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Listening to: Ryan Cabrera - This Is True
Feeling: starving

Four Months

Yesterday was so fun. I juss hafta harp aboot the boy ..haven't done it for awhile. Go ahead...complain...

Yesterday I decided to sleep on Warrens (the neighbors) trampoline b/c I wanted to sleep outside like for the past two weeks. I went over to Natalies and watched Hercules...I was a wee bit hyper...It felt good to laugh. After that Natalie wanted a sleepover b/c it would be the only time we could have one for like the next two weeks I suppose...but she had a doctors appointment the next morning. After the movie we went and snooped around (what we do best) and of course, visited Ryker, I didn't mind I didn't wanna go home. Why ppl mind going to visit other ppls bfs I dont know.... Then we went up the canyon where Natalie slightly flipped out with the whole car, dark, windy road thing...so we went back to my house. We went downstairs, Natalies arms full of food and watched "Love Don't Cost A Thing" about a kid who pays this cheerleader to be his gf so he can be popular and they eventually fall in love on the quest of finding themselves. Then we went out on the tramp and went to bed, we were wiped out.

Derek was supposed to come and visit me in the middle of the night, but he didn't know I was sleeping out on the trampoline and that I had a friend sleeping over with me and there was no way of warning him of this anyway. So I juss turned on the kitchen light to scare him away. He attempted to visit twice. haha....I knew I heard him, I shoulda called out his name. I left a note on the door but he was too chicken to go to the door so he didnt see it. How disappointing.

Natalie and I woke up around 8:30 and talked on the tramp, went in and ate some waffles until Paula came and picked her up to go to the doctors. After she left I went to bed. At like 12:30 Natalie came back and jumped on me with the news that she could function in 'full activity' now ...as in driving and working. So b/c she could drive she wanted me to go with her to Sue's house to say happy Bday to Sue. I had my hair in braids all night so I was a big frizz ball still in the same clothes I wore the other day. I ended up going anyway...sang to her, talked...then Natalie took me home. I went back to bed. I had been thinking about Derek for like the last 12 hours b/c he didn't come visit me and I was wondering when/if he was coming over that day b/c we were going to go swimming. So after I couldn't sleep anymore b/c I was thinkin' of Derek...I got up and changed...and attempted to do my hair. Derek showed up soon after that.

He took me to the bank and the store...where we got Jones...then he had to go home and help his Mutti with the groceries and get the car. He said he'd be right back. About 2 hours later he shows up in his swimming suit...tennis shoes and socks...and a shirt. I had my swimming suit on under my clothes and sat in the kitchen reading the BofM the whole time while everyone else was sleeping. We got in the car...his driving was seriously scaring me. He says he knows where his 'boat' is...but he doesnt! So we had a lil' power battle...I wanted to cling to the car and not his hand and he wanted my hand. We went to the Logan Aquatic Center, it was jam packed and way to salty. I knew from the looks of it the only fun we'd have was juss with each other and nothing else.

I swear, he's like a girl. He went in the locker room and got a locker for all his junk...he took like forever juss to take off his shoes and a shirt. He insisted that I got a locker for my stuff (as if I had anything of value) which consisted of my shoes, a towel, my shirt and shorts. I pretended to use money for a locker juss to please him. Sometimes you juss gotta give in to 'em juss to make 'em shut up...

So Derek hasn't been swimming for like 3 years. Besides the fact that he's afraid of/hates water...I figgered this was gonna be juss...great. So we stayed in the 3'6 the whole time...he was very brave to be in the 5'0 section once keeping in mind he's 6' what? He refused to dunk his head and/or jump in the pool. Of course, he being a boy figgered out how much fun it is in a swimming pool with a girl and what you could do to girls. He's wrapping my legs around him and he's walking around...he's pushing and pulling a floating girl around....he's throwing and picking me up all the time. Yeah, he enjoyed that. Apparently that's what he wanted to do the whole time. He'd walk around with me and then randomly attempt to pick me up and throw me in the water as if I'd go under or something. But that's not the worst of it...

