out my temp tooth, made me wait again for like 20-25 minutes, then they put it back in and sent me on my way. ggggggrrrrrrr They totally numbed my nose, and then Scott hit me and now it really hurts.
I made Vati go to the temple with me and take pics of me with black and white yay!
Then Kirri came over and ended up taking pictures of me all night long, she got bored of that (dont blame her) and went home.
Anyway.....That was my trip for the day....
Scared to death of pigs
Getting numb for no reason
Taking/messing with pics
and kissing him (on the cheek, mind you)...
I can't believe I kissed him...
Did I really do that?