Listening to: Michelle Branch - Here With Me
Sit back and watch my world disappear
The sirens are on time today.
Our emails are getting faker and faker...
Everytime I write him I have to think
"am I in the mood to be fake?" and it's usually a no...
So I don't email him so much anymore...
The more I read his emails...
and seeing how picky he is
how high maintenance he is
and his family 'togetherness'
I wonder.. why or even how I liked him so much.
I was so right when I thought a guy like that would never be with me. I was right when I wrote in my journal several times "Note to self: Dont fall in love with Adam"
No one will ever be good enough for him.
No one can please a man like that.
Ha, I feel stupid because I thought I could be the exception.
"You will likely not find that perfect person, and if you did, there would certainly be no interest in you."
I keep thinking "the woman that can handle and please that man will be a great woman, I hope they find each other" but then I think... I don't think that woman exists, so why do I wish it for him? Because I care.
He wants careers/religion status' that require him to be married within a year. HA. I laughed so hard. Yea, him, a year, married, actually content! No way.
"I know you had to go away
I died just a little..."
"I never will forget
That look upon your face
As you walked away
Without a trace
And I understand that
You did what you had to do
And I thank you,
I thank you.
Thank you for letting me see who you really are before we got too serious.