The sucky part about writing in journals is that you write it all down, read it and realize how stupid it is and then want to ..erase it all. Scratch that whole entry. Try again. But thas kind of the purpose of journals tho eh? At least I didnt say it outloud to the wrong person huh?
I read what I wrote and yeah, realized what I was saying. I was rationalizing lying. I wont lie. So scratch that whole idea. I just..had a small battle in my head. I totally took a small situation and blew it out of proportion. Its really not a big deal.
I'm just angry that I get punished for other peoples trust issues. Either way its gonna be bad so I'll just do it the ..most 'right' way possible. heh I so totally freaked myself out when I heard what I was saying. I'm good I'm good.
I haven't made a decision yet tho... Its all just gonna kinda happen as it happens. Hope my first reaction isnt to lie. ::sighs:: I choose the drama this week.
Listening to Celtic music. I'm turning into him.
Eating tomatoes. MMMMmmmm
Mindy gave me a Journal CD thing so I have..a journal ...on a CD at home.. so I can type it all out! Instead of write it and buy books! Kinda cool..not as cool as this journal but still.
I was so tired last night I went to bed at 10pm. What's wrong with me?
My body hurts so bad. My shoulders won't relax and I keep getting a charlie horse in my right calf. grrr
Went to Lagoon with Adam on Monday. We did like 12 rides. He just..sat there... not affected by the rides at all.. I was there hanging on and screaming or whadeva. He laughed a couple of times, mainly at me.. I don't really know if he enjoyed it or not... He seemed slightly angry the whole time. Maybe I'm imagining things. Sometimes he'd act excited and play with me back... but it felt like I was the only one excited in my immature way.
Deciding the fate of the day...