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The Past to the Present

So Sunday night Derek decided to hook us up with Kirri and Eddie and Jordan and Sam...Weeee another date.

So he came over around 2 and I guess decided to help me get ready? I juss took a shower and I decided to wear my blue shirt that Derek discovered I wore in my drivers license mug shot. He said he liked it and never saw it before. Oy vay, shows how much he pays attention to my clothes and I can count how many shirts that boy has.

I took my hair down in the bathroom so I could dry it. Derek juss turned around and saw my hair down, which kinda surprised him and then apparently it was a 'hot' look and like drooled when he saw it was wet hair. He asked if I was going to brush my hair as he's holding the brush. I said, "Yes -I- am going to brush my hair" and he immediately starts brushing it before I finish my sentence. Then after that I was gonna blow dry it. I get out the blow dryer the next thing I know he's got it and using it on me. Oy vay. So yeah, he basically got me ready for the date.

We went over to Dereks house at 3 to wait for Eddie. We heard Jordan wouldn't show up. Low and behold, fat man shows up in his car. heh...He said he went around Logan lookin' for his girl the whole time and couldn't find her. Soon Eddie showed up. We went in Eddies car, nice and spacious in the back. Eddies car doesn't have a reverse. That makes me laugh. We had a lil' trouble tryin' to get Eddie to pull up at Kirri's house. Preston juss got a new bike and so Kirri's parents were outside watching him. Awkward. Kirri was frickin' cute, cuter than me for the date. Grr...

We went to the Fun Park and played pool. Whoop. Kirri and I kinda sucked at it. I swear playing with Derek, it was like playing with my brother Dallin all over again. Then we had Slush Puppies. Derek was definately in the 'sharing' mood the whole day.

Then we decided to go do Laser Tag...yeah, not the best spot of the day to talk about. It was weird. Stupid boys. Take the fun out of it.

Eddie and Derek hide Jordans keys and we forgot about them so we went back to get them after Laser Tag and they weren't there. We searched, asked, searched some more. Gave up and sat down. I aksed if anyone had learned their lesson about hiding keys from friends and if they'd do it again. haha..We had prayer time. Got up and searched again. Derek made the guy over the counter fork 'em out. I knew the guy behind the counter had 'em the whole time! What do they not understand about missing keys...on a key chain?! Anyways...after that Jordan gave his keys to Derek...which ment I hadda go in Jordans car with Derek. Ugh. He has too much fun with that car.

We went to Chili's...the boys were like starving by then. We sat there and waited for awhile. Then we got like a whole booth to ourselves. Girls on one side and boys on the other. We ordered starters...chips and salsa...as soon as it came out it was like almost gone. Then Jordan got his bloomin' onion, that was gone juss as fast. Then finally the meals came out. Derek and I shared a starter.. Kirri and Eddie got like Mashed potatoes and chicken...Jordan and Sam shared a sandwhich/hamburger type thing with fries. Every once in awhile I stole mashed potatoes from Kirri's plate. I didn't like anything from our starter Derek got, I made him eat it all. hehe...After that we had desert...cheesecake and chocolate molten cake. mmmm yum yum. That place is expensive. Poor Eddie.

We decided to go to the mall next. Kirri and I ran into the mall to hide while Eddie and Derek pushed Jordans car to the very back of the lot. I shoved Kirri into Hot Topic (of course they'd go there and find her first). I ran off into Vanity. Derek pointed out Kirri to Eddie, meanwhile Derek couldn't find me. He'd come out of HT and look around...while he did that I ran back and forth from store to store. He still didn't find me. He walked down the lil' hall thing while I was walking up and I timed it perfectly so he'd walk past me and not see me. But then Eddie had to open his big mouth and point me out. I even took off in another direction and store and he still took awhile to find me. It was fun.

Then we went ring shopping. The guy there kind of hovered over us as we looked. I found all the plain simple rings while he went and looked at the colorful honkers. The sells guy let me hold a 8 thousand dollar ring was it? It was a honker. Of course it wouldn't fit, but I definately planned self defense and spouse abuse with it. Juss turn it in my palm and slap him. Mwhaha...Derek juss HAD to tell the guy we weren't really getting married. Honestly, like he didn't know. And in case he didn't we couldn've left him to assume whatever the heck he wanted. He didn't really hafta spill the beans. Gosh. He wanted to go to the other ring place but I really didn't wanna. I like had to drag him away, you could read his mind and he definately wanted to go but I wouldn't let him.

