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Listening to: Dashboard Confessionals - So Beautiful
Feeling: distracted

2nd of July

It was Thursday night when he came over for our last sleepover. Yes, if you haven't figgered it out Derek and I have had sleepovers a couple of nights this past week. haha...Don't get any bad/wrong ideas tho. I had taken like two naps already that day and I had the whole house cleaned while my parents were away. I was going to mow the lawn but with my luck and mowers...it didn't happen. I couldn't figger it out.

So I wasn't tired at like 1 in the morning so I went out and took a walk...barefoot and everything. Yeah, I was walking down the street and this cat was walking down the street toward me. The cat sat down and waited until I came to it. I sat down in the middle of the street at like 1 in the morning and played/petted this cat. I juss sat there for a half hour. Nobody passed, nobody cared. After awhile I got up and started to walk home....it followed me a lil' bit. I walked in the dark in the middle of the street, barefoot the whole way. *shrugs*

I came home and read a lil' bit...it was around 2 in the morning when I kind of got tired. I fell asleep like sideways on my bed with the lamp on. I woke up to Derek laying like sideways on my bed like staring at me saying my name. Needless to say, he was wide awake and there was -no way- this child was going to sleep anytime soon. I decided to use the method that most parents use....wear their child out like physically until they're so tired they want to go to sleep. At first I sat and took pictures of us together....he had a lil' too much fun with that so that stopped quickly and I decided to tickle him. So we kinda tackled each other and I tickled him. Around 5 in the morning he finally got so tired he couldn't do anything anymore. We both went to sleep and I don't ever really remember waking up until around 9.

Around 10:30 I decided I should get up and try mowing the lawn again before it became the hottest part of the day. I couldn't get it started so I made Derek do it. I mowed the front and back lawn in like 2 hours and I made Derek go back to bed. Mr. I-can't-survive-a-day-without-at-least-7-hours-of-sleep.

I played on the compy with the pics that I took that night while he was asleep and I read a lil' bit. He got up and I attempted to feed him (apparently I can't feed him effeciently enuff) he wanted to go to Wendys. So we went to Wendys and came home....and Mutti had come home by then. The house was already a wreck tho. Why do I even bother?

That night was the fireworks. I was invited to Resas lil' party and the only person I knew was Mandy but it's not like we're close or anything and I haven't seen her for years. I juss felt a lil' uncomfortable and I wasn't really interested in the movies they were watching. I juss felt weird so I told Resa I was going to go. Of course, she has to remark "Oh fine, go and be with Derek." That kinda hurt. Everyone juss assumes when I leave them I'm going to be with Derek. I have a family and other friends too ya know. I was going to be with my family for the fireworks. So I left with yo-honna and my chinese. Then I went home and had a lil' fit b/c I was stressed and that lil' spill with Resa didn't help me. Derek shaved my legs. (I dont know why he enjoys that?) Then we drove to his house where he ate dinner (b/c I can't feed him enuff) and I ate the rest of my Chinese. Then we drove up to the soccer field and kind of ate there and decided to go up to the park to watch the fireworks which was where Dereks family was supposed to be. But on the way to the car we had a lil' agruement thingy haha, it was kinda playful. Kinda started when I told him that I wasn't on my period anymore and he said "coulda fooled me" and so yeah, I attempted to beat him. I kicked his butt a couple of times and he got all annoyed and we had rude sarcastic remarks to each other. He did his lil' smack and shove at the same time. His driving drove me nuts tho b/c he was all irritated. Then we like stopped talking to each other. We went to the park and I laid out my blanket and stuff and laid down and he stood up and looked around for a very long time. I wasn't going to speak nor invite him to sit down by me. There was definately tension there.

There was one radio there tho that was playing. Thank goodness. The only song that I actually heard was the one that reminds me of my Kirri and since Derek and I weren't talking to each other I like started bawling b/c I was thinking of Kirri and our song. *tear*

Anyway by the end of the night of course Derek and I were laying down on the blanket and I reached up and held his hand while he put his arm around me. The view I have to admitt wasn't as good as on the hill, but yeah. After that we were the only ones there at the park still talking and laying down. Derek got a lil' freaked out when he saw the cops and the spotlights. The cops came by and scanned the park with his spot light. So Derek juss jumped up and like took off for the car basically. I slowly got up and went back. He's such a scardy cat of cops. We went home and I went to bed. There, the end of Fireworks this year.

Claine asked what I was going to do that Saturday. I told him since 'yo-hunna' was a car freak that I was most likely going to the Cruise In at 6. But of course, we had to waste time until then and what else does he like to do? Shopping. For school clothes with the like 140 dollars he always seems to have?

