The Perfect Ending
I had a car. It was Valentines Day. I wanted to go for a drive. I really didnt think much of it. I had seen Natalie, Ryker, Emi and Kirri that night. I really didnt think about Megan or Nate.
But for some reason I found myself going to his house.I don't usually stalk Nate, really! It was 9 so I thought most of them would be in bed, but the downstairs light was on and Nates bedroom light was on. So I parked down the block and decided to just walk past his house. I slowly trudged past his house when I noticed some movement in his room. I looked up just as Nate stood up and walked straight toward the window and looked out seeing me stopped on his sidewalk staring at him. It was kinda creepy actually, for him anyway. I felt bad. I didn't mean for him to see me, I thought he was going to bed.
The one thing I noticed was that he was wearing his jacket and shoes still. Odd. It's funny how I can show up to Rykers or Nates house and they know it's me juss looking out the window at me. teehee…
Anyways I continued to walk up and down his sidewalk as his driveway light turned on and he snuck out. I was kinda nervous and I felt bad b/c he came out to freeze juss to see what I wanted when I wasn't really expecting someone to talk to. I started pressing the snow down that was on the sidewalk making it slippery, making like a long strip of ice down his sidewalk. I asked him what he was thinking, b/c I knew there was a reason he still had his jacket on. He said he was thinking about Lisa b/c he sent her like an email valentine card or something and he was hoping she'd stop by and mention something about the card b/c she didn't email back. Sorry to disappoint him huh.
We kinda stood there, shivering, shaking with silence while I made this ice rink on his sidewalk. Soon we were both so cold we were like clinging to each other. He started it btw. So we were hugging there in front of his house at like 9 o'clock attempting to talk but it didn't really happen much. I really wasn't planning on him seeing me I kept telling him to go back in and go to bed and get warm. He thought I was crazy b/c I'd still be outside or something.
Well, spur of the moment when Nate had stopped hugging me and stood back in the perfect place right at the end of my ice rink. I couldnt resist. I decided to walk backwards on my ice rink and he asked in that hot way, “where do you think youre going? I smiled and said, No where and I took a running start and slid/skating on my ice rink and slid right into him and I started laughing so hard! I couldnt quiet down! And he basically told me to shut up and but he said it subtly so I didnt get it. But yeah, I finally got the hint. I covered my mouth and tried to stop laughing b/c I felt so stupid, but it was fun.
haha. So he held me some more while I tried to stop laughing. Soon afterwards I whispered while clinging to him, I dont want her to go and he was kind of confused so I explained I didnt want Natalie to leave me. She knew my greatest fear and she was abusing the fact that she knows it. He asked if he could know my greatest fear. I told him, prolly a lil more than I shouldve but hey he got the hint a couple of times. I guess I kinda started to cry or it sounded like it so he just held me closer/tighter and we sat there for a while. When Id put my head on his shoulder and so my lips were like next to his neck and I just wanted to kiss it mwhahaha. I dont know why. After awhile he said my name, it was really sincere passionate I dont know if this is really bad but it sounded like he was saying my name so passionately like he was in the middle of like a heavy snogging fest with me. It was cute tho.
It was strange because after we held each other for awhile he decided to ask about Derek. He asked if Derek was like juss a 'passing fancy' or if something would actually happen between us. That got me talking on and on. I said juss a passing fancy, but now that I've thought about it, it's not fair to call him that b/c every guy I've ever thought about was just a passing fancy. I don't plan on being with any guy period really, b/c I'm not really interested. So yes, even Nate was a passing fancy still passing but still a fancy. We talked about how shy he was. I was really curious of where that question/convo came from tho it was really random and he was just curious.
Now there was one moment while we held each other and Nate seemed to go into a daze while thinking so I looked up at him and watched him and he does those facial, moving the lips, type thing when thinking and he looked back at me. And for that one moment both of us felt the urge to kiss. I know - we -both- felt it. Not just me, and not just him. I saw it in him and felt it in me. It was kinda weird but it was obviously there.
After talking about Derek, having that passionate moment and seeing him deep in thought. It all kind of clicked. I asked him what he was thinking hoping hed be honest so I wouldnt have to pry it out of him. I was hoping he wouldnt mention anything about Lisa tho, b/c sometimes when he held me whenever a car passed by hed be a lil jumpy thinking it was Lisa and like totally shove me away if it was her. shrugs He said he was thinking about kissing me all night but he couldnt keep that kind of promise. I asked about this promise and he said kissing to him was like a promise, like theyd be treated differently. He was cute and blunt as he said he couldnt promise it but he could do a friendship kiss. I was blunt, I positively wanted a kiss from him. I said after David kisses didnt really mean much to me. So in my mind it was more like.
Ive been wanting to kiss you all night.
Whats stopping you?
Well, I cant really keep that promise.
Forget the promise. Ive never had a decent kiss and thats all I ask for! And itd be perfect for a hot boy like you to kiss me on a perfect night like this! I dont care if you even like me juss kiss me already!!
But he went on like he wasnt going to kiss me. So I gave up and put my head on his shoulder again. We thought and I pulled away to look at him again and he looked down at me and smiled. Then suddenly he pulled his arm from around me and put it on my hip, I was honestly puzzled and confuzed at what he was doing and then he pulled me in and his other hand went up a lil by my shoulder and he kept pulling me in....and man oh man! He kissed ME Let it be known to records. It was perfect. Besides the confusion but I'm juss stupid and slow that way.
I can't describe the kiss or the length...so let's just leave it at the innocent "he kissed me" type of thing okay?
He asked if it was better (than davids) and I smiled while I hugged him and said, "You have noo idea" haha
He said it was a spur of the moment where he just went for it. He said he normally doesn't actually kiss someone after he's like joked about it. Kinda ruined the moment there. (he's good at doing that) Gee thanx, at least I'm the exception huh. But I was happy. Finally around 10 o'clock we split up, he went inside and I wandered dreamily back to my car.
It was the perfect night. 9pm, dark, outside his house, holding him, him kissing me and snow flying all around us the whole time. I ran out into the street in front of his house and twirled in circles and laughed! I raised my arms up in the air, twirled and laughed for like 10 minutes straight I swear! I even sang my song. "Dancing bears, painted wings Things I almost remember..." Singing that song...then I felt the burden of that song lifted off me.
I felt free. I felt special. Great news, I have been kissed by the SEX GOD himself! lol Heck yes!! And nobody can take that away from me!
But after awhile I felt stupid b/c I remembered his window is right there facing the street in which I was prancing around in and so I figgered he had been watching me for awhile b/c his blinds were still up and there was no where else for the boy to go but to bed. Oh well! I felt dizzy and sick by the time I got to my car. I couldn't feel my fingers. I scrapped off the snow and jumped and went for my usual ride up the canyon really fast! It was fun in the slippery snow! Then after I warmed up a lil' bit I went home. I was soo happy but at the same I was felt so sick b/c I was sick the day before. So I took some pills to help me sleep b/c I knew I wouldn't be able to after that night and went to bed. Mmmmm mmmm
The Prince has kissed me while in the snow at the perfect day and time.
And by the end of the day...I'm still Cinderalla...