(ha! I didn't lose this entry! Novel 1,023....)
If you get bored easily, don't read this HUGE book of my life. hehe
I keep having this reoccuring thought/dream in my head. It plays over and over. I really wanna do this but I don't know how.
I keep dreaming that I went to the boys house and knocked on the door and his Vatti answers and says that he's grounded and can't see me (b/c of me) and I smile all giddy like and say, "That's okay I juss came to bring him some stuff he'll need" Then I start unloading my armfuls of useless crap in his arms explaining each one...like "Here's his book, he'll need that...and then a jacket he left.....and then this bag and this bunch of papers he'll need tonight...." I just start handing him things and he holds his hands out as if I gave him the kitchen sink and expects more, looking annoyed. Then I smile sweetly and nod slightly and say, "yeah, I think that's about it" and I turn around juss about to leave but suddenly turn back around and say "Oh yeah, forget some more stuff" I kiss my hand and then like hit his Vatti wherever he is free/open like an extra hand or something and say, "Oh yeah, *smooch* can't forget that one he'll need that before he goes to bed tonight" and then I fumble threw my back pockets and pull out a lil' pic of me and put it in the hand I 'kissed' and say, "That's juss in case he misses me. Do you think he has a picture of him on hand? Oh, that's too much trouble nevermind. I'll go." Then I turn around and leave him. Meanwhile his Mutti ish at the kitchen table listening to this convo and Dereks at the bottom of the stairs watching his Vatti get loaded with useless crap from me that I only brought juss to see him/his house. *shrugs* Then after the kiss and the picture they all start laughing. "Oh, tell him I miss him and love him! Ok buh bye now!"
*shrugs* I wanna do that for some odd reason. I don't know to show that I miss him when he gets grounded from me? Oh well. I don't have that many useless things to give him....I could give him letters from me...but yeah...Oh well. It juss won't stop playing in my head.
So yesterday I went to auditions. I thought my immune system would die or I'd pass out or something would go wrong. The only thing that was wrong was the 3 hours we stayed there and the hot room we were all trapped in. My face went like beet red b/c it was so hot. I didn't get that nervous, in fact after the first two hours and her not even starting auditions for the Family Reunion I got bored and started auditioning for random parts for "You Can't Take It With You".
I tried out for the agent and for the Grand Duchess Olga....I'd laugh my head off if I got that part. For the agent everyone was in a nice lil' clump instead of a line so nobody could really go 'first' so I juss walked down and walked right in front of everyone...I wasn't thinking seriously about the part so I juss went and did. You have to make some of this fun right? I was bored....and needed to make ppl laugh. I figgered everyone was taller than me so I kind of played the passive agent. And for the Grand Duchess, only a few people tried out I guess nobody really thought too much about hers....so I tried it.
The next one I tried out for was Tiffany the six year old. I was nervous about that one b/c that's the one I kinda wanted and was thinking about. She says a lil' prayer and in the script part it has "thank you for..." so I figgered you could make up your own thank yous so I said "Thank you that all these old people at this reunion are still alive..." and then at the end I said, "Please bless all those who swore today that they won't be punish!" and gave my lil' kid faces. It was a sincere 6 year old prayer okay?! In one of the parts the girl is required to swear so we had a couple of girls swearing before for that one part. So me being a smart alec thought to bring that up in the prayer.
I was laughing to hard to try and finish so I get up and left and Wharton juss looked annoyed. Everyone else laughed to. I couldn't help it! hehe She gives that look to the stupid boys and still likes 'em. *shrugs* A lot tried out for that part tho. The lil' kid was popular I think the only one that was realistic, was Aubrees, she was really good. The other were juss...acting.
This is freaky b/c I don't know who's reading my journal and someone might be offended if I don't mention their talents while during the auditions...*shrugs* sorry? You learn someone else you know is reading your journal everyday.
I thought auditions would tear me up mentally...but it only did a lil physically and it was juss like everyone else. We had headaches b/c we were so hungry. Auditions were actually kinda fun. Made my day, made me laugh. I could do that for three hours each day. How can Wharton ever -not- like her job, besides the bills? We find out who's in the show/class today (hopefully before schools out so I can change classes today) and then who's casting what after school. I'm not shure where she posts tho. *shrugs* We'll see tho. It's okay either way for me.
To help me with the auditions I took some of those pills that doc said would relax my innards an' all...boy, he shure werent kidding. I know now when you take 'em you better be around a porcleain throne within the next two hours cuz you gonna need it. Shure relaxed me physically and mentally it only tenses subconciously (?). I don't think about it and make myself nervous about it...it juss happens behind the scenes like in my sleep and I don't really know/realize it til I feel myself stressed. Stupid brain.
I went home and decided I should ask the boy before the day of the dance like last time juss to be nice. I was happy b/c I actually had a car to go to the store to buy him a cantelope. I didn't think I'd have a car and thought I'd have to walk to wait until Friday. But noo...this is two days in advance. I'm doing good!
So before I went I asked Mutti what a cantelope looked like so I could get the right thing....(shut up) and then I went and eventually found the produce....and then there were mounds and mounds of many ...Balls! All different shapes, sizes and colors! On the whole bin thing was balls and I was supposed to find like a green/brown offcolored ball in all those yellow, orange and green balls! It was embarassing. So I walked around each bin about 2 times looking for a cantelope. I definately wasn't going to ask for help b/c they'd laugh at me! I finally found in the corner two small (to me) balls like looked like the ones described and finally found the sign that said "cantelope" in it's bright neon orange and yellow... which was labeled on bin next to it thank you very much. I grabbed it and got a Jones and some bubblegum..mmmm... Then I came home and wrote on the cantelope "Since we can't-elope would you like to go to the Girls Choice Dance with me?" and it was kinda dumb to put the date since it was like two days away so I was debating putting.."Nov. 19" or "Saturday". Which one was more clearer and made me looked prepared? I took it over to him and said hi. *shrugs*
When I got home I found out that Natalie called me so I called her back and she wanted to double date with me. Yay! A load off my back esp since I juss asked. So we made some plans. It was funny, the whole 'matching shirts' theme....I have no romantical bone in my body and I'm soo not traditional.... Natalie and her date are doing black shirts and I figgered, it doesn't have to be matching...maybe the same color...and maybe the same style...so we could wear both of -his- shirts maybe? hehe His button up shirts..hehe! yay! Pizza and prolly ice skating too....sweet... He deserves it. I'm glad I getta take him. I heart him.
I was thinking about it....
That date of Sadie Hawkins...is the 19th...
And I wonder if he remembers the whole anniversary thing we have...b/c I shure didn't remember until now....
So maybe if he doesn't remember at the end of our date/night I'll whisper to him (like he does when he's serious/sincere) and say "Happy Anniversary". How long has it been? I'm too lazy to calculate it all out.
It's so nice to say I'm leaving at 4 o'clock and I'm not coming back until about 11:15! Working at four and then either shopping or going straight to the cast party and playing until 11. I can't wait to play! weee! Then sleep, a shower and then the date!
I think I'm in loveee! I can't believe I'm going on a date! eee with him! so hot! hehe I've decided to become twitterpatted b/c it makes him laugh.
It's official. I'm going on a date with a SEX GOD this saturday!