Listening to: Alabama - Angels Among Us
I wish I could throw up.
Please, stop thinking negatively.
Hey, I think I might be able to cry. I can't name how many times I've randomly cried here in this office.
Busy day. Jailbait came into my room to say bye this morning. Got up a lil' bit later and got ready and left at 8:45. Got to SLC in exactly an hour and a half. Dropped off the dog, went to school, stopped by Subway. Went to Grandmas got some more clothes, came back to the house to see if the dog ripped anything apart yet. Hopped on the bus and went to work. Ate Subway aanndd...back to boredom.
I asked if I missed anything on Wed and Thurs since I took off work, he said he was "busy all the time". Which ment nothing really happened. Well, at least I get hours.
Levi is now emailing me. What'd I do? I'm really starting to see all the hints that he's been dropping that I ..should've caught. I'm so stupid.
After work going back on the bus, getting the dog, don't forget the present to Kellie, attempting to find Kellies house and the rest should be fine. Should be. Yah, fifth wheel again. I wonder how the dog situation will go. I wonder if I'll be able to eat food...
School is over. Just worried about grades now which I shouldn't. I can't go home for like another week or two. Sigh. Paranoid about Levi. Paranoid about Jailbait. Paranoid about Ricker and his line of "My girlfriends not here, you wanna come over?" What does that mean?! Paranoid about Jordan, who isn't texting me anymore for some unknown reason. And Dallin is getting married. Engaged tonight. Why is everyone ditching me? And those I don't wish to be around are like stuck on me?
"Tell me how would you feel?
You'd probably give up to
If nobody believed in you."
-Joe Nichols : If Nobody Believed
I just want to be held for the rest of the month without giving my heart to anyone.
"What if God quit trying?
What if he just walked away?"