I'm not feeling very Christian this Sunday.
I came home for Christmas vacation right?
And my parents have a Rent-a-kid like usual right?
And then the lil' punk ass decides to run. But of course he has to take stuff with him.
He took off with my phone charger and my iPod.
What the hell does he need a phone charger fer? He's not allowed a phone, and he won't be for the next couple of years in Juvi. I think he took the charger to the Ipod and the Ipod itself so I think he's got it all there, just need headphones which I'm sure he has.
Now, I'm not so pissed cuz of the stuff he took. That's all replaceable, well, technically, the fact that they just never actually get replaced (cuz of money) is a different matter I suppose.
But its more so the fact that I always get stoled from that enrages me! -_-
I get a lot of things stolen from me. A lot!
And I don't understand why meee.
I don't ...ask for this!
I don't leave my car doors open, asking for someone to steal it.
I don't leave my CD's out on the dash so someone can browse my stuff before deciding to steal it.
I don't leave my money out where it shouldn't be for quick little hands!
I don't lose my stuff - I know where it is - so I know the minute that it's gone!
I keep track of my stuff, I appreciate my stuff, I actually USE my stuff, I don't take it for granted. I work hard for what I have damnit!
I am a responsible person!
And I don't steal from anyone in return!
I've been ....violated.
Been made a victim...
I'm sick and tired of this shit!
I'm sick of those punk asses going after my stuff! Not that I have anything of great value, but dude, it's my stuff, it's the sense of ONCE owning something.
And it's not a violation of physical touch, sexual or violent either. It's just simply being made a victim for no reason. I've been violated in a lot of ways, but this way is just driving me crazy. I think I'd rather have the violation of touch or something. This is all just sick thoughts. Gotta stop. Ugh.
I could blame my parents, yes. They are the ones that put these Rent-A-Kids in their own home with their own children. But somehow, I can't blame them. They think their doing the right thing joining this program and trying to 'help out' these kids.
But I've said it from the beginning - this program don't do JACK for these kids. They don't give a damn who is giving them a second or 50th chance, they ain't gonna take it. They want their "fast and fun" lifestyle and they'll do anything to keep it, even at age 14. We've prolly had a dozen kids here and I bet half, if not most, are in Juvi now or out on the run - expected to be in jail most of their 20's.
My philosophy is if yer gonna screw up yer life, that's fine with me. But don't involve other ppls lives...
If yer gonna screw up yer life by being a hoe and sleeping with any guy you see with no protection, thats fine with me, but when you actually bring a child into this world b/c of yer mistakes, thas when I get pissed.
You wanna gamble, smoke, and drink, - fine with me, but don't involve yer spouse or your children into that dangerous mix.
Now I know some of this is impossible to leave ppl out of it...but maybe thas my point. Don't frickin do it!!
I've never had a lot. Prolly cuz of this reason. But what little I do have seems to disappear too.
I'm not out buying all these CD's or electronics... I don't have a nice phone or Ipod or stereo or whadeva. I get hand-me downs. I got Dallins old beat up iPod cuz he was gonna upgrade. I was lucky to have something that played music!
I make them last too! I have NEVER lost my phone or phone charger and I make them last the whole two years so I dont have to pay those extra costs to upgrade my phone.
Why don't you steal the phone stuff from the person who is gonna upgrade their phone in a couple of weeks anyway?! Why don't you steal from the person who has the money to replace this phone stuff?!
Why don't you steal that girls f***** BMW that her parents bought her to go to college with?!
Damnit! I work hard for what I got. And everything else is hand-me-downs out of pity fer me. And what do I get?! Ripped off. I didnt have a car for years so I could pay out of pocket for college. Some kids won't 'survive' without a car. Some kids skip the education and just work all their lives so they can pay for those expensive toys.
Maybe the worst part is when I tell ppl something of mine got stolen AGAIN - nobody believes me! They all claim its my negligence! Bull shit! "Maybe you misplaced it" I don't frickin' misplace things like other ppl I know! I know my stuff and I know where it is and I know when it goes missing!
When I told me mum that the punk ass stole it she didn't believe me. She actually -defended- him! "He has no use of an ipod - you must've misplaced it" The hell I did!!
When my car got stolen Jed stood there and stared saying "are you sure it was stolen?" Well when I have the keys in my hand and my car is gone, that's the only conclusion I see here Jed!!
And the only reason Mum believed me when my cash got stolen by one of these punk asses was cuz he stole from her too - so she knew he was stealing from the house.
I only have one person on my black list so far.
But with these punks - they might make it to that list.
But I don't think their worth it though...
DAMN YOOUUU TO HELL!!