Listening to: Avril - My Happy Ending
Took my 65 dollar walk today.
I'm scared what this weekend will entail.
Didn't I say that I'd be pissed if I moved this Desert Star date to a different day to accomodate Natalie and Art and then be totally pissed when they end up not coming?
Well, here I am. Pissed.
Their excuse? No money. Legitimate. Why didn't they tell me this before the tickets sold out? They didn't even allow time for help. I planned this a month in advance, purposely. For them. So they could plan, save, ask whatever they had to do. Nothing. Absolutely nothing.
I want to say thanks in advance.
"It's to know that you were there
Thanks for actin' like you cared.
And makin' me feel like I was the only one.
It's nice to know we had it all.
Thanks for watching as I fall"
A part of me doesn't want to have this get together anymore. Another part says it's going to be spoiled by Natalie and Art trying to make up for it. A part of me feels that Jordan will make me feel stress. A part of me feels like I'll screw it all up with my attitude. A part of me HATES birthdays and 'surprise parties' and attention period. A part me just wants to go numb. Another part just wants to hide this weekend.
Getting boss ready for court now...