Listening to: Avril - Girfriend
After the Cinderella Opera last night at the Capitol Theatre I went back to the hotel Shilo Inno, just down the street and slept over with me mum. Rode the outside elevator, whee! We watched a movie, "August Rush" until like 1am. It was cute. Cost 9 bucks though. Not my money...or hers I think. It was a business trip.
The bed was like huge and we were like on different sides and we both looked at each other, and it was like awkward and we ended up scooting closer to each other. We don't like being far apart.
We woke up around 6 or 7am and showered. I dont think I have showered in the morning in a long time. Then we packed up and went to breakfast.
It was all like...free. Her business or whatever was paying for it so I got a number one with eggs, potatoes, bacon and a biscuit.. mmm. I LOVE breakfast. That was AWESOME. I loved it. Mom said she wasn't hungry but she ate it all. I should've gotten a drink if I wasn't paying for it. We were checking out and he was totalling the charges and said "you rented a movie so can we add that to yer credit card?" Like he was...asking... so I was like "Well, no I do not want that charge" It was funny. He laughed. He needs to make that statement so I dont think I have a choice.
Then I followed Mum to her meeting place at the Hilton. I stole a juice from their breakfast line up outside the meeting room.
Then off to school I went. I went across the street from the Shilo to catch a bus. I saw a couple buses coming down the street so I kinda took off running to the bus stop. A bus was already stopped and the driver asked this guy standing there if I was running to catch up with him. So this stranger motions to me asking if I'm running for that bus. I shook my head no. I was still running when another bus came up and pulled up, I looked behind and stopped. The stranger yells "Oh you wanted THAT bus!" I nodded and then asked this random bus driver if he goes to 300 West. He did so I jumped on. I was like running to the bus ...that was behind me... and it confused everyone.
I got off at 3rd West and walked down to school. Like 10 minutes late, didn't miss much. I mostly listened to music videos. I got "Girlfriend" by Avril stuck in my head. Again.
Then I went and took my interview thats due on Monday I just remembered. He said I could review it and stuff. I'm like "No, no one needs to see/hear me on that webcam. My teacher can see it to give me a grade, but that's it." haha I HATe my voice on recordings and stuff its all high and annoying. And the picture made my teeth look yellow and some white and my facial expressions all contorted. Needless to say I came out self-concious. I hope nobody really sees me like that.
I decided I should start writing my four page paper thas due in like two weeks. I really didn't want to. But I got about 2 pages of BS already.... I'm working on it. It's going good. It's prolly the 'hardest' thing of this semester. I worked on that and went to work.
At work I ordered some Star Trek series or something for Patsy with my library card b/c she was so excited and her library didn't have it.
I went to court, the bank and mailed some bills. Weirdness: I went to court and theres a cop there that I always see and talk to. He asked me what I'm doing this weekend and I say not much cuz I don't really have any friends around here, they're all two hours away really. We kept going back to that subject and eventually he got out a post it and wrote down his name and number and told me to call him if I got too bored and we could go to a movie or something. Essentially, he was asking me out. K, this guy is as old as my father prolly, and I only know him as the cop with gray hair at the court house. So I walked out a lil'...uncomfortable and with a cops phone number. Does he really think I'd be SO bored that I'd call him and be comfortable 'hanging' out with him?
THEN on the way back to the office I was walking up the street....I was all smily b/c well I was having a good day and I was singing "Girlfriend" over and over in my head being amused with myself. So apparently, b/c I'm having a good day and all smily I get a lot of attention for it. So everyone on that street said hi to me as I walked by. One guy in particular had that look of like "Oo la la" I HATE that I know, that I can recognize that look. I Hate that I need to know that look so I can avoid it. It was like five seconds of "ew" feeling. Moving on...
So I got back to work and about an hour or so later I get a call of a guy David who says he's in the lobby of our suite waiting for the receiptionist and that he has papers for the attorney to look over. (I don't know where our receiptionist went, she's usually there....) So I went out to get the papers from this David. I walked in and it was that same "ew" guy.
He went from ...business and confident guy to ..like melting and nervous. He got out the fact that he saw me on the street. I said yeah, I remember you. He suddenly started stuttering and the papers he was holding were shaking and he was like stepping closer to show the papers and stuck out his hand asking my name. Then he acknowledged that he was nervous.
I had no idea what his problem was. Yeah, he saw me on the street and said hi. So what? Why is he nervous? Why is he shaking? Why can't he talk to me like he did on the phone?
His stuttering and nervous got so bad it was like obvious he was...'enchanted' I suppose and I was waiting any moment for him to just stutter "will you go out with me?". It was all just awkward. It's like...stay business like. I made no advance in any other way but standing there, talking normally, taking his papers and walking away.
It was just creepy and weird. Great, now he knows where I work. I hope Ralph doesn't take his case so I dont have to see him again. He has an accent I can't understand him very well. AND he looked like 35 or so.
Question: Why are all these old guys hitting on me?
K, I can handle in the twenties. In fact, I'm lucky if I can get someone in the 20's to acknowledge me. But 30 or 40? C'mon. I'm only 19, what makes you think I'd go out with you?
I haven't been hit on by that many ppl in one day in a long time.
About 4:30pm Mum came up to my office. She doesn't want to meet Ralph. She doesn't like lawyers and has already decided she doesn't like Ralph... But b/c Ralph is so oblivious to his surroundings it was easy to come in and out of my office without being seen or heard. He was on the phone most of the time too. So I showed her my music video that was stuck in my head and showed her my dead journal that I just found which I'm SO frickin' happy to find.
Did you know this day 3 years ago Derek asked me to Junior Prom? Weird and scary.
I got three years of my life back. I was deeply disturbed then. I LOVED dead journal. Anywhoo..
After work we walked down the street to Macaroni Grill. She's always wanted to go. So we went. I got Pasta Malono or something and she got the Mama's Trio. I was like talking the whole time. She mainly wanted to know what I was going to do about my constant headaches. I felt like I never shut up. It was annoying me. I was glad it wasnt a date with someone. I felt stupid. I just couldn't shut up!
She talked about the word 'codependent'. She wasn't sure of the meaning but she was confident that's what she was. Which is kinda scary when she 'diagnoses' herself b/c that usually means that I possess those qualities too. Basically that she takes over other ppls lives and is like...controlling. I can see her doing that.
I was paying for the meal, so I went to pay and she says "gimme yer card" and she hands it to the guy. Then he gives it back and she takes the folder thing that its all in and pulls out the card and reciept like its hers and she's going to sign it. She pulls it out and says "sign here and put the tip here" and blah blah. I'm like "...uh...mom... I think I can pay for this...just gimme that!"
I can't tell if she still thinks I'm not capable of doing things like that or if she just really instinctively takes over things like that. Either way I conclude she's codependent.
It was nice just me and her. Just talking. No place to go. No hurry. Downtown SLC finally together. Second meal together. Spending time. Vatti would never in a million years do that with me. Thas why I like to go out with Resa, she'll take the TIME to go OUT with me IN public. heh
We walked down the street to the Shilo and got her car and went to Grandmas. Later Mindy called and we decided to go visit them until about 9pm. We came back and I was like..freezing so I took another quick hot shower and went to bed. I was like seeing dots and everything was spinning. I dont think thas a normal symptom of just being tired. I crashed. With the lovely thought of sleeping in in the morning as long as my mind would allow.
I feel old. I can't sleep until noon anymore and I obviously can't function after staying up so late at night anymore. Man oh man.
It was a good day. Good breakfast, happy, smily, getting ...attention of some kind, eating all the time, shower and sleepy. Mmmm... A day like this will never happen again I don't think. I enjoyed it.