Delight in Small Things
Random thought of the day:
When you see people in the morning and say "hi, how are you?" you dont know what they did last night, I mean less than 12 hours ago and you have no idea what's happened.
You never know if they were sick in bed, if they were fighting with someone, crying themselves to sleep, having the best night of their life, contemplating suicide. You never know, and you usually dont get that story, the part that matters, when you simply ask "how are you?". Such a simple question, but yet a complicated answer like "Do you love me?" and "Are you happy?"
So the boy might be able to graduate next semester. A semester early! Funny my first reaction was "Yay then he can marry me in the fall". Of course, he ignored that and thought about the stress of it. That'd be really cool if he could do that tho.
I mean, that was my dream...but ya know, I've learned I might not have dreams of my own but I'd love to help others acheive theirs and get just as much satisfaction. He asked what I would do if I had the money, what would I do for -me- specifically involving money. I couldn't think of a thing. That irks me. Everyone can think of stuff they'd get if they were rich! I need ideas! All I can think of is travelling...
My wrist still hurts. Grrr.. I just want it to break. So I can say I've had a broken bone..mwhahaha. jk
If he worries about being a 'bad' boyfriend all the time. Maybe I should be more paranoid about what kind of a girlfriend I am. He needs to know he can't fix all the problems.
He asked me basically to profess my love to him in the car the other night. It was like 1am and I was dead tired. Not that I'm giving excuses, but it was really bad timing and my mind was blank.
I know theres a list of reasons why I'm with him, but the only thing that came to my mind was 'happiness and love'. I guess he wanted mroe 'logical' than that. So now I'm thinkin of that logical list. I told Mutti some of the things, she said to tell him everything I said to her. When I talk about him I can give the whole list. When I'm with him, I just enjoy that list. heh
ugh, stuck here another 1 1/2 without him.
Focus on the positive, not the negative.
It'll be okay right?
P.S. I started my period! I have a schedule! Weee! And he helped me! He's gooood...