Listening to: Evanescence - Everybody's Fool
Suddenly, I'm sick!
Ok I was a brat.
I didnt get sinus pills from the doctor while I was there and I knew I had a sinus infection. But I didn't want one so I said no to the symptoms. I knew I shouldn't. I was told that I have a sinus infection. I didn't...want to believe it. Now I'm paying for it. Thank goodness it was a slightly easy correction. I don't have to talk to doctor again. You'd think I'd learn when the right times are to lie to a doctor. Pff.
Just so there is no second guessing me.
Just so there is no question.
I'll take ALL the necessary steps to get -everyone- off my back.
I'll take the stupid pills.
I'll get my teeth pulled on the 15th.
I'm not doing the therapist thing tho.
I'll be fine once you take the pain away.
I'm just stressed. Not depressed.
What I learned from my father, 'don't give them a reason to second guess (get mad, be sad, hate you etc) you'
That doesn't really make sense.
It made sense to me.
I'll be fine.
I can't tell if it's emotional or physical pain that hurts the worst anymore. It's all kind of a blur. But it doesn't matter. It's only a week er so of my life.
February just needs to come and go.
I just get mad/sad when I make stupid mistakes which seems to be all the month of January is for me.
I'm not perfect. I make mistakes.
Life isn't that bad. Really.
If this pain will go away!
I went to court with Ralph today on the Yousefi case.
The case I've been working since last Fall. It's interesting to see it in action and not just in paper. I learned what a big waste of time going to court is for Ralph. Ralph got chewed out for not having his client there, but if you really think about it, there was NO point/reason for her to come. Stupid. Yousefi's just whined and complained and they didn't even pass the "Return of Service" part let alone despute their case. I'm glad the Plaintiff didn't come, she would've wasted her time, like her lawyer did. The judges are funny, discreetly funny. It's all ironic. "That's why they have judges." "Don't talk to me about 'good service'." They don't tolerate the whining and excuses. I was there for two hours.
Then I went to Smiths to get my prescription. One day I'll spell that right. I went to get it, it cost $70 without insurance. I didn't have my info so I called me Mum, had the lady and Mum talk. They like went at each others throats really. She told Mum what she thought was wrong and Mum said simply 'I disagree with that' like the lady was supposed to know all. Anyways, they went at each others throats, finally got it figgered out and the lady hung up on me Mum. Ugh. This is like -bump- number like 30 today. I don't care anymore, it's nearing the end of the day. Bought the stupid pills for 5 bucks and made sure I had a lot of chocolate to go with it. I was having a bad day, it was going to end with chocolate. Then I went to pay and the machine shut down. She said I was bad luck. Gee, thanks. Finally paid for the crap and got out of there. Walked home and called Mum back and complained the whole time.
You'd think going home and going to bed should end the bumps in my day. Oh no no no. That would be too easy. I continued to complain to Mum. Minnie wanted to talk about bridal shower stuff. But she didn't want to end up being my 'therapist' and listening to my stress again. So she hung up kinda quickly. Ugh. I wanted to eat Ramen. Shrimp kind. I burnt myself on ramen a couple of times. I complained to Grandma. I finally just went to bed. Abruptly stopped talking to Levi. Forget this. I'm done.
All day something has gone wrong. I get over it and smile. Something else sucks. Smile; move on. Something else goes wrong. Smile; move on. I can't do it anymore. I can't fake it today. Maybe tomorrow. But for tonight.. I'm done.