Listening to: Daniel Powter - You Had a Bad Day
The boss is angry today.
When he yells "shit". Thats when I run.
I messed up again. Shock.
I can't believe I did it again.
You'd think I'd learn.
It was a deadline.
And somehow...I don't feel bad.
I don't have that gut wrenching feeling like I'm going to get fired or yelled at. I'd rather get fired really. Another excuse to quit life.
I'm acting like I care.
Going through the physical motions.
I apologized. Does no good though.
I'm avoiding him.
I've screwed up so much.
I think I don't care anymore.
I think I'm slipping into depression again.
I don't feel bad.
Patsy sent me an email from youtube about having a bad day. It made me laugh. She's sweet; trying to make me feel better.
Grandma made me eggs and potatoes. I heart her. Almost feels good to be back in my bed.
I think I lost Jordan.
I look at his picture, I just stare.
I realize how scared I am of him.
Not for the reason I'm afraid of others.
They might force their way into my life.
Jordan isn't that kind of scary...
Maybe it's just his size.
Maybe cuz I might fall in love.
Maybe it's cuz he's a human with feelings.
He's sincere, he's gentle, he's positive.
Maybe he doesn't treat me like crap...
I think this is a good day to get out of the office.
I think I'll go to court and the post office.
Maybe I won't come back...