Listening to: TransSiberian Orch - Mad Russian's Christmas
I hate this school.
Nothing more needs to be said on that.
This is NOT a good day to talk to Wednesday.
I get annoyed at every little thing.
It all just pisses me off.
An especially bad Monday.
Ya know, I totally forgot to eat today.
I ate a lil' breakfast and then didn't eat like like 12 hours later at night before bed.
Jordan was like the only one that spoke to me today.
I realized then the desperate measures I was taking for change.
The stupid things I have been doing b/c I'm so desperate for change:
-Forgetting to eat
-Stressing myself to the max so I can go on vacation
-Being wishy washy about vacation
-Thinking of dropping that stupid class just for vacation
-Jail Bait Incident
-never feeling the homework I did that day was enough
-freaking out about grades
-freaking out about finals week and how to get out of here
-freaking out about the week before finals week (I think its more stressful than Finals week)
-thinking about leaving this stupid college forever
-fearing the chance of having to stay for an extra semester
Just get me out of here...at least for a lil' while, a week or two and I'll be fine.
Its like that Wyoming feeling all over again. How serious am I about leaving this place? Is it going to destroy me? Am I juss gonna threaten to leave the whole time and never do until its over like Wyoming? I tend to do that. I know I'm strong enough to go through crap like that..this... but sometimes it's just..nice not to be ..strong.