We went and found all four of them sitting in those massage chairs in front of Claires. Eddie brought out two bucks and Kirri and him got a nice massage. Jordan tried to get Sam to get a massage, but it hurt so they traded chairs. I didn't really want a massage b/c they hurt, but Derek made me. It felt funny and it found the knot in my back and it hurt.

After that we went over and watched Jordan get an ice cream cone thing. The boy is like the bottomless pit with all the crap he ate that day. We went to Dillards until they closed.....we left the mall...Jordan didn't wanna drive so he gave the keys to Derek. Which meant, yes, I had to walk all the way across the parking lot b/c of stupid of Derek and Eddie pulling a prank on Jordan...again. And then I hadda sit in that car with flies everywhere! Ugh. Wasn't that bad.

We went to Shopko. I ran away from Derek again. I sat there and watched him search for me that time. I finally decided to make it easier and go in the area he was searching. He found me eventually. He's kinda slow. He wouldn't be able to find me period if I really didn't want him to. We played in the toy section. Derek and Jordan got in a lil' fight with garden tools. Jordan came back and told me Derek juss ran off with a hoe. When he came back I was all, "Oh I see how it is Derek!" and walked away. He chases after me yelling at Jordan, "What did you tell her?!" Of course he had to pick me up after that for a long time. He was definately showing off his talent of picking me up. oy vay.

Then we went to Wally World. dun dun dun...

I wouldn't let Derek open my door. He attacked and molested me in every way possible but I still wouldn't let him open my door. He got mad and refused to come out of the car. I decided to go into the store. I was walking down the parking lot (he parked clear in the hecka out there) and there was a hispanic...looked like an indian to me...and a white boy walkin' to their car. The brownish guy stopped and stared at me. It was like those kind of eyes ...that are like X-rays and can see right thru yer clothes. freaky. His friend kept asking, "Are you alright man?" and this guy was totally entranced with me I guess and wouldn't respond much. They got in and pulled out and went down where I was still walking. They creeped along side of me and started flirting with me. They asked something like "Do you know where I could find (inaudible)" I didn't know what he said, or what to say so I juss said no. They kept talking that's when I got a lil' more creeped out. They -slowly- turned after I got closed to the store. I looked behind me to see the white kid still lookin' at me and I blew a kiss..I meant to kiss my hand and smack my butt like "kiss this" but he turned around too quick. Haha my bad. The white kid told the other guy and then I heard a loud whoop from the car. Oy vay....

I decided it was the oppurtune moment to get Derek out of the car. So I took off running back to the car after the boys left. I ran and ripped open the door and jumped in Dereks lap. Of course he was still unresponsive b/c he was mad, but he didn't mind having me crawl there in his lap. I was breathing hard and looked petrified. He asked what was wrong. I told him that two scary guys were checkin' me out in a perverted way an' and they were scarying me and followed me down the parking lot and flirted with me....I was kinda scared. I was totally dramatic about the whole thing. It definately hit home to him tho. He was like gripping me saying things like, "The one time you needed me, a time that I could protect you from things like this and I decided to stay behind and be mad." It was sweet. He kept promising he wouldn't do it again. You can't do that b/c you don't know what someone needs you or not and you can't be with them 24/7. sheesh. But he definately felt guilty for not coming with me. We eventually went into the store after more of my dramatic story.

We wondered around the store for a couple minutes lookin' for Jordan, Sam, Kirri and Eddie. We were out in the parking lot for a long time so we weren't in Wally World for long until we heard a, "Attention all customers will a Derek Bruins and Sara Law please come to the front desk where your parents are waiting for you!" It was funny.

On the way back we wondered who the parents were. Jordan definately being the Dad...so we guessed Sam the mom. *shrugs*

We wanted to go to KMart after....but of course by that time it was closed. We sat and talked in the parking lot for awhile, then we went over to Dereks house. Jordan wanted to go take a walk thru the cementary. Kirri refused. We decided to go to the park instead. I had to like drag her there. Poor Eddie, prolly felt so left out and prolly wanted to strangle me b/c I was so 'close' to Kirri the whole night, like he obviously wanted to do.

But of course the cop juss HAD to come down out of the canyon the same time we were walking to the park. We took a left so it didn't look like we were going to the park. Shure enuff the cop pulls along side of us and asks us how old we are. We all said 17 except Kirri in the back..."Um..16!" He then asked us what time it was..(do we look like we know?)..as we look at the clock he has in his car and took a wild guess..."Um....about..10:50...11 o'clock?" He's like "Yeah, exactly 10:50" (dur) and asked us if we knew when curfew was..(does it look like we know?)..we all guessed 11. He said 10 on weeknights. He said if he caught us out there again he'd give us tickets or something.

