I'm a sad, lonely, jealous girl now.
My kitti is now my constant buddy along with my TV and bed. Food has also become my resort for happiness and taking up time so I don't have to think. But for me, thats okay, I can eat whenever I feel sad. I'm back in the 100's now I believe. Yay for me.
I'll diagnose myself.
I learned that the disease of teenagers is not juss being a 'teenager' the disease kind of has a name it's called Hypoxia. The disease of a teenager is hypoxia. When we are convinced we know something and eventually we find out the truth. And it's not like there's a cure for it, it juss happens over and over again when yer a teen. You don't learn from it obviously. But along with being convinced of things, it also leads us to believe we are invincible. Nothing can harm us. Sometimes we get a slam back into reality.
Teenage boys are convinced they can drive fast and crazy and not get hurt until they roll the car. Do you think they learn? No. They go and do it again. Sometimes girls are convinced they are in love with an abuser or are doing the right thing by staying with them, until they realize they aren't. Do you think they learn? No. They go back out and pritti much fall in love again with another abusive person. *shrugs*
Of course we all do this all our lives, it's just more evident when we are teenagers. I have a pet peeve when grown ups underestimate teenagers thoughts and tell them how they are thinking. I hate it when they come back and say "I told ya so" as if we weren't capable of coming to the same conclusion, the only difference is that we didn't -act- on that decision, but we were -cable- of thinking realitically through it also. Anyways...that was random and prolly didn't make sense.
I think I'll stay in my dungeon for the rest of the weekend and wallow in self pity with my companion and eat chocolate.
We're drifting even apart from being friends.