Listening to: Jesse McCartney - Beatiful Soul
Happy Birfday Mindy!!!
I lub you.
Always and forever.
My latest drama issue.
Went to FHE Monday night.
Got stuck with Kurts family.
Kids like 12 and under.
And then Jason.
All of which have the maturity level of a 8 year old boy.
Like #2 on my pet peeve list.
Maturity level is REALLY important to me.
We did a scavenger hunt at Gateway.
I hate 'group projects'.
Anyways, I was leaving.
I consequently left the same time Andy and Stephanie were leaving. Note to self: steer clear of them.
Andy assumed I had a car and asked where I was parked. I kinda almost jokingly said I didn't bring my car (I didnt mean to - I really didn't bring my car). He, of course, thought I was joking cuz of the way I said it. And was like "really where do you park around here?" and again I told him I didn't bring my car. He kinda laughed and said "What, are you going to walk then?" And I kinda gave a nervous little laugh trying to make that a joke (I really was gonna walk) And then he continues to question me about my car and where its parked. And again, I stated I had no car and I was gonna walk... (this is all a big mess) finally he kinda looks shocked and says "Are you serious? Are you really gonna walk?" blah blah.
I guess I didn't want him to know cuz he'd offer a ride and the situation with him and Stephanie is ...weird. But he eventually got that I was gonna walk and opened a door for me. Awkward. So I got in.
Okay, the irking part.
Stephanie = 18 yr new girl - everyone just met her on Sunday - doesn't even go to this school - all over Andy.
So I sat in the back as Stephanie is like flirting up a storm with Andy. Awkward. She's only been here like a day and a half! Andy doesn't even know her that well and she had taken a nap at his house before FHE? What is that about? They act like a couple after like one day. And I feel stupid sitting in there in the back witnessing all this. Does Andy really like a forward girl like that? Seriously?
Andy is my 'home teacher', I've been here for a year and half, and I've gotten one (now two) rides with him and my first time at his house on Sunday. She's been here a day and prolly has been in his truck more than I have let alone been at his house longer than I and b/c he's 'popular' she just climbed right up that ladder.
Now, I'm not saying I like Andy. If he likes girls that are that assertive/aggressive - thats his deal - I don't care. But as a 20 yr old watching all this from an 18 yr old 'new' girl. I feel really stupid and irked. I can't help but wonder if I was that forward/flirty/assertive if I'd get a guy that easily. Can't help but wonder if guys really like that type. But then I know my personality isn't like that. I don't chase the boys. I'm like too shy for that or something. I dunno.
And don't get me wrong Stephanie is a cute, funny, sweet girl - she's just really good at what she's doing and it drives me nuts b/c I -can't- do it. Not that I won't do it, but seriously I can't be that outgoing to be able to snatch a guy after one day. Not that I'd want to...but I guess I just don't have that personality... And maybe the worst part is that she is really nice, I like her so I can't HATE her for her shameless dating tactics.
I think the underlying reason of this frustration is because she can make friends A LOT easier than I can.
Some people just have those outgoing personalities and can get friends easily... and then theres me. Unpopular and not getting friends after like a year or two...
So I felt like an awkward third wheel once again (my calling in life). I feel like I'm interrupting a 'moment' or something if I talk to them. I feel too awkward to talk to Andy like a friend anymore cuz she is -always- there. I wonder if she really is like following him around. I wonder if he'll get sick of it. Or if he likes it and they actually do get together. That might be good cuz then I'll know they are together and I can proposely avoid them! Instead of trying to be friends with them as they flirt endlessly....
This is reminding me of Chelsea and Carlos' love spark...
Why do I always have to witness such sparks?