If I ever got behind him..or anywhere near him really and touched him...scared him rather, he doesn't know what I'd do to him or anything so he'd juss push me away. If he started walking backwards and I'd follow him, he'd look back and notice he was going into a deeper section and immediately stop so I like run into him and he'd shove me away and run back to the shallow end. So naturally, after awhile I got sick of being pushed away....I got bored with someone that refused to even get their hair wet (aka dunking) and refused to jump into the pool. I got bored with being in the shallow end the whole time and being pushed around by him. It wasn't nice that he'd randomly throw me in like I'd go under, when I couldn't do anything like that to him. He could hold/throw/push/pull me but I couldn't really touch him w/o him freaking out. After awhile I started to try and avoid him for my sanity. I got out of the pool and jumped in a couple times by myself and even went to the diving board. The highest one! It was freaky, but I did it. Insta-wedgie I'll tell you what.

We were swimming around for like 3 hours...in the 3'6 section mostly. After awhile he suggested we'd go a lil' bit before they closed, I slightly pouted mainly b/c we were sitting in the kids pool at the time. So I got up and went to the big slide! The one that goes like straight down. Yeah, never done that before...Derek doesn't like my pouting so he didn't come...so I went! Insta-wedgie. I came down and told him that if he went on that slide we could go. So we did, he went first, lets juss say it scared the crap outta him...teehee.. It was funner the second time. Then I waited forever for him to change and come back out. I didn't even get clothes on I juss dried my hair and wrapped a towel around me. He got sunburnt and I didn't even get a lil' bit! Amazing...

He took me home so we could get ready b/c he was taking me out to dinner. He said he'd be 'right back' which I thought ment like 2 hours like it usually is, but while I was in the shower he came over. It took me forever to get out of the bathroom, but when I did I got some good results. I decided to dress up for this for some odd reason. I had wet hair and I wore the turquiose dress he absolutely loves. I wore my dangling necklace and hair clips, it totally matches. I thought my legs looked kinda nice too. Of course, as soon as were out of Muttis sight he had to express his feelings on how hot I was and squeeze me to death.

We went to Panda Express. I hadn't ate anything all day...wasn't really feeling good. I LOVE their FRESH Orange Chicken! He's never been but as soon as we got there I was in line and got what I wanted and left him in the dust. I got rice and chicken and an egg roll (yes, an egg roll). I attempted to eat the whole thing, it was so good. Juss talking about it makes me hungry. Afterwards he looked out the window across the street and his eyes lit up...Oh crap...he juss saw Cold Stone...he wants ice cream now. Of course he wasn't full after his plateful of food..plus some of mine. So we went over there and stood in line annoyings everyone trying to figger out what we'd get...then we ended up getting a smoothie (an unusual request, who goes to Cold Stone juss for a smoothie?!) which irked the lady some more for waiting the whole time juss for that...we went outside and shared it...how romantical.

He said the rest of his plans were to watch a movie like Signs...he was attempting to get something I haven't seen....I told him Natalie had all the movies he had in mind. We went over there and borrowed "What Lies Beneath" b/c he hadn't seen it. Of course, he refused to go to his house....and his sunburn was 'killing' him and he was on the verge of crying. I almost felt bad. We put the movie on upstairs...during the movie I stole his shirt (OW OW) and sat on him and put Aloe Vera on his back and shoulders where his sunburn ish. Mutti told me that he could put that stuff on his own back...I said, "Oh no, he's gonna need help...I getta do it!" The parental units came in every once in awhile to see what we were doing. Sheesh..if we were gonna do anything we surely wouldn't do it upstairs where they were...we're not that dumb. hehe....I wasn't really feeling all to well at the time tho...so sitting up kept me awake and watched the movie. He's so hot w/o a shirt...mmm mmm baby if you know my weakness of nice lookin' shoulders. Yes, I know it's a weird attraction. Near the scary parts he came and sat on the couch and we cuddled so I had something to grab. He said once, "Don't worry I gotcha" as if it was comfort...then I noticed he still didn't have his shirt on....*drools and holds on even more* But sitting there got me a lil' sleepy. So after the movie he was like out the door mainly b/c it was past midnight and I was tired. He picked me up and rocked me back and forth in the air on the porch before he left. It totally relaxed me and I was okay with him leaving after that.

Personally I think the whole 'anniversary' thing is lame and I don't know why ppl even keep track of it but hey, whatever puts cream in yer twinkie. Then again, I don't really get the point of saying 'I love you' and hugging someone either...it juss seems to make ppl feel betta so everyone is supposed to do it. But it was nice while it lasted. I don't know why...but July 19 was the one and only day that I felt TOTALLY secure being with Derek. It felt good.

Happy Anniversary Derek...

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