Listening to: Stone Temple Pilots - Creep
So... apparently Nathan sought out Natalie and told him about our 'dtr'. (I forgot to include that in this journal...hmmm)
A) What's a 'dtr'? (Learned it was 'determine the relationship')
B) Who is 'our'?
C) And.....What was determined?
I think someone is on a different page than me. I'm lost.
Natalie said he wanted to know if I had said anything to her about him. As in all the giggly girly gossip of "I like him". Which did NOT happen. And as far as this 'dtr' thing... what was determined cuz I shure as heck didn't know about it. Basically Nathan doesn't really know what he wants (he won't make an assertive decision) so he is kinda...swimming... and looking for any prompt to go either direction. Relationship or not. BUT he may forget there is another party that may or may not deterine the decision for him. As in a girl saying NO to a relationship. Sigh.
I guess I should have an opinion about this 'relationship' with Nathan before someone else does that for me too.
I think....it's a bad idea.
I feel it's going to end up like Levi Homecoming disaster. I don't wish to do that again. In fact, I don't really wish to date again... I kinda..quit. Not interested. And even if it didnt end up like Levi doing the whole "marry me" thing it'll be something else like "lets be friends" and then the next day kissing me or something. They either say "marry me" or do things WAY out of order (or both). Out of order meaning friends, no date, kiss, date, bf/gf, back to friends etc. Doesn't work for me. Either actually date me or not. Kissing is out of the question right now.
I don't think it's possible even if we wanted to have a relationship. He's going to SUU and currently I'm in SLC. And he sucks at texting. Oh, and he is a slightly boring, by-the-book person. Sorry, Not happening anytime soon hun.
I think he's easily broken. Besides I like big. :D