So we turned around and walked back to Dereks. Jordan was all freaked out, "If he freakin goes around the block juss to catch us again! I'd be soo mad!" Knowing smithfield cops, they'd do that, they're so bored. We decided it was only like 11 o'clock we should stay out later. I suggested a dance floor on Dereks private property/driveway so the cop couldn't get us. Derek got the music up and going from his Muttis car. He then shyly asked me to dance, and I did the lil' giggle and blush and said yes. We were like the only ones dancing. Sam was over there, "I've definately never done this before." Like she's above that. Kirri didn't really wanna be ..that close to Eddie I guess so they're dancing looked awkward but it was Eddies chance to shine! I felt bad for the kid.

The cop was so bored he came back around the block....saw us in the driveway and slowed down....went down the street to the park...turned around...and parked there on the corner facing us and watched us while we danced juss so he could catch us when we all left. oy vay. TAlk about BORED. Eddie hid behind the van and Jordan was still freakin' out. Derek and I juss kept dancing. hehe....We all sat and talked for the rest of the time. The cop eventually left. Eventually Jordan and Sam decided to go home. And Kirri needed to go home to get the 12 o'clock curfew so Eddie took her home. Derek and I sat in his car and talked. We talked about the parking lot incident. I went to get Kirri for a sleepover she desparately wanted I guess but she couldn't b/c she hadda babysit in the morning. I didn't. Bah hah!

It was like 3 minutes away from curfew tho. Derek took me home and wouldn't leave. He refused I swear. I was scared b/c of me Mutti, but he didn't get the hint to leave. I said "You should prolly go home" like 15 times that night. He didn't move. We juss kept on talking and talking. He wanted to talk about my anxiety I didn't wanna hear nor talk about it period! It was about 12:45 that I got him to actually leave. He asked if he could call. If it got him to go home for the moment then shure! So he called. I told him to give me time for a lil' anxiety attack. He basically went home and told his Mutti how much of a nut I am and got permission to come back over to my house if I wanted. I really juss wanted to go to bed and forget about everything at that point. But we stayed up and talked until 4:30 in the morning. Oy vay....

I gave up trying to sleep at like 10:30, I got up and decided to dress all punk like. I got my guilty black shirt and big baggy pants. I did my hair in a nice messy pony and kept my black glasses on all day. It was around 11:30 when I got impatient from being away from Derek and called him. I figgered he was still in bed. I knew it depended on who answered the phone if they'd wake him up or not. I didn't meant to wake him up, but his Mutti answered and was all urgent in waking him up after what she heard about me last night. haha...

About an hour later he came over. He came over when I decided to go to EFY in place of Natalie Best next week. woo woo! After that Mutti made me eat some stuff... Scott and I sat by each other and Scott decided to be..um..himself..weird and basically reached over and grabbed my boob. I screamed and like clutched my chest. You should've seen the look Derek gave me. But that was definately a no no and creepy. Then we went downstairs and sat on my couch. We put our heads together....and...um...fell asleep. He was supposed to BE at work at 3.... he didn't leave until like 3:30! He kept saying "dont worry" ...honestly. He has to stop being late for everything b/c of me! It bugs me.

I cried watching "My Girl", well, the ending of it. I fell asleep, took a nice nap...woke up to Mutti shoving more food in my face...and went to Young Womens. woowoo. Dance practice after that...but now here I am....typing the biggest novel you've ever since about the past that doesn't really matter that much! Seriously, it's been like what...3 hours....juss plain typing... about the past. I could write a book with juss a couple days of my life written in my journal with all the details I put in it.

I've had a huge headache for awhile now.

I have so many day dreams I can't keep track of them. I want to write them down. I can't sleep anymore b/c I wanna play them all out. They're weird tho. I'm weird. Weird.

I keep wanting to pig out on food.

I'm watching "Who's Line Is It Anyway?".

I don't know what to do for when Resa comes home. I'll be busy all the next week so I can't hang out with her!

This month is so busy I dont know if I could fit a job in it or if I want to! I should take a month to find a job eh!

I'm tired...going to bed...cleaning my room...then packing to leave for Laurel Retreat at like 1 in the afternoon on Thursday! whoop whoop! Yay..

"She lets herself go.."

It's 1:30 in the morning and relief floods over me. He got on the computer, so we can talk on msn now! wweee! Suddenly I feel the need to spend every waking moment with him.

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