We went to the Buckle at the mall and these guys/gals are like paid to be all friendly and mingle in others business juss to get them to buy something in their store. Well, this guy decided to try and persuade us to get some things that Derek was looking at (a baby blue shirt). And Derek being his passive self, wasn't going to tell the guy what he was interested in or not (reminded me of my bro). So I stepped in. I told the guy at the store everything I (derek) wanted. This guy was like our slave...and he knew every lie in the book to get us to try and buy something. It was so obvious he was flat out lying to us and Derek didn't even get it! So I decided to mess with the guy. He would go and get some shirts that he thought Derek would be interested in. I would have the guy keep going back and forth, getting other colors, other styles. I was like being all bossy to like what colors and styles I would allow Derek to wear. I was like an absolute no on the yellow and pink and eeww all the preppy shirts. He would go around and say "This is my favorite!" Yeah, he said that like 5 times. He was totally preppy and trying to turn my boy into a prep. Every once in awhile he'd come back with some stuff for me b/c I was focusing so much on Derek. "I brought these pair of green capris for you if it's your style juss to keep you interested to." Ha ha! Lame! I was mean tho "Oh, do you have that in another color?". I said that about almost everything he brought out. haha. So he'd go back...and he juss stopped talking to Derek b/c it was obvious I was the one that got to decided everything. haha I kept focusing on Derek. He was like our slave for about 15 minutes and in the end we juss walked out and didn't buy a thing. If he was going to flat out lie to me, I was definately going to mess with this guy. haha...I'm so mean. Derek didn't have the heart to mess with him, besides the fact that he didn't even know the guy was lying to us juss so we'd buy something. Derek even seemed to get suckered into it with that blue shirt. Sheesh... Still shocked me Derek didn't realize that. But yeah, I'm mean I juss walked away.

But yeah, did I ever tell you how much I hate shopping? This time I decided to sit down juss outside Dillards while he looked for an hour er so juss fer shirts. There was a 5 for 10 sell there and Resa wasn't there and I was bored so I did the sale and played with all the junk I got from Claires. I was wearing my pink skirt and white shirt and so I was getting alot of stares. Derek went in and tried on a tank top kind of like a wife beater. Yeah, one word, HOT. hehe...he's such a skinny white boy.

After that we went to the Cruise In in front of AutoZone even tho we were supposed to meet Jordan somewhere b/c he didn't wanna be with Sam and Eddie anymore. hahaha...yeah, we didn't find them. We went and bought like 7 bucks worth of candy bars and had like dinner. There was a couple there that let us borrow their blanket in front of their truck. I think I drooled over the cars more than Derek did. It was hilarious he did this arm around me and like scratching my back while the rest of him was like lurched forward drooling, pearing, googling at these cars. He was like trying to acknowledge me and the cars at the same time. Yeah, wasn't workin' but that's okay it was funny. I mostly flipped out over the 'shexy' cars like Stingrays....Vipers...Lancers...and some...Cad name. Derek kept track of the ones I drooled over and so he can tell you what I liked the most. *shrugs* I go by looks, not speed. hehe....

Anyways...after that we went to Chili's. Finally, the right moment. When we were both hungry. We ordered two desserts. We got the Molten Cake and Cheesecake. Yum yum. By the time we finished those we were...both ..like sick. He ate like the -whole- molten cake and the leftover cheesecake. I ate -half- the cheesecake and that's all. Sheesh. We both drank like no other either. After that I kinda took him on a race/jog. I ran down the parking lot to Ross's where we both used the restrooms.

Then we played like hide and seek in the store. Hamud and some other kid was there, of course, they thought I was pritti or something and had to flirt with me and look at me all pervertedly.... But I was hiding from Derek and this guy thought I was hiding from Hamud, "Are you friends? Do you know him?" haha...So this strange guy was telling me where Hamud was so I like ran from that whole part of the store. Derek -finally- found me and tacklehugged me kinda. Cute.

After that he was looking at shirts there in the store and I got bored. So I went and found the door and waited until he saw me and I took off out the door and down the parking lot. That boy can run. I'm really slow tho. But yeah, I at least got to the car before caught me. He picked me up and everything in a skirt. eeek. haha I didn't really care tho. I thought he was gonna die tho. I sat on top of the car (where he put me) and watched him like have a heart attack. My bad. But he said it was fun. *shrugs* Should I do that anymore?

That's the kind of dates that make life fun tho. Not the whole dinner and awkward silence or convo going on. No dinner, dessert..no getting back into the car....running away from it spontaneously. hehehe....

Then we went home and sat in his car in front of my house and talked. We both talked about what we liked as in kissing...playing...hugs...words...etc. So now we both know more about what each other likes. He -definately- likes the ear snogging. haha Resa was right. And I kinda am likin' the kisses better. Yes, okay, I basically told my bf that his kissing sucks that night. So he's tried to changed so I like 'em better. I'm so horrible. Besides the fact that I've never really been into the whole kissin' thing. But how many ppl tell their bfs their kissing sucks? haha

We talked forever....of course, about what we liked and what it was going to be like when he went on a mission and when he'd come back and if we were gonna get married and everything. Yeah, the normal convos that we need to stop having. We stayed up until like 12:30. Since I hadn't had like a real meal that whole day (I only snacked) I was starving so I ate and watched Roseanne. It was a very interesting epsiode. Then I went to bed and didn't get up until noon. I had my outfit all ready for today. My red dress, with my black choker, shoes, anklet and braclets. Then I did my hair all crimped and curly. Yeah, I was hot. Derek and I had a hour an 1/2 dicussion about some religion stuff. I went home and ate dinner....and took a shower. Now I'm here typing for about an hour on the phone with Derek not talking like usual trying to decide what to do next. teehee....

I feel like readin the scriptures a lot right now....

But Saturday was a really nice, fun dating experience I haven't had for a long time since we've been together! hehe....

"Hey thanks, thanks for that summer